Hello
My name is jack, i have not decided my female name yet. sorry for that. i'm 28 years old. english is not my first language, so bear it with me. to be honest, i always have this feeling that i'm not born into the right gender. i always feel that i must be a female. at 13-14 years old(i dont remember exactly) i tried to wear my mom's stocking at first, i thought it's just a curiosity of a young boy, but as i get older, i begin to crossdress using my sister clothes when my family is not home. i find women's clothes are fascinating, and at that time i still think it's just a young man curiosity (and think maybe it's my fetish).
i try to push my feelings away. i tried denying that this all fetish of mine is just a fetish, nothing more, i'm just a man who likes to dress as a girl..
but it did not stop there. when i crossdress, i feel safe, i feel that this is what i must be, i feel that my burden have just lifted.
NO, i don't want to be just a crossdresser, i look into that mirror, and all i see is a man that looks ridiculous wearing woman's clothes. when i look into the mirror i don't feel comfortable with myself.
i'm imagining i'm looking at that mirror and there's a woman looking back, smiling. somehow that makes me comfortable, i feel that's how i should be. that's when i realize i want to be a woman. My biggest regret is i don't realize it sooner. :(
of course, my story above is just the simplified story. There's more that that. i have problems that i want to share in here. but maybe i will save it for later on another sub forum. this is just an introduction afterall.
i'm still at school for my master degree, i like watching tv series like friends, HIMYM, GoT, supernatural, prison break, japanese drama, etc.
Have a good day, everyone ;)
Hi Jackie
I'm Laurie, a mtf and I'd like to welcome you to Susan"s Place. (Hug) Come on in. Many of us here including myself have very similar stories to the one you relate so you have lots of company here like you. Come in sit down and make yourself at home. Tell us a little bit more about yourself so we can get to know you a little better and greet you properly.
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Hi and welcome [emoji4].
You've found your way to a wonderful corner of the Internet, full of fantastic and caring people.
All our stories are different, but there are often common themes, you are not alone!
The best advice I can give is try to find a good therapist or counsellor where you live, so you can talk through your feelings and maybe learn a bit more about who you are and what you want.
Good luck and we're here for you. X
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Welcome to Susan's Place. Don't worry about the name. When you figure out what your new name is, let a moderator know and we will change it for you. Many people on the site are still working on their names so we change them all the time. What you are feeling and what you are thinking is something that most of use felt at sometime in our life. Don't worry about any questions you have because we asked the same questions. Just let us know how we can help you.
Hi Jackie :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Hello Jackie! People are so generous sharing their experiences and offering support here. You will like it.
Tommie