SIGH was going to have a wonderful day then my mom texted asking me to call - "oh how's it going you getting things done? No? Oh well GIT GUD! -, love you bye!" Yeah making me feel bad about a lack of progress is an excellent thing to do! Not like I'm fed up with it myself. Tried to tell her that nagging is not helpful and to stop trying to micromanage my life but she just nods and decides she's doing something good anyway - usual result is I go curl up in a ball and be depressed for the next day or so......
Had to deal with the aftermath of a fight between some online friends - I didn't have to but I just feel it's right to check on everyone and make sure they know some one cares about or understand s their pain and frustration.
And today got yelled at by some stranger who was annoyed bysomthing incomprehensibly petty - the fight I understood but this guy just wanted to bitch at someone before I came along - I just left but I have a bit of social anxiety and that ->-bleeped-<- does not help.
So now I need to try to get some work done and not curl up in a ball and give up.
*Looooonnnngggggg sigh*
Moms can be complicated. It took me a while to make mine understand that I wasn't 5 yo anymore, and I had a life on my own. It was not an easy nor nice process, but it has to be done if you want your mother to stop checking at everything you do and telling you how to do it.
It sounds like you can use a friend (or therapist) you can talk to and vent to get it out of your system. It usually helps me feel for a while provided I don't stumble and fall down the rabbit hole. Unfortunately I'm pretty good at doing that. Sometimes it is more of a running dive into it. Finding your way back out is the trick and a good friend could be of help in doing that.
Hugs,
Laurie
Moms are... Moms and always will be
If nagging were an artform moms would have the market cornered
Their innate ability to give you a compliment and a slap in the face at the same time is impeccable
But hey, gotta love 'em because none of us know how long any of will be here in this existence and anyone can be gone in the blink of an eye
Besides, my mom knows I'm gonna smile and say "Okay" and then do what I'm gonna do
Friends and life in general can be a real kick in the chops at times and having social anxiety truly doesn't help
Sometimes I just want to snuggle a pillow and usually fall asleep while sobbing on whatever has upset me
But then a new day comes and it's time to get up and at it again
Some days I feel like it would be better to be out to her to help her understand that I have problems and goals of my own to work out but ultimately I can't trust her to keep her nose out of it. Really the only reason I'm not out to my parents at this point - can't trust them to let me solve my own problems. Which is a pretty sad reason.
It's also a lot of why I have trouble keeping in touch with friends always worried about saying something and it getting back to my mom and having her asking about my progress on my hobbies and pressuring me to do them... MY HOBBIES FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! Ugh well to quote the woman herself "this too shall pass." And when it does im going very far away and turning my phone off for a while.That is what they call a vacation is it not?
Ohh gees now you've got me thinking about freinds..... hopefully I'll be able to reconnect with a few soon. Social anxiety aside good friends are awesome. (Hey it's me been a few years how's it going) how on earth do people do that? One of the ones Im looking to get back in touch with showed up literally at my door after a few years and a lot of distance like nothing happened a few years ago and we had a blast. Ahh good times.....