Hello, I'm Lindsey.
I've been following this forum for a while now and am just not getting the courage to post.
I'm a 6'6" tall 40-year-old transwoman from the Seattle area. Married, for now, and have two daughters, teen and pre-teen. My wife is not a lesbian, she has gone back and forth a couple times on whether she will stay or go. I have a feeling it will be the former. She has been great, it would be very hard for me, but I would try to understand if she couldn't carry on with the marriage.
I have known something was up since around puberty. Growing up in the 90's, I did not know what transgender was beside what others deemed wrong. So, I suppressed those feelings and thoughts as long as I could. It became the main cause of anger and depression from then on.
I have tried to find other reasons for the feelings, trying to at least find some sort of release.
My wife has been my biggest supporter. About 3 years ago, the feelings got too strong to ignore or suppress. I tried to find a way to make something work with my wife without accepting being trans. When my wife asked if I was trans, that just opened the floodgates. I started seeing a therapist shortly after. I finally found a good one and the help has been lifesaving.
Even though I know I have some concerns to deal with, being quite tall being one of them, I knew that transitioning had to happen. I started HRT Feb this year, it feels great. It feels right.
I am 'Out' to my wife, children, and my in-laws. They have all been accepting and supportive. I only have a couple friends, I have not told them. They most likely will not be as accepting, but that is okay, I rarely spend time with them. I do need to build up a support system as it is not fair for me to put it all on my wife.
I work as an Commercial Electrician. The construction industry is the kindest to women, let alone transgender women. So, that is another concern.
I am still presenting as male most of the time. I keep it minimal at home as my youngest daughter is having a bit of a rough time with her daddy changing. My oldest is accepting. I have not ventured out into public as Lindsey. I get so anxious, it will probably be quite some time until I do. I'm sure I'll get there, just not sure when. So many of you are so courageous, gives me hope.
Anyways, I could go on a lot longer, but here I am.
Welcome Lindsey :)
I'm a 40 y/o MTF transwoman from the UK. I started living full-time about 6 months ago. I have two children (5 and 3) who live with their Mum who I separated from. Other couples here have stayed together through transitions, so I do wish you and your partner the best for that.
There is plenty of great advice and support on offer here, but for now I'll leave you with a bit of light reading so you can get the most out of this wonderful resource. x
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Welcome to Susan's Place. I think that you will discover height isn't as much of an issue as you might think. I am 6'2" but I transitioned over 35 years ago when it seemed like everybody around me was shorter. Maybe a better diet is causing people to grow taller but height hasn't drawn excessive attention to me. The most important thing about passing in public is to be relaxed. Nerves will be detected by others and will draw the attention of others.
Hi Lindsey :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Welcome Lindsey! Im a soon to be fifty MTF living in Sweden. I started HRT February as well and it feels like coming home at last. Susans has been a great place for me. Hope it will be for you as well
Share some of your fears but most of them has gone. People around us are often accepting us for what we are.
Thank you everyone for the welcome.
Sry I didn't respond earlier, my wife was out of town, when she returned she told me she couldn't do it anymore.
So.... found an apartment, moving tomorrow. Divorce is moving forward.
Sad day, 23 years, met when 17. First loves.
Next chapter. Determined to not let it get me down.
I'll be around here more often, I'm sure of it.
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Hi Lindsey, Sorry to hear that your wife couldn't do it. It is a sad day. Trust that you will have support here.
Thank you Briah!
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