Hello everyone! I'm new here (actually I've followed the forum even before the begining of my transition but I've just signed up yesterday) and...well, usually I feel awakward to introduce myself and I hate to do but this time somehing's different. I know that this is a safe place for me to share my stories and discuss my issues with peers. I'm FTM but only started my transition less than a year ago. I've always known something's not right, like I was born into a wrong body since I was very, very young and I've represented myself in the way that I thought it's best for myself...well, you can guess, as a male. I didn't know the terms transgender, gender identity and gender dysphoria and so on and I wasn't able to talk about it and no one had ever talked that to me back to my home country but anyone who knew something about me would've known that I was...different. They probably thought I was gay because I was only interested in girls (but my family didn't know that, anything about that) but I knew that's not the truth. I've got almost everything as male except my body and sex, sadly, and I've got rejected by two different girls because of that, because in my home country homosexuality is something...forbidden, not unlawful though. Well, I couldn't let it go at that time but years went by, I kinda just...let it go. It's just differences in the ways seeing the same thing. I had some crushes on them like normal male but they took my sex above all other factors. It's not their faults and I couldn't blame them for that. I guess the only thing I could blame is my body doesn't match...well, pretty almost everything else, especially my mind and my heart. Some girls did express their romantic interests to me but I turned them down and just kept all my feelings and my heart to myself, and just to the girl I've loved for just more than a decade.
I'm 28 years old and my birthday is in September. I first came to AU in 2012 and successfully migrated to AU in 2016 and the next year I applied to join local police while I've been transitioning from female to male (you can see that my English is not as good as native speakers). My experience with the recruitment people has been great for most of the time. They've been really helpful, supportive and friendly, understood my situation but I hit a wall later on my medical assessment and I failed my appeal with the police doctor last month. Missed two intakes already and I've got to do the physical stuff again next month despite I've nailed it in November 2017 and finger crossed that I could get in for the next intake.
Recently I've bought a prosthetic from Freetom. It's one of their new products called The Ranger. It's a large one and I want to find something to hold it in place while I'm doing some vigorous exercises like shuttle run or on the job as a police officer :police:. I don't know whether it's ok to wear it on the job? Because I saw some news online that a woman was fired from her job because she wore a prosthetic to her workplace and she got reported by some of her co-workers....anyway, I've been looking at RodeoH and Peecock harness products but I could also use some recommendations to explore more alternatives. And special thanks to Ryuichi13 who recommended the joey to me (funny thing, the only girl/woman I've ever loved so deeply has exactly the same name ,Joey. She's 9 years older than me so I guess that makes her a woman but she's always my little girl/my princess to me). I'll definitely have a look at that. Really appreciated. Any recommendation, advice and tips would be welcomed and appreciated. Cheers! :)
mrbear, Thank you for reading my Welcome Message to you yesterday on the other thread that you posted and for following my suggestion to come to the Introductions Forum.
Your introduction posting is very informative and interesting and will garner some attention from like minded members here that can identify with the concerns and questions that you stated.
Thank you again for becoming a member of Susan's Place.... and be certain to look at the LINKS that I included in my Welcome Message to you on that other thread.... lots of information about how to navigate around the Susan's site as well as the rules that all members need to be aware of.
Again, Welcome to Susan's Place,
Danielle
Hi Mr Bear :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Welcome, mrbear!
That's fantastic that the recruitment people have been so supportive. Good luck and fingers crossed on next month's physical stuff!
I hope you find a suitable harness. That would add a great dimension to your run. On the job? I'm with you-- check out whether it's a good thing.
You've found a great place for learning.
Hi Mr. Bear! Welcome to Susan's Place!
Glad your here, Jessica