Hey all,
So over last weekend I moved back in with my mom. I've tried to tell her before that I'm trans bit she doesn't believe me and thinks it's a phase due to being sexually abused. I've tried telling her different but she won't accept it.
Anyhow, when my mom was at work yesterday I was sorting the drying out and came across one of my moms bras. Instantly something kicked inside my brain. I'm not sure how to filly describe it but it's like my brain was telling me that the bra was mine and that I should put it on. So i did. And I filled up the bra with some socks and out a tshirt back on. And wow. It instantly felt right. The wright,the feel, the look it all felt extremely normal to me. In my mind its further evidence that I'm right in knowing I'm a woman.
Also, on a different occasion prior to this, I put some lipstick on. It doesn't sound like much but to me it meant everything. I have had this makeup since December and never tried it but the other day when i did try it it felt like the normalised thing that I should be doing. My lips looked so much better with it on then without.
My only problem now is that I have to wait for my mom to go work before I can try anything like that again.
All evidence is pointing me to knowing im right and that I'm actually a woman.
Much love xox
Well Gwencook: Thanks for writing about what you are going through. I see that you have been on Susan's for well over a year now and back in early 2017 you had discussed about seeing a gender therapist, and then last summer you were talking about seeing a GP to get things moving as it relates to transitioning and perhaps starting HRT a couple months ago in January 2018.
If I read between the lines of you several last postings and your post on this thread, I am guessing that you have not started HRT as of yet. Well, if and when you do, this is a great place to explore your feelings and go over your possible options with others that may be going through the same issues as yourself.
I did not get a feeling for your age but if you are younger than 18 years old or consider yourself a youth then you might also want to visit to the "Youth Talk" Forums:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/board,496.0.html
in addition to the regular Forums that you are now posting on. In the Youth Talk Forums you will find others that may be closer to your own age that can hear your story and you can share yours. It could also be a good way to make friends here as well.
Wishing your well and looking for your postings as you feel free to do so.
Danielle