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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Female to male transsexual talk (FTM) => Topic started by: lc100 on May 07, 2018, 09:51:33 AM

Title: Journey on T
Post by: lc100 on May 07, 2018, 09:51:33 AM
Hello everyone! I am currently at a time in my life in which I have many issues sharing my journey on hormones with other people, mostly my family, but even extending to people I know who care. While I work on that, I would like to force myself to share my journey here in a positive, stress-free way. I dunno if I should post here or in the normal transgender talk section, but here we go! I am very grateful this website exists and I'm able to post on it like this.
Title: Re: Journey on T
Post by: lc100 on May 07, 2018, 10:17:30 AM
One month (+a week) in:

Fast changes were mental and a bit physical...

Not positive about other mental effects since there are many stressful factors in my life right now. T is probably just the baseline puberty angstyness to it, so I don't want to blame it for everything. Maybe I'll blame it not for my poor sleep quality, but the fact I'm so sweaty at night, ha.

However, just for future outlook's sale, just in case...
I have been in a "repress emotions" phase, fairly empty inside, very irritable.
Newer issues I didn't constantly have before T, that kicked up again recently, include extreme fatigue and poor sleep quality (waking up 76 times per night, waking up drenched, forgetting dreams).
Despite this, I am able to push through my normal debilitating anxiety more than ever.

Oh, and I forgot to mention I had huge issues getting the T out of the vial for the first few weeks. Went back in for a second nurse teaching appointment and I think I'm fine now!

Summary:
main changes -  irritability, horniness + sensitivity.
minor changes - throat ticklish (unsure if T-related), more oily skin, possible hormonal acne issues.
Title: Re: Journey on T
Post by: melissamp99 on May 07, 2018, 02:30:49 PM
When is the last time you have had you levels tested? Sounds like you are high to me but I'm no doctor.


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Title: Re: Journey on T
Post by: lc100 on May 07, 2018, 03:14:04 PM
Quote from: melissamp99 on May 07, 2018, 02:30:49 PM
When is the last time you have had you levels tested? Sounds like you are high to me but I'm no doctor.


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I'm worried I'm high too... They were last tested a little over a month before I started hormones. I was thinking I should get them tested soon, but I'm not entirely sure how. To be more specific, not sure if I should go all the way to my trans care center for it, or if my PCP (who I am not out to yet, unfortunately) can do something about it. I guess I could just ask either of them for script for bloodwork?

However, I'm confused why I would be experiencing this at 3/5 the dose most people I see online take.
Title: Re: Journey on T
Post by: melissamp99 on May 07, 2018, 03:28:46 PM
Quote from: lc100 on May 07, 2018, 03:14:04 PM
I'm worried I'm high too... They were last tested a little over a month before I started hormones. I was thinking I should get them tested soon, but I'm not entirely sure how. To be more specific, not sure if I should go all the way to my trans care center for it, or if my PCP (who I am not out to yet, unfortunately) can do something about it. I guess I could just ask either of them for script for bloodwork?

However, I'm confused why I would be experiencing this at 3/5 the dose most people I see online take.

You could ask the doctor who gave you the prescription. Or find yourself an endocrinologist.
As far as why you would be high at that dosage? Everyone is different. Your age and body fat among other things can effect your levels. Hell even the food you eat or milk you drink can effect your levels.
The important thing is to have your levels checked by a Doctor who understands what is a safe level for you. Good luck keep us posted.


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Title: Re: Journey on T
Post by: lc100 on May 07, 2018, 07:21:11 PM
Quote from: melissamp99 on May 07, 2018, 03:28:46 PM
You could ask the doctor who gave you the prescription. Or find yourself an endocrinologist.
As far as why you would be high at that dosage? Everyone is different. Your age and body fat among other things can effect your levels. Hell even the food you eat or milk you drink can effect your levels.
The important thing is to have your levels checked by a Doctor who understands what is a safe level for you. Good luck keep us posted.


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Alright, thank you so much for the reassurance and help! I appreciate it a lot. I'm going to message my the doc wo prescribed me T and go from there. Thanks so much again! :D
Title: Re: Journey on T
Post by: melissamp99 on May 07, 2018, 07:30:51 PM
Quote from: lc100 on May 07, 2018, 07:21:11 PM
Alright, thank you so much for the reassurance and help! I appreciate it a lot. I'm going to message my the doc wo prescribed me T and go from there. Thanks so much again! :D

That's what we are all here for[emoji2]


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Title: Re: Journey on T
Post by: lc100 on June 02, 2018, 01:12:37 PM
2 months in!
I don't think there's much to say outside of that. I'm not doing the best mentally all of a sudden, but I definitely feel better and am able to do injections better. I have a check-up next month with the center I go to for hormones, and I'll tell her about the weird start-off with fatigue and emotions then.

the one thing I've noticed is getting worse is dysphoria about my chest. I guess it feels like it's one of the final determining factors in how well I pass lately and it's a make-or-break. It's not horrendous and hasn't been in a while, but I've just noticed i'm more dysphoric than usual in that way. though, I also did have a convo in which I realized I'm more dysphoric about it than I thought I was. who knows.

Summary:
voice is definitely changing and helping me pass better!