Hey everyone, I'm wondering if increased anxiety is normal while in the early stages of T? I am two weeks on T today (gel) and I also have a history of anxiety and ocd. Recently, I've found it so difficult to work with my therapist, who has been nothing but supportive of my transition. He acutely asked me a few years ago if I had ever considered transitioning and I was like "no way, not me!" And here we are since I've gotten to know myself finally. I just feel so embarrassed about it? Discussing transition related issues and processes and changes and all that. Up until now, he has been the only person I've really felt comfortable with for any topic, so for this inability to open up recently has me pretty messed up. Is this anxiety? Or is this my brain telling me transitioning is wrong?
I've also started T recently and I'm using gel too. I chose the gel for the daily dose as opposed to a weekly shot to keep mental health stuff more even. Overall, no increased anxiety though I had one day last weekend where I was in a funk out of the blue for no good reason. I started a low dose and I'm now on a full dose. I think the anxiety day was the first day or two of the full dose but back the usual now. No other changes in mood since I started, which is good.
Anxiety got less for me.
But I want to talk about the whole thing less with people. I experience less need to talk about things on T in general.
Maybe it is something like that.
Thank you both for the responses! I'm starting to think it may be my therapist since he is a male and I feel embarrassed and inferior by transitioning to male. He has never once made me feel that way, it's all anxiety related, but I've been finding I'm getting less and less comfortable around cis men whereas previously I struggled with relationships with cis women.