Have any of you trans folks on this site ever experienced this. I know it is possible to have phantom penis but vagina?
Being tightly tucked always I do get this sensation a lot. Especially at night from that I don't have erections anymore because of hrt. I feel different down there as if there is a vagina when I don't feel it moving around. I don't really know what having one feels like because I must still get my surgery. I would feel like this and then be like wait but you have a ummmmm. I don't know how to explain it really. I think my brain is playing tricks on me at this stage.
What started recently is some hot and steamy thoughts, mostly when I am about to fall asleep. In these moments it does feel like I do have a vagina even though it is not there. Even touching sensation is close to what I imagine a real vagina to be.
The issue about it is that I just get more dysphoric about my genitals. Unfortunately for a few reasons I have currently postponed surgery :-(
I think I can relate to what you are saying Amoré. I'm not sure if I would describe my feelings as phantom vagina but more like emptiness, like there is nothing down there that doesn't belong there and those moments feel quite peaceful and natural.
If you no longer have the sensation of it moving freely around, I think your brain will get used to that and adapt; and also it's not behaving like a penis anymore because of the HRT.
The opposite happened for me, what's there started behaving more like a penis and doesn't particularly feel or operate like a vagina. Hormones defintiely have something to do with all of that and it takes the brain a few months to catch up but it does.
I know this is not the same as what you are saying but thought it might be of interest. I had surgery 4 months ago. It takes no time at all to forget how it felt to have a penis. I look down and can't even picture where it would go. The brain adjusts so quickly.
Moni
Not trying to be argumentative, but I never felt a phantom penis. The moment I woke up from anesthesia, I felt normal, the way I should have been all along. I am 18 months post-op and even when I thought about phantom penis, it just never happened.
I guess I just don't believe in ghosts, in spite of Halloween tomorrow. :laugh: