I am not sure what has been happening lately and I hope this continues to get better. Recently, I have been so content with myself overall that I dont really feel too much dysphoria. To the point that even when i wake up in the morning and see facial stubble or go to the bathroom and see that nasty thing flop out I still do not like either of those things, but I feel not attached to them. In otherwords I dont even really feel the male things anymore, and instead of fixating on those male things I look in the mirror and see a happ female. As I did today and felt a bit sense of euphoria even in the mix of feeling normal and just doing regualr life living and thinking.
I havent felt this detached from ''maleness'' for this long of a period of time (cant really give a number) argueablly since ever, but especially since my April 2016 breakdown where life went nuts and I lost my mind and could only seem to fixate on the ''male stuff''. Which as you all know made me go off the edge. I did have one really really really terrifying nightmare about two weeks ago but it didnt effect me much. And since then I have only felt more secure. I am a bit lost as I dont know if this is a new chapter of some sorts of self identity or if i am back where I should have been but only more stable.
Quotesense of euphoria even in the mix of feeling normal and just doing regualr life living and thinking
Welcome to the real world, Ashley! The world where you get to be yourself, and dysphoria is low and manageable. Enjoy!
Hi Ashley, congrats !! Im at 9 months of HRT and can't believe how much my persona has changed with as you say a true sense of calm. Everything is finally in alignment and everything just feels right.
Its finally nice to be at peace isn't it.
Huggs Niki