Hi guy's and girls.
This last couple of weeks I have been struggling a lot with dysphoria. But I realized also I grew impatient in transitioning. I just want to get everything over and done with as soon as possible. I want to finish the operation because I can't stand the male genitals. I want my voice to be perfect and in it all I forgot that getting this far took time and hard work. I guess a timeline for transitioning is not set in stone. But I guess it would take about 3 years to finish transition in my case and I am only a little bit than a year full time now.
I am still fighting with home affairs to sort out my ID I contacted a lawyer to help me with this. As the people working at home affairs is pretty useless and spiteful. Numerous people have problems with them. To get married I have to have my id sorted with a new ID number. It is a long journey to get to the point where I feel my transition is done and complete, I just got a bit impatient getting there.
I know how you feel. I think we all get like that at times. Transition seems to take forever. Waiting for the effects of hrt really seems to take forever and everyone says it takes like five years to see maximum results. Waiting for surgery is also hard. The surgeon I decided on has a 12 month wait time. It's only a year but it seems like 20. My dad is always telling me to chill out and that it takes as long as it takes. He also thinks my transition so far has been quick. That's easy for cis people to say.
Julia