When you realise you were trans?
I started to wonder about it in my 40s. I figured it out for sure at age 61.
I knew when I was around 7
The first time I really thought about it was 11 years old. From there on till I was 32 I kept trying to hide it. Now I am 34 and fully accept it.
Between 4 and 5
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About 8 or 9.
I knew in 5th grade when we had sex ed class and it just didn't fit with me. And when I was 7ish I played with barbies as I said I liked to play with her cars.
Had hints that I was during my early teens, but thought I was only a crossdresser. Understood that I was trans in early to mid twenties. Finally accepted I was yesterday, aged 30. ::)
I thought I was a boy until I was 7 and they separated girls and boys in sports class. That's when I realized I don't belong there. My great teacher understood me and put me with the boys. I had sports with the boys through entire elementary school. Girls dressing room though.
Started to suspect in March, 2017. Knew for sure in April.
It's a long story.
I always knew I was different I had no idea trans even existed until I was in mt mid thirties I had a wife and small children so I slammed the door on that and buried it until I was 55 when bobbisue kicked the door off the closet and declared I am here to stay 2 1/2 tears later I am full time and waiting for my new birth certificate to show up in the mail
bobbisue :)
I wanted to be a girl for as far back as I can remember. Realizing that meant I was trans took until my late 20s. I started having the thought that maybe my gender wasn't male around 25, and accepted I was trans at 27
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Knew it all along. Didn't admit it soon enough.
I knew when I was 4 and told my mother and grandmother separately. I was open about it in the early part of childhood but then had to hide it and never discuss it.
I hated puberty and ever since have been crossdressing and bodyshaving. I buried and reburied till the dysphoria was too great and despite the embarrassment sought therapy last year aged 62 and am now on hormones.
OTOH many others only know later in life.
Pamela
Not a clue until I turned 67. Never fit in but never had a label for it, no idea the issue lay in gender.
I was first conscious of wanting to be female at age 10,though I can think of earlier things that make sense in retrospect. I figured out that I was probably trans around the end of junior high, in college I went into denial, and I didn't admit it to myself until I was 32. From then it took just under 2 years to begin transition.
I remember the first time I had some sort of inkling that I was different, I was 10 and I accidentally received a dress that was intended for my (then) stepsister for Christmas. I was so disappointed when my father took it from me and apologized for mislabeling the gift. That night I snuck out of my room and into the laundry room and tried it on, it fit and it felt so very right. That lead to me crossdressing off and on for the next 20 some odd years. It wasn't until about 6 months before I joined this site that I finally realized I wasn't just a cross dresser, but in fact transgender.
I thought I was a girl until I was five and started kindergarten. Then I got a rude surprise. I told my parents I wanted to be a girl when I was seven. That was in 1970, and it earned me quite a lecture from my father.
I first learned about gender transition in 1982 when I was 19. That was when I realized I was transgender. But it took three more attempts at transitioning and 33 years of misery before I got to where I am now.
As a teenage boy in high school I was a runt with very little bulk, very little muscle and a girlish face and voice to just about match. I was miserable when I was around the other male students that were becoming men with bulk, muscles, height, and a deep voice.... and I was the butt of their jokes and their bullying.
In my very early 20's in college things only improved very slightly and I started thinking that the situation is not going to get any better and perhaps that is when my first thoughts of transitioning became a reoccurring event. I was miserable and I unfortunately procrastinated and waited another 13 years to finally go to my doctor and counseling to start the process to begin HRT
My miserable male body now became an ideal vessel to be transformed into a female, and with the powerful assistance of HRT my transformed body has definitely been changed into a a convincing female body.... and my mind agrees.
I am certain that most people that transition ask themselves this question... "Why did I wait so long?"
I had always wanted to be a girl as long as I can remember. I was 54 before I realized that it was because I am one.
I had known of Renee Richards amd prettu sure I had heard of Christine Jorgensen before that so I knew about "sex change" as it was refered to back then. I had thought about it at times but never thought it was something that I would be able to or need to do. I had a pretty happy life but that feeling that I was "supposed to be a girl" always popped up no matter how hard I tried to push it down. Now I know that was the dysphoria.
After the last attempt to try to permanently squash my femininity, the dysphoria came back stronger than ever and I knew I had to finally do something about it.
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Quote from: Aspiringperson on March 05, 2018, 10:18:48 PM
As a teenage boy in high school I was a runt with very little bulk, very little muscle and a girlish face and voice to just about match. I was miserable when I was around the other male students that were becoming men with bulk, muscles, height, and a deep voice.... and I was the butt of their jokes and their bullying.
In my very early 20's in college things only improved very slightly and I started thinking that the situation is not going to get any better and perhaps that is when my first thoughts of transitioning became a reoccurring event. I was miserable and I unfortunately procrastinated and waited another 13 years to finally go to my doctor and counseling to start the process to begin HRT
My miserable male body now became an ideal vessel to be transformed into a female, and with the powerful assistance of HRT my transformed body has definitely been changed into a a convincing female body.... and my mind agrees.
I am certain that most people that transition ask themselves this question... "Why did I wait so long?"
Your last sentence kinda hit me, "
Why did I wait so long?" I see those words as an affirmation that the process has begun to impact and I haven't gotten that far along.
I this very second, I feel I'm kinda of in limbo, features starting to change but not really. Obviously my breasts are and that was confirmed by my daughter. Facial features, maybe but being bald sorta doesn't help that.
Quote from: natalie.ashlyne on March 03, 2018, 05:14:27 PM
The first time I really thought about it was 11 years old. From there on till I was 32 I kept trying to hide it. Now I am 34 and fully accept it.
Pretty similar here, still trying to hide it, but I'm not 34 for another couple months! :P
Really I'm only hiding it while trying to stabilize my life a bit, changes are happening though, won't be too long before it'll be pretty silly to try to keep hiding.
I was 5 or 6, when my dad told me about boy stuff like shaving, chest hair, and the boy talk..... ya know? it just felt really wrong to me, i think i may have even said that i didnt want that or something LOL, i didnt know i was trans that wasnt until i was like 14 or 15 after i had my first boyfriend i wanted him to treat me like a girl i never expressed that to him or anyone, i hid myself for years because i had to, im starting to accept it more now but i still need some time with it i think years of denial and shame isnt easy to give up
Plus i tried to do the guy thing for awhile i never really dated much but i got large arms and legs from going to the gym, i had to cus i had knee trouble, but my arms are long, and i got tall, then for along time i stopped trying to grow my hair out like a girl even (which is 1 thing im gonna do now)
I have had fantasies about becoming female since I was 12, but I never seriously questioned my gender until I was about 27. I ended up assuming I had to be completely MTF then and found that wasn't making me feel better, so I stopped trying to figure that out until I was around 30; that's when I started accepting I was nonbinary and could legitimately present and identify as both genders.
When I was around 8 I realized I loved women's clothing, and knew that I wanted to wear them all the time, but didn't then when I was 57 I looked in the mirror and it became impossible for me not to know I was Transsexual. I was always a woman, and I just denied, hid, would not let it out, not sure what it meant, was just not aware who I was...but I now know it is true and real, and I am who I am and always have been. I wish I knew it earlier so some of the physical changes due to testosterone were not so hard to try to reverse, and so I felt happier for more of my past life, I was not unhappy, I have a great wife and kids, but there is a Joy I know now that I did not then!
I had an inkling in Kindergarten. I dreamt of being a girl off and on my while life, but always considered it just that...a dream. At 39, exhausted from fighting it, I jumped in head first. It's been a year now and I couldn't be happier.
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