I really hate introductions and small talks, but I also don't want to be impolite so here we are. I think I should mention that English is not my native language and I'm nowhere close to mastering it (it would be nice to have some practice here) so please forgive me for my future mistakes. I'm almost 25 now, born in female body and always knowing that it's not who I am, but it took me really long time to realize that I can actually do something about it. I always thought that my sex is like a life sentence. I live in a ->-bleeped-<-ty country in Europe, I identified myself for years as a lesbian only because I'm in a relationship with woman (which is an abusive relationship but no one knows about it). I'm a black ship in the family, I don't have friends I could rely on and my health, both mental and physical, is ->-bleeped-<-. So yeah, pretty nice picture, huh?
I won't be lying - I tried to kill myself twice. But I never wanted to die. I desperately want to live, but this is not a life. Not like that. My body betrays me, my mind too. I wish I could just pack and get on a midnight train and never look back. But it's not that easy. I don't have any money and with my current health problems there's no way I could find a decent job. Especially in another country with not knowing anyone there. I guess the only thing I have is hope. And for now it must be enough.
I'm just glad that places like this exist and I can finally be honest with myself. It turned out to be way too personal, but I don't care anymore. Hello, everyone.
Hi Vic :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
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Things that you should read
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V M
Hello Vic, and WELCOME to Susan's Place. You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others about your transition and to read about others transition and their trials, tribulations, and successes in their transition journey.
It is nice that you have signed up so you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other members.
When frustrated or if you have a successful moment in your journey you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. You might even find that you will make some new friends here. Please come in and get involved at your own pace.
Again, Welcome.
Danielle
Hi, what country are you from? Im originally from Mexico and welcome Im new here too.
Hi, Lupe! I'm from a very intolerant Slavic country. I don't know why, but I don't really want to say which one. I guess I'm not comfortable with revealing any kind of personal information, even that small.