Hello everyone,
I signed up here a few months ago while I was exploring whether or not I was transgender. I started seeing a gender therapist in September 2017 and finished my sessions in November. I learned a lot here and the various conversations gave me a lot of insight into who I wanted to be.
I came to the eventual conclusion that I am not transgender, or not exactly. I think I would be fine as a woman, that I would even enjoy it and that it would not conflict with who I am as a person. However, I also realized that even if I transitioned fully, or even if I magically had my body become 100% female, I still wouldn't truly consider myself female due to who I am and my life experience growing up male. This took a lot of thought, conversations with friends and my therapist, and I went back and forth for months before settling here, but I think I'm content with this conclusion. I really did not want to transition due to the costs and medical elements, and while I know being trans does not mean one has to transition this realization made me realize that being female was not as important to me as i once thought it was.
I am now exploring myself as a man with feminine interests. I am trying to express the feminine elements of my personality more and to just let my genuine self out in public. I still cross dress at times and I had a wonderful time cosplaying Marceline the Vampire Queen from the cartoon Adventure Time this past Halloween. It has felt right for me to embrace both sides of who I am, and I hope eventually to be totally comfortable with it.
Good luck to everyone still struggling, and thanks to all who supported me when I first signed up!
Sure flightless that is why all of us are here to help one another and find ourselves and who we are!!! So good to hear a positive footnote on your story!!!!
Flightless!
I'm glad you found where your path lies my friend!!!... Wishing you all good things and a life of joyous discoveries!!!
Hugs
Ashley 😀❤️🌻
Let's just call it a final update for now, but welcome to the non binary, the blend space of gender :)
Does this mean you are not trans.? No, not at all, it just means that you are not transitioning and regardless of that, you are always welcome here.
Looking forward to future 'final updates' :)
Rowan