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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Male to female transsexual talk (MTF) => Topic started by: Marcieelizabeth on March 06, 2018, 10:36:18 AM

Title: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: Marcieelizabeth on March 06, 2018, 10:36:18 AM
I have been on HRT Estriol for almost 5 months, and I have mood swings, and am definitely a little loopy at times, which BTW I think is okay.  I was wondering if any of you other ladies are feeling the effects of the Hormones sort of like my daughters did, with some aloofness, and some definite swings in mood?  I am also feeling so much better than before I took them, it feels like I am becoming the real me. 

My skin is starting to feel softer, but I am also moisturizing which I never did before. 

I still do not see any real body changes, but I hear if they are showing up it will be so slow as to not notice, and will be subtle. 

I have had a family crisis to deal with so Some things are really slowing down like coming out to more people, but I am impatient and am not sure I can wait.  My breasts are getting quite a bit larger and are becoming more difficult to hide, so I do not think I can wait that much longer! 

I am definitely looking forward to  getting whatever full effects I can out of hormones.  Even if I do feel like a raging teenager on hormones   :)

How are you all doing who are on HRT?

Its great to be back on here for a short time anyway

Love and Hugs Marcie
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: Jessica on March 06, 2018, 10:44:28 AM
Hi Marcie 🙋‍♀️ All I can do is give my experience.  Yes it has made me far more emotional, partly because of allowing myself, but certainly I feel mood swings, rapidly sometimes after applying new patches.  I think I am on the rollercoaster ride that 14-15 yo girls experience.

Smiles, Jessica 💁‍♀️
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: KathyLauren on March 06, 2018, 05:06:32 PM
Hi, Marcie.

I have been on HRT for 13 months, full-time for 10 months. 

I don't get noticeable mood swings; I tend to stay on an even keel.  But I sure notice that I feel emotions much more strongly than I ever did before.  Lots of posts here, news stories, or emails will send me into tears, either of joy or sadness.  I always did cry at movies, but I felt that I had to suppress that in guy mode.  Now, I don't even try.  I just get out my hankie and dab my eyes.

I get giddy with happiness sometimes, just from the sheer joy of being myself.  I never in my life felt joy before transitioning.  I didn't even know what it felt like when other people talked about it.

I found myself doing a damsel in distress number today, going into the bank to deposit a cheque made out to my deadname.  It wasn't an act.  I didn't even think about it.  It was how I felt, and I let myself be governed by how I felt.  Which is a concept that would have been totally foreign to my old self.

I suppose that this is how teenage girls feel.  I don't know, never having been a teenage girl.  I was a pretty darned serious teenage boy, so I definitely prefer this puberty.

The body changes are nice.  I'd be happier if my boobs would grow more/faster, but I can't complain.  They're cute.  My face has feminized nicely.  I'll catch an unexpected reflection in a window and realize that I look like a girl.  Maybe not the prettiest girl in the gaggle, but I'm good with it. 

The hips and thighs are subtle, really subtle, but definitely different.  Body hair, what little I had, is gone, with no laser or electro required.

I understand the impatience.  I felt it too.  Although I went full-time just about when I had originally planned to, that date became much less of an option the closer I got to it.  It wasn't just impending male-fail, either.  I just could not tolerate pretending to be a guy any longer.

I had planned to do some therapy sessions to deal with my remaining fears about going fuill-time.  But when I realized that doing those sessions would push the date back, my immediate reaction was, "Hell, no!"  Nothing was going to make me delay that event by so much as a single day, and the fears just disappeared.

So sit back and enjoy the ride!
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: Kylo on March 17, 2018, 10:10:32 AM
In some ways, yeah.

The body reacts in the same way to a sudden increase in hormones as the last time it happened, only this time I'm not the young idiot I was, so I'm not attempting to climb electrical pylons and other clever things. I notice a desire to have some fun though. God, I feel like I haven't had much in 15 years.
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: Mendi on March 17, 2018, 11:34:11 AM
I dont know about mood swings, just generally speaking of feeling something finally. I would call it normal...at least somewhat normal. It´s just that my reactions mood wise are much much stronger now.

I just few minutes ago cried, because I thought about my last girlfriend, whom I hurt by pretending to be male and which was also the final point of understanding, that I cannot go on forever trying to act as a man.

Then again, I might think something funny at the bus, and I have to work really hard of not starting laugh out loud in the bus. Also in the work when someone tells something funny, I start to laugh so hard, that water runs down from my eyes and I just cannot control it. Even now when I think about those moments, I start to laugh.

And I just cried few minutes ago...
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: Donna on March 17, 2018, 11:46:04 AM
Mood swings, not yet. Being very connected to the emotional side is a very strong feeling in me as I've never been there before. My body odour has changed, my skin is softening, my sense of touch has changed. I don't recall my original puberty due to abuse but his one feels great. I am mellow and calm and a generally happy and better person.
I won't change what I'm feeling now for anything.
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: yayo on March 17, 2018, 12:52:46 PM
When I started HRT I WAS a teenager, and God love my parents because they had the patience of Job. I was really emotional due to my age, throw in big hormonal changes and it was just a very taxing time for everyone. Now I'm very mellow. Feels nice.
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: Allison S on March 17, 2018, 11:42:06 PM
I don't care what people think about me anymore. I feel like I know myself. I guess my family dynamic has a big part in that. I'm just a young woman trying to have fun! This is the puberty I always dreamed of!!

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Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: Maddie86 on March 18, 2018, 06:45:34 AM
hmm, well I HAVE found my parents a little more irritating since starting HRT, so maybe there's some teen angst going on lol  :D :D

I never really thought about mood swings but yeah I guess I've had them, at times I'm super happy and then the next minute I'll think my friends all hate me and are avoiding me and then I get super down on myself
Title: Re: On HRT, like being a teenager?
Post by: pamelatransuk on March 19, 2018, 10:06:48 AM
Quote from: Marcieelizabeth on March 06, 2018, 10:36:18 AM
I have been on HRT Estriol for almost 5 months, and I have mood swings, and am definitely a little loopy at times, which BTW I think is okay. Love and Hugs Marcie

Quote from: Mendi on March 17, 2018, 11:34:11 AM

Then again, I might think something funny at the bus, and I have to work really hard of not starting laugh out loud in the bus. Also in the work when someone tells something funny, I start to laugh so hard, that water runs down from my eyes and I just cannot control it. Even now when I think about those moments, I start to laugh.


Hello Marcie & Mendi

As you can see, I started HRT recently and indeed occasionally I have loopy periods - laughing at things I would previously regard as only slightly amusing and really enjoying it. I feel calmer and at ease and have much less aggravation. So far so good.

I wish you both the best on your HRT journey which will lead to happiness.

Pamela