Hi girls and boys 🙋♀️ We all here need to experience the right of passage called "hello, I'm new here"! I missed that boat and need to get on board and as the header implies this is all about Jessica.
I'm a 61 yo trans-woman in the SF Bay Area. Like many here, I recognized the thought of being a girl in my teens. I had heard about Christine Jorgensen and it sent a shiver of fear down my spine, because I felt wow, cool, you can do that? I wasn't sure about if I was gay or what....no resources really. I felt I was attracted to both genders. But I buried the thought of being with men. Since I was sexually attracted to women also, l realized that finding love there was well worth it. Met a woman that was a bit younger, naive and a bit of a tomboy. We fell in love and raised 2 sons that are fine adults now.
I had a career in the construction field for 34 years, solidly working as a working foreman. I enjoyed the challenge on many levels creating (in my mind) artwork in structure. I was the one they went to when they didn't know how to do it. I am proud of my team that helped me achieve my goals, no one can succeed fully on their own. After injuring myself (off site) I retired to a new job of grandpa. There is no better job than being a grandparent.
From the beginning to now I have experimented with aspects of myself in various ways. My wife knew I was attracted to men from the beginning and after a decade or so, I asked her if I could check out those feelings. She allowed it as long as I was safe and it didn't intrude on our time together. I enjoyed it only as the "submissive" partner, but it didn't feel right. The feeling that I should be a woman while having sex with men arose and it became the fantasy when with them. That led me to examine my gender issues closer. I feel that I have a woman's mind in a mans body and a mans body with a woman's mind. I feel both emotions. Gender fluid, and varies along the scale. My thought on the matter is that everyone is somewhere on the scale between feminine and masculine and that any person is as individual as the next, no one the same.
In my decision to embrace my feminine side, I weighed out my options. I had talked to my wife about feeling like I wouldn't mind being a woman. She has agreed that I should start hrt to see if it was right for me. So far we both have seen positive effects and I feel good just having the chance to feel more like who I am. I haven't had very much dysphoria through the years. I've had a good, happy life in my male mode. So if I never can pass as a woman (but feeling that I am a woman in my mind) I will still be content. I hope some day to be able to pass 100% though, that's when srs will be the order of the day.
Big hugs, Jessica 💁♀️
Thanks, Jessica. We've traded a few messages before, but it's nice to know you better!
Steph
Hi Jessica,
I'm Laurie, Please let me say Welcome to Susan's Place ! ((Hug)) Come on it girl. Your story has a lot of similarities with mine with the exception of the male attraction. Oh there is an element of curiosity there in I wonder what it would feel like to be with a man in the submissive role only. I have no attraction to men with the exception of the unique equipment and only to fulfill my curiosity (though I suppose that could change)
I agree with you about being a grandparent and the 17 years I was allowed to be one were great. I miss it.
Anyway, I'll add some links and information below that can help you get more out of our site. Please take time to become familiar with them especially the RED one as we are always getting questions that are answered there. LOL
Hugs,
Laurie
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Quote from: Laurie on December 20, 2017, 01:41:01 PM
Hi Jessica,
I'm Laurie, Please let me say Welcome to Susan's Place ! ((Hug)) Come on it girl. Your story has a lot of similarities with mine with the exception of the male attraction. Oh there is an element of curiosity there in I wonder what it would feel like to be with a man in the submissive role only. I have no attraction to men with the exception of the unique equipment and only to fulfill my curiosity (though I suppose that could change)
I agree with you about being a grandparent and the 17 years I was allowed to be one were great. I miss it.
Anyway, I'll add some links and information below that can help you get more out of our site. Please take time to become familiar with them especially the RED one as we are always getting questions that are answered there. LOL
Hugs,
Laurie
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Thank you Laurie.....now how do I post my avatar??? Lol
Jessica my dear newbie,
I'll send you a PM and tell you where you can put your avatar complete with the instructions on how to accomplish it.
Hugs,
Laurie
Oh my, Hi Jessica :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here still, join on in the fun
Thanks for posting an intro. LOL ;D
Hugs
V M
Jessica, thank you for the belated intro post [emoji5].
I'll admit to a little jealousy in the wonderful relationship you have with your partner, it's great the two of you are taking the journey of discovery together. I don't feel that journey ever really ends, rather it's how we grow as people; may you keep growing. X
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Quote from: Megan. on December 20, 2017, 02:30:45 PM
Jessica, thank you for the belated intro post [emoji5].
I'll admit to a little jealousy in the wonderful relationship you have with your partner, it's great the two of you are taking the journey of discovery together. I don't feel that journey ever really ends, rather it's how we grow as people; may you keep growing. X
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Thank you Megan, I do recognize my luck. But I think it's been a lifetime together (37 years) and treating each other with complete equality and respect that was the ticket for us. We are people, humans that love. That comes before gender and sex every time.
Hugs, Jessica
Welcome from a Blackpool girl
Quote from: big kim on December 20, 2017, 05:02:37 PM
Welcome from a Blackpool girl
Thank you Kim! I'm going to have to keep you in the closet from my son..... he's an Arsenal fan.
Quote from: Steph2.0 on December 20, 2017, 01:25:04 PM
Thanks, Jessica. We've traded a few messages before, but it's nice to know you better!
Steph
Thank you Steph 🙋♀️ I've been reading about your adventures. It is nice that we all can feel free enough to bring others into our lives. There is something, I think, akin to a group bonding here and I think it comes from that freedom to feel how we actually feel, no reservations.
Jessica...Welcome aboard sister!!! You have arrived amongst friends...
albeit, smart ass ones!!!... 😀
Seriously though my dear sister, I didn't know you were somewhat local geographically!... I am just south in the Monterey area... Let me know if you are ever heading this way and we can go cause trouble!!!
Luv Ya Girl ❤️
A 😀
Jessica, can't find the reply to your PM. I follow 2 teams Blackpool & West Ham, both having a bad spell (again!)
Quote from: tgirlamc on December 22, 2017, 12:01:18 AM
Jessica...Welcome aboard sister!!! You have arrived amongst friends...
albeit, smart ass ones!!!... 😀
Seriously though my dear sister, I didn't know you were somewhat local geographically!... I am just south in the Monterey area... Let me know if you are ever heading this way and we can go cause trouble!!!
Luv Ya Girl ❤️
A 😀
Ashley that's sounds fun! Next time I bring the RZR to Pismo, would you be up to a roller coaster ride?
Quote from: Jessica on December 22, 2017, 12:00:27 PM
Ashley that's sounds fun! Next time I bring the RZR to Pismo, would you be up to a roller coaster ride?
Hey Jessica!
Such a venture would certainly bring back memories of my many years of work down here on the former Ft Ord... We used Polaris rigs a lot to get into a lot of the less accessible areas of the post to do haz mat remediation construction activities and military munition cleanup during my time there.... Okay... and have fun on the dunes too!!!!
Let me know when you are heading this direction sister!
Hugs!!!
A 😀🌻❤️
Quote from: big kim on December 22, 2017, 01:38:35 AM
Jessica, can't find the reply to your PM. I follow 2 teams Blackpool & West Ham, both having a bad spell (again!)
The way it sounds from listening to my son, Arsenal is in the same boat. I root for NewCastle, because I like their ale.