I'm not sure where this is coming from. Maybe it is an accumulation of things and my reaction to them. One thing we never know is how someone else is feeling.
Throughout human evolution wearing of masks has been important. Shamans wear masks to perform magic and to call on spirits, politicians wear masks to hide lies and to persuade people, medics wear masks to protect themselves when telling us bad news, clowns wear masks to hide their tears while they make us laugh. Many of us wear masks to hide pain; both emotional and physical.
My mask and my armour are strong and well tested.
It was 17 years ago that my wife had a head injury and our lives changed. Intensive care, prayers to phantom gods and clinging to the faint flickering of eyelids as signs of recovery. Rehab, good days, bad days and inevitably a nursing home.
My mask barely slipped, my armour strengthened and I held her to me.
Cancer. I tried to protect her from my suffering. My resolve and my armour and my mask were invincible.
Today it all crumbled into a mass of tears.
After 9 years in a nursing home, my wife, on her own instigation; organised an access cab, told her carers what to do, drove her electric chair to the cab, instructed the driver and came home for the day - all by herself - and we spent the day together.
Sometimes we forget what we can do. Sometimes in our fight we forget the fight that others have. Sometimes we forget the achievements of others and forget to praise them.
Sometimes we forget to weep as we hide behind our masks.
Today my mask cracked and my tears of joy and pride leaked through.
I was promptly told to pay the cab, stop bawling, buck my ideas up and make lunch.
What a lovely day and such an amazing step forward. This brought a tear to my eye and a great big smile to my face
Charlotte x
Cindy,
How beautiful, what a day to remember.
Thank you both. I'm still all emotional.
Aw, big hugs, you lovebirds! :)
Hugs, Devlyn
It is maybe a breakthrough for you both. Her for independence and you for breaking the damn that holds it all in. Enjoy that cry, you deserve it, well after you make that lunch.
This is a wonderful turn of events. Yesterday I felt there had been a change in your life and asked you if you were alright. This was the energy change I felt. Very strong emotions from you dear friend and I love that it is the good kind.
Hugs and smiles, Jess
Quote from: Cindy on August 25, 2018, 05:30:40 AM
Today my mask cracked and my tears of joy and pride leaked through.
Those are the best kind!
Your wife is a proud and determined woman, as you are. I am glad that you are there for each other.
OMG I am so happy for you (both of you). Both of you are so lucky to have each other.
Thank you for sharing this wonderful story of your wife's independence, and yet both your dependence on each other. Lovebirds, indeed!!! (https://www.susans.org/forums/Smileys/susans/cool.gif)
That is wonderful news Cindy! This brought a tear of joy to me and a warm feeling in my heart. Enjoy your day with your courageous wife!
Hugs,
Donica.
Quote from: Cindy on August 25, 2018, 05:30:40 AM
Sometimes we forget to weep as we hide behind our masks.
And I, too, am weeping tears of joy for you and your wife. Beautiful.
I hope you both hold each other tightly and cherish your time together in unity and perfect harmony.
Peace
Susan
Thanks for sharing Cindy. It had to bring great happiness to see that cab and it's occupant. Glad it happened to you.
Wow! What remarkable and determined women you two are.
Thank you for sharing this with us!
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Oh wow Cindy, such a wonderful event in your life and such a gift from your wife. It would seem she sensed you needed this today. I believe she is right. I hope you remember the special joy she has given you always.
Love and Hugs,
Laurie
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No doubt an unbelievable day for you both! {{{HUGS}}}
Just seen this, a great story
Quote from: Cindy on August 25, 2018, 05:30:40 AM
I'm not sure where this is coming from. Maybe it is an accumulation of things and my reaction to them. One thing we never know is how someone else is feeling.
Throughout human evolution wearing of masks has been important. Shamans wear masks to perform magic and to call on spirits, politicians wear masks to hide lies and to persuade people, medics wear masks to protect themselves when telling us bad news, clowns wear masks to hide their tears while they make us laugh. Many of us wear masks to hide pain; both emotional and physical.
My mask and my armour are strong and well tested.
It was 17 years ago that my wife had a head injury and our lives changed. Intensive care, prayers to phantom gods and clinging to the faint flickering of eyelids as signs of recovery. Rehab, good days, bad days and inevitably a nursing home.
My mask barely slipped, my armour strengthened and I held her to me.
Cancer. I tried to protect her from my suffering. My resolve and my armour and my mask were invincible.
Today it all crumbled into a mass of tears.
After 9 years in a nursing home, my wife, on her own instigation; organised an access cab, told her carers what to do, drove her electric chair to the cab, instructed the driver and came home for the day - all by herself - and we spent the day together.
Sometimes we forget what we can do. Sometimes in our fight we forget the fight that others have. Sometimes we forget the achievements of others and forget to praise them.
Sometimes we forget to weep as we hide behind our masks.
Today my mask cracked and my tears of joy and pride leaked through.
I was promptly told to pay the cab, stop bawling, buck my ideas up and make lunch.
Just seen too, now I'm welling up too, just lovely. X
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What a lovely day. I'm glad it went so well. :)
Paige :)
Very touching story - All the best to you
An awesome day. Thank you.
Hugs,
Jen
Thank you for sharing. Cindy, I always thought you were the strong one in the family, I was wrong. I am happy for both of you.
Thanks Everyone. We make a good pair, she does the talking and I do the walking.
So what was for Lunch? ;) Hope you did better than beans on toast LOL ;D
Seriously though what a truly wonderful surprise...
I can understand why you were so blown away...it must have taken a great amount of courage and determination for her to get to you on Saturday...it is clear how much she really loves you...she loves you on that deep level that other people can't ever touch or know.
We all need some sunshine in our lives and you are no exception...I am happy to hear you happy.
Amazing
Liz