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Community Conversation => Female to male transsexual talk (FTM) => Transsexual talk => Testosterone => Topic started by: blackcat on July 28, 2018, 04:52:48 PM

Title: When did T make you start to feel better?
Post by: blackcat on July 28, 2018, 04:52:48 PM
I'm defining "feel better" as "not feeling like wanting to crawl out of your skin and die" anymore.

I have it so bad right now I haven't even been posting.  :-X

I start gel in two days.
Title: Re: When did T make you start to feel better?
Post by: Kylo on July 28, 2018, 07:21:15 PM
The same day. It had an immediate effect of making me able to get to sleep quickly, and my sleep quality was better that same night; my general anxiety was gone (intrusive neurotic thoughts were completely gone) within a day or two and my depression within a month. I started to feel less dysphoric about the body etc. within a week as well. Within the first month my problems with occasional sore joints and leg artery issues (from low estrogen) were all gone, migraines and ice pick headaches were a thing of the past, and general muscle soreness after exercise (DOMS) as well as regular-but-spontaneous back pain was pretty much all gone.

But I should mention that my endocrine system was not functioning normally, I had very low levels of estrogen (too low for female functions) and the speed at which testosterone worked on me was probably a result of the fact my normal functions were already shut down. People with normal functions might have to wait longer I suppose.
Title: Re: When did T make you start to feel better?
Post by: abcdq96 on July 31, 2018, 03:21:54 PM
Hello! Know that the wait is worth it, my friend. I started feeling better a few weeks in. When I got my first major voice cracks and downstairs growth, about 4-6 weeks after my first shot, my anxiety and depression lessened greatly. You're going to do great!
Title: Re: When did T make you start to feel better?
Post by: blackcat on August 02, 2018, 12:55:47 PM
Thanks, guys.  ;D

I'm on my fourth day and starting was just like shutting off the switch for all those awful thoughts and feelings in my head. I love reading and usually read a few books a month, but I haven't been able to read at all for more than six months because my dysphoria was so bad.

Since I started T, I've been chilling out and reading, shooting the breeze with my coworkers (which I have literally NEVER DONE), and sleeping like a champ.

It surprised me when I realized I haven't thought about dying since I started, and that made me realize how much I thought about dying before I was on it.  :-\

I felt like I used to be permanently afraid and panicked over nothing and now I am so calm... it's awesome.
Title: Re: When did T make you start to feel better?
Post by: abcdq96 on August 03, 2018, 08:14:14 AM
Congratulations, man! That's awesome to hear. Keep rolling with the changes and letting good ol' vitamin T help you out  :D
Title: Re: When did T make you start to feel better?
Post by: Jay2081 on August 07, 2018, 08:06:43 AM
Oh my, i felt the same way. I stopped thinking about the topic "death" in my head after a few days too! I am a little over a month on Testogel ;)