Oh my, so many thoughts. Since I was a small child I always felt something was wrong or I didn't belong. While I seemed successful in putting those thoughts into the back of my head, they never went away and over the years things would just go WHAM and then I'd get the feeling(s) that I just didn't belong.
In retrospect, I think I'm probably a good actor in that I have spent so many years in a role and fortunately, starting next week I'll be getting out of the type cast :)
As I mentioned, if all goes well I'll begin my new journey next Wednesday (Jan 3rd) with MTF HRT. In addition to those life longs thoughts, I'm currently feeling mixed emotions; anxiety, excitment, some thrill(?) and some I can't even put to words as yet.
Cali
Hi Cali :icon_wave:
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V M
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Quote from: CalDudette on December 29, 2017, 06:25:36 PM
Oh my, so many thoughts. Since I was a small child I always felt something was wrong or I didn't belong. While I seemed successful in putting those thoughts into the back of my head, they never went away and over the years things would just go WHAM and then I'd get the feeling(s) that I just didn't belong.
In retrospect, I think I'm probably a good actor in that I have spent so many years in a role and fortunately, starting next week I'll be getting out of the type cast :)
As I mentioned, if all goes well I'll begin my new journey next Wednesday (Jan 3rd) with MTF HRT. In addition to those life longs thoughts, I'm currently feeling mixed emotions; anxiety, excitment, some thrill(?) and some I can't even put to words as yet.
Cali
I like many understand the mixed feelings, things not seeming quite right, and the oppressive hold playing a role bares. I wish you luck with your HRT I hope to start mine soon. I'm glad you're here it's a wonderful place with great caring people <3
Hi Cali
It's nice to see you here, and it's great to know that you took the decision to be yourself and I wish you a perfect transition.
Keep up updated during your HRT.
kisses and hugs
Haya
Hi and thank you.
I can't wait for the year to be over and Wednesday to get here.
Hi Cali, welcome to Susan's Place! Wednesday will be here before you know it, and after that you're going to be best friends with a little thing called momentum. :) See you around the site!
Hugs, Devlyn
Hi Cali,
I'm Laurie. I've seen you around here a bit recently. Welcome to our humble community. Glad you are here and are taking and active interest in the place. Do come on in.
Hugs,
Laurie
Thank you Laurie,
Visiting and reading all the forum messages takes the edge of things for me a little.