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Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Daniellekai on March 28, 2018, 08:10:50 PM

Title: Realizing how much I'm changing... (little moment)
Post by: Daniellekai on March 28, 2018, 08:10:50 PM
So, I decided to clean and organize my horrendous desk, so I bought two plastic drawer sets (a large floor one, and a small desktop one) to hold all of my mess so that the workspace at least LOOKS clean. This is all normal for me, but the thing that struck me this time was... I have two lens cloths that came with my glasses, a large white one with a ruffled edge, and a smaller, blue patterned one. Normally I'd have just tossed them in one of the drawers, but for some reason I was compelled to place them on top of the more visible desktop drawer set like an ad hoc doily or something. The larger white one underneath serving as a border for the other piece of fabric.

It's a weird little story, but it just shocks me how much I'm changing in ways that are, in theory, not directly related to hormones, and more about just doing what I feel like doing instead of subconsciously policing myself. I'm always finding ways that I'm being accidentally stereo-typically female lately, this is just one example.

Since this'd be a pretty boring thread without a call to action, anyone else have similar stories? I dunno, just felt like sharing.
Title: Re: Realizing how much I'm changing... (little moment)
Post by: Northern Star Girl on March 28, 2018, 08:55:57 PM
Quote from: Daniellekai on March 28, 2018, 08:10:50 PM
So, I decided to clean and organize my horrendous desk, so I bought two plastic drawer sets (a large floor one, and a small desktop one) to hold all of my mess so that the workspace at least LOOKS clean. This is all normal for me, but the thing that struck me this time was... I have two lens cloths that came with my glasses, a large white one with a ruffled edge, and a smaller, blue patterned one. Normally I'd have just tossed them in one of the drawers, but for some reason I was compelled to place them on top of the more visible desktop drawer set like an ad hoc doily or something. The larger white one underneath serving as a border for the other piece of fabric.

It's a weird little story, but it just shocks me how much I'm changing in ways that are, in theory, not directly related to hormones, and more about just doing what I feel like doing instead of subconsciously policing myself. I'm always finding ways that I'm being accidentally stereo-typically female lately, this is just one example.

Since this'd be a pretty boring thread without a call to action, anyone else have similar stories? I dunno, just felt like sharing.

@ Danielle
... you have a very lovely name by the way.

Hormones are not only changing your body but Hormones plus your predisposition to transition to a female are slowly changing how you look and how you think. 
From all the various transition testimonials I have read, it seems that around the 4 to 10 month point in a HRT regimen that these things start becoming noticeable.  For some, more noticeable and for others less noticeable.  HRT works differently and at speeds unique to each Body.

I do share your experience, it happened to me around the 9 month mark.... and now I am at over 3 years of HRT and my friends can verify that I most certainly look, think and act like a female without question.

You are in for quite a ride as you continue your HRT.   
I am looking forward to reading your transition updates as you feel comfortable doing.

Thank you for posting your thoughts.

Wishing you well with your journey.
Danielle...  (the one from Alaska)
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Title: Re: Realizing how much I'm changing... (little moment)
Post by: Cassi on March 28, 2018, 09:38:15 PM
Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on March 28, 2018, 08:55:57 PM

@ Danielle
... you have a very lovely name by the way.

Hormones are not only changing your body but Hormones plus your predisposition to transition to a female are slowly changing how you look and how you think. 
From all the various transition testimonials I have read, it seems that around the 4 to 10 month point in a HRT regimen that these things start becoming noticeable.  For some, more noticeable and for others less noticeable.  HRT works differently and at speeds unique to each Body.

I do share your experience, it happened to me around the 9 month mark.... and now I am at over 3 years of HRT and my friends can verify that I most certainly look, think and act like a female without question.

You are in for quite a ride as you continue your HRT.   
I am looking forward to reading your transition updates as you feel comfortable doing.

Thank you for posting your thoughts.

Wishing you well with your journey.
Danielle...  (the one from Alaska)
.

Funny you should mention this.  I've notice, hindsight, things that I've been doing that I would not normally have done and today when my daughter wanted to go looking/shopping for a car I was game for it, not only because I need to get one since I've been lazy about it since Harvey, but more importantly that I have notice changes and I'm sure others do and I'm not at the place where getting new IDs is an option as yet.