Jordy has always been there hiding inside me. I had to hide him. The world only saw Kathy or Katherine or Kat. Always female, always dresses, always girl things. Except baseball. I was the first girl on the little league team my brother was on because there weren't enough girls for softball. When I was 4 or 5 I asked my mom why I wasn't a boy and I was punished for it and forced to not wear pants for a week. Most of my friends were boys which made my mom think I was promiscuous at the age of 11. I was punished for exploring my body. If it wasn't "acceptable" for girls and I did or said it I was punished. The church taught it was bad, school taught it was bad. Mom and dad taught it was bad. I Attempted to end things the first time shortly before turning 12. In Job Corps I was restricted to buying women's clothes with the clothing vouchers. Being other was wrong. So I conformed. I made myself look and act more feminine. I grew up and married as expected. When I had kids I failed to bond with them. Anytime I did any manly thing better than my husband I was punished. if I wasn't a good example for my girls I was punished. All my life I've been punished. I ran from my marriage 5 years ago. I was a wreck and homeless for almost 2 years. I met and fell in love with a trans woman and she saved me. I began questioning to myself. Was I like her only opposite? Wasn't it wrong? In my support for her I began giving up dresses and girly clothes as I could. Then I met Wolf. A Pansexual cis man who didn't care what was in your pants only what was in your brain and in your heart. I struggled with fear he would leave me if I was other. Other than what I was when we met. A genderfluid pansexual woman. That was how I lived and presented. Yet still Jordy hid inside me crying to be let out. Soon we met Grey, a pansexual leaning more towards Gay cis male and both fell in love with him. Please note we're both polyamorous. One day as Katherine spoke to Grey he said to her in all seriousness, " I think you're a secret Trans." Simply just like that as though commenting on the grass being green or the sky being blue. No judgement. Jordy was freed. He came to the surface like bubbles rising from the depths of a body of water. She cried. Jordy cried. She shared with both her mates how she had always felt. There was only love and acceptance. She gave up the she and became he. He was afraid to tell his mother. So he found a video on YouTube and sent it to her on Facebook. The next morning they spoke on Facebook and she was loving and accepting as she had never been before. She gave advice and said to take baby steps. Jordy was born 6-4-2018.
Congratulations Jordy! This is a very nice story.