What's gender euphoria like for you :laugh:? How do you experience it?
Do you still have it as strong after transitioning? Or has being living as your true self made it 'normal' & unnoticeable? Or is it as strong as ever - and has that euphoric feeling come to last :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:?!
Oh, and what triggers it? Any stories/memorable experiences you wanna share?
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Oh, boy..... ;D! As some people have noticed - being on this forum has been good for me ;D ;D ;D!
Don't know about you - but TO ME the answer is crystal clear: It feels ECSTATIC!!! Indescribable feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can only compare it to good sex/having an orgasm!!! Bcos I actually feel it in my body. It feels SOOOOOO good.
I've always got this feeling WHENEVER I've been in any way recognized as a guy, somehow. One of the most memorable being a recurring dream I had as a child in which I was a boy. It was very short - but I had it often - and I had THIS FEELING in it!!!!
And I'm having it increasingly today since I signed in on this forum, :laugh:!
Being here is like a drug to me - a constant high - that I'm getting addicted to :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:! Who wouldn't?? Every he, dude, man, Mr. etc. causes it!!!
I wonder if you guys have it that strong, :laugh:??
I just wonder... if I feel this good when I'm recognized as a man - what will I feel then when I start T & start to pass daily?? Can't imagine, really :laugh:!
I specifically remember EACH occurance in my childhood & past when I've been recognized as myself.
And a little dose of gender euphoria equals thousands of dysphoria for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And now you guys are shooting me up with years worth of it :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:!!!!!!!!!!! What have I done to deserve this much pleasure :laugh:?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, it also makes me beam & puts the utmost orgasmic grin on my face :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:!!!
It's just an indescribable feeling, really!!!!!!!!!!!!
I also got that each time I've been in a group of boys.
It's gender high!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The initial feeling when I hear a word/am recognized is something like sexual pleasure in my stomach, it feels SO good!!! (Or a burning sensation in my chest/stomach!) And then I get this stupid grin on my face :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:!!!!! And then I get this long-lasting high - going on for hours now! Like - I don't feel hunger, tiredness, or any emotion besided euphoria!
Damn, it must suck to be cis! I'm almost certain cis people never get to experience this, :D!
You're right about CIS people never experiencing that feeling. CIS people take their gender for granted and never give it a thought. I really don't experience what you call gender euphoria since I transitioned. But I did when people gendered me as female before transition which happened a lot among strangers. My dad and brother got to the point that they didn't even bother correcting people if they were with me when it happened. My mom always corrected people which I hated! My brother would get mad at first but once he realized that it didn't upset me in the least he stopped getting mad at people for rendering me as female. He got really mad at one of his friends once because he had said to me " well I guess you are kind of a boy." Lol. The funny thing is that people who knew I was a boy would use female pronouns and call me "Julie" intending it as an insult but it actually made me happy. Strange they always used Julie and never Julia. But those people weren't exactly rocket scientists.
I think after a year or 2 the gender euphoria kind of wears off for a lot of us.
Pre transition when people called me by my actual name and pronouns yeah. Or early on hormones and I could start noticing the changes. But now my body just feels right and normal. I still get some moments of euphoria when I feel how flat my chest now is. Or when I see myself topless and see how my body now looks how I imagined for years it should. Or I've just noticed very recently how my hips are now subtlety narrower and I look less curvy
Tough to describe because I hate the entire situation of being forced to feel my gender so acutely in the first place.
But, it's close to the feeling of satisfaction you get when you thought there was something wrong with you (medically) and you get an all clear. Or when you look in the mirror after you've been trying to reach a certain fitness goal and see what you wanted to see. It's more like a relief than euphoria in my experience.
Quote from: PurpleWolf on December 11, 2017, 10:58:10 PM
Oh, and what triggers it? Any stories/memorable experiences you wanna share?
Wolf "euphoria" definitely describes me better than "dysphoric"! Was never totally unhappy with
"boy mode" in the sense that it offered me plenty of opportunities to be closer to the girls I identified with and guys I've loved!
When looking in the mirror I see the girl I've otherwise become rather than "the guy" the world has grown used to all these years! "
One of these days Alice" (from the Honeymooners). . .
Older acquaintance at work: "
Hey [lastname] why don't you cut your hair you look like a girl!!"
Me: "
As long as not an attractive girl to you WHY DO YOU CARE!?"
It's the relief of feeling normal when I've felt freakish my entire life. My chronically bunched-up muscles relax. I lose my dread of talking to new people. It's a feeling of actually liking myself, which is strange and unfamiliar to me. In the past, the only thing that got me close to that kind of high was alcohol. Gender euphoria is better than booze though, because it's free and doesn't make me sick.
Each new step gives me a little euphoria but a month ago I was sitting talking with my wife when I had this warm calming wave flow thru and over me and the feeling was like none I had ever felt in my life. That was the day I knew I was on the right path and that was when I decided to go full time female without regret or fear.
Great answers, guys! Good someone started posting in this again.
It's funny I do experience that feeling I described in any new situation or when I'm thought of as a guy in some new way, term etc. Overall though in these past few months that extreme euphoric/pleasurable feeling has become my new reality, so I don't jump from joy like that each time I'm referred to as he for example anymore. But in any new situation, or any new word... Instead after my name change I've felt this giant CALMNESS & PEACE & general well-being, a constant high that's been going on ever since. Each time I'm thought of as guy adds to it and feels wonderful. And words do still make me smile!!!
I think the most profound change is that, now I feel good ALL THE TIME - and have noticed that before name change I felt sucky all the time, without really realizing it.
And on top of that general blissful feeling that I've now accepted as my reality and it's only gonna get better, I also feel immense pleasure whenever seeing myself in the mirror with a flat chest, or looking more guyish or having bigger arms... etc. Or seeing my face looks more male in pics etc.
Now I'm comparing that constant blissfullness to people describing what they've felt when they started T :D! It feels weirdly amazing not feeling down & depressed & cringy all the time. I think after those first rapturous moments I got here my mood has stabilized & I feel this constant immense energy (as if I was on T), feel limitless, and ALIVE. Like I woke up from a baaad dream that lasted years and now my new reality is a sweet dream.
I just have to think of my new legal name, and I get that euphoric feeling in my stomach again!
I compared that extreme euphoria to being shot with heroin :laugh:- this constant stable, happy, blissful state is like being on some slow-enhancing drug 24/7 :angel:. I really do wonder what I'll feel on T then :D :D :D!
Being oneself. Most people present a false self, but it's nothing like having GD. For us it's hiding who we are out of conscious fear. This split can only be ameliorated by ending the charade.
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I don't think I experience gender euphoria, most gender confirming experiences I have are around the feelings of normalcy. It can sometimes feel like a calming wave sometimes if I've been particularly dysphoric and get some kind of social recognition. Either way it's a peaceful feeling, not euphoria, just feeling of wholeness and a belonging.
Peace and love and all that good stuff,
Sadie
Quote from: PurpleWolf on December 11, 2017, 10:58:10 PM
What's gender euphoria like for you [emoji23]? How do you experience it?
Do you still have it as strong after transitioning? Or has being living as your true self made it 'normal' & unnoticeable? Or is it as strong as ever - and has that euphoric feeling come to last [emoji23] [emoji23] [emoji23]?!
Oh, and what triggers it? Any stories/memorable experiences you wanna share?
Dude, I swear, you ask some of the BEST questions! Even ones I've yet to think of asking! [emoji1]
My gender euphoria ususally just makes me grin amd feel warm and fuzzy inside, even after more than 15 months on T! I'd say I pass 95% of the time now, and have for months, but with each and every "sir," "Mr," etc, I want to yell out "YES!" still! Especially when it happens when I'm on the phone. Sure, my voice is now nice baritone, but for some reason, I still occasionally get clocked. Oh well.
No, its still a relatively new experience for me to be referred to as masculine, especially after being misgendered for 54 years. So I grin like The Joker after every correct pronoun.
Its even funnier to me when I get called Mr. ------- in doctor's offices and the like, since many people can't or won't try to pronounce my (chosen) Japanese first name. My last name is a very common English word and simple to say, so I often get called Mr. ------- instead. I also no longer say "Mr. ------ is my Dad's name," that's for sure!
Ryuichi
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It's better than any drug I've ever tried.
Quote from: PurpleWolf on December 11, 2017, 10:58:10 PM
I can only compare it to good sex/having an orgasm!!! Bcos I actually feel it in my body. It feels SOOOOOO good.
Sometimes when I put on my packer/stp, especially if my lower dysphoria has been particularly loud. It confuses me sometimes because of how close it is to sex/orgasms but it's still distinctly different in that I'm not actually "turned on" at all. It's especially confusing considering the area it relates to. But it's also generally been one of my biggest sources of dysphoria.
I'm kinda glad to know I'm not the only one who experiences a similar sensation in regards to gender euphoria lol
Another way I might describe it is if you've been feeling tension, stiffness and discomfort/pain in your shoulder joint. You may have had it for a while and almost even ignore it. And then it suddenly pops back into place and is realigned and you get this a wave of relief and rightness and there's this stark contrast and you wonder how you ever bore what it was like before. Like that to the power of 10.
I don't, really.
Not sure if that's a valid answer :P
I think it's great other people feel such a thing. But to be honest hormones just made me feel like 'me'. I expected some great thing out of top surgery, like a catharsis of some sort, but that never happened. I just feel more normal. Definitely not euphoria but really really normal.
And I'm thankful for it :)
I'm another who's not sure if I've ever really experienced gender euphoria. Various steps in transitioning have felt like a weight being lifted off my shoulders. I'm more peaceful and content and grounded in my own body than I used to be. But I'd definitely describe it as contentment, not euphoria.
I wake up in the morning and I see... THE REAL ME. I like the way She looks so I take care of my body. People interact with a women and that feels awesome. I put on my clothes and they feel right. Life is just.... great. I love being me for the first time in decades and that feeling is something I've never had.
Its like living your life under a smothering blanket and suddenly having it removed. The anxiety, jealousy and anger that coloured every interaction are simply gone and I can be happy for no reason at all.