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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Female to male transsexual talk (FTM) => Topic started by: AlexW on August 31, 2017, 07:01:33 PM

Title: Hi again
Post by: AlexW on August 31, 2017, 07:01:33 PM
Been awhile! (TMI warning)

I am now coming up on 3 months on T, and really just wanted...idk gush about it? There's a lot of bad ->-bleeped-<- going on in my family atm, mental health wise, for pretty much everyone but me, so I feel bad gushing to them.

I started on Gel on the 13th of July at a low dose. I was a bit concerned that it would mean that I would have to wait a long time to see changes, but while I am still on that dose, I am also turning extremely furry. My happy-trail, while patchy, reaches above my navel, my leg hair has gone dark well above the knee, and I am already getting patches of facial hair. Faster than I thought, though sadly it's mostly gray at 31, a genetic quirk I inherited from my dad.

I don't think I've ever been as emotionally stable as I am on T, which was another surprise. I'd geared up for mood swings and keeping my temper tighter than before, but I'm just happy and calm.

I've sadly not gotten free of "Shark Week" just yet, but I am hopeful it'll happen soon-ish.

I've had some joint and ligament soreness because I've been overexerting myself a bit. I've also put on about 10 kg, which is more of a con. I've had to buy new pants twice.  :-\

I'm just so happy, even with the weight, itchy hair growth, and pimples.
Title: Re: Hi again
Post by: Ryuichi13 on September 01, 2017, 12:19:37 AM
Congrats on the changes!  Has your voice started changing yet?

Also, sorry to hear that you're having personal troubles, but we're here to vent to if you ever feel the need. 

Ryuichi

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Title: Re: Hi again
Post by: AlexW on September 01, 2017, 04:49:07 PM
Thanks!
Yeah, in the fact that my range has shrunk. It hasn't really gotten noticeably deeper or more masculine, but I can't reach the high notes that I used to. It keeps breaking embarrassingly too.

Thanks, that's really nice to know. It's pretty much that my entire family is depressed, my 15yo niece (who I helped raise and is like a daughter to me) is currently hospitalized for mental health reasons, and money is really tight. I feel really selfish for having this little ray of happiness in my life that is my transition. That actually feels really weird to me, too, like my transness has always been a source of distress, but now... Idk, I have this small thing, like stubble, that brings me happiness even on a ->-bleeped-<-ty day. It feels really weird. I mean, I still get distressed from dysphoria, today was even a really bad dysphoria day, but I still can't help smile when running my hand across my face.
Title: Re: Hi again
Post by: JayBlue on September 01, 2017, 09:37:18 PM
Quote from: AlexW on September 01, 2017, 04:49:07 PM
Yeah, in the fact that my range has shrunk. It hasn't really gotten noticeably deeper or more masculine, but I can't reach the high notes that I used to. It keeps breaking embarrassingly too.

Thanks, that's really nice to know. It's pretty much that my entire family is depressed, my 15yo niece (who I helped raise and is like a daughter to me) is currently hospitalized for mental health reasons, and money is really tight. I feel really selfish for having this little ray of happiness in my life that is my transition. That actually feels really weird to me, too, like my transness has always been a source of distress, but now... Idk, I have this small thing, like stubble, that brings me happiness even on a ->-bleeped-<-ty day. It feels really weird. I mean, I still get distressed from dysphoria, today was even a really bad dysphoria day, but I still can't help smile when running my hand across my face.

I am also 3 months on T.  I cannot sign anymore. I can't figure out how to sing with the new pitch, and my voice is cracking like crazy.  I also have some stubble so I started shaving. The hair on my legs is growing wildly, which kind of surprised me. My arm hair is growing a little, but not much.  It is weird how these little things can bring so much happiness. 

Sorry to hear about your niece, and I hope she is able to get the help that she needs.  You deserve to have some happiness though and can even be a better support to your family if you are right with yourself. 

Jay