Hi, I was lurking on this site for several months before I actually registered as a user. I forget my reason but I think it was to ask my own questions and get supportive answers. Since I've joined, I've found more support here than I ever could have imagined.
My name? Well that's an interesting concept... you could call me by what the legal system has me as, Brian. You could see me as I see myself, Brianna. You could see me as my closest friends call me Bri (pls don't use this one). Or you could read my self nickname in my username, BriBri (use this one instead).
I had my first identity crisis related to gender about 6 months ago, and brushed it off. Then about 4 months ago, a week before finals, I had three identity crises, one of which was gender again. I addressed all of them, but pushed the gender one off until after finals. After heavier searching, finding evidence of dysphoria riddling my childhood and adolescence, I realised that I am transgender, specifically transfemale (MtF). Tested it with a one weekend RLT with close friends on a campout, then came out to all of my current (in touch) friends about 3 months ago. [I think the dysphoria was partially hidden by my ADHD&Aspergers problems when I was younger. Over that now so, bloop]
Since then, I've gotten past questioning with pretty much myself, 2 friends, and one semi-closeted contact that I met through a mutual friend. And although they won't see it I apologise to how much I've put those friends through... that was intense. Sorry!!!
I also built up the courage to come out to my parents, was involuntarily admitted to hospital under 5150, and after 3-4 hours came out with a diagnosis of gender dysphoria and adjustment reaction.
I like to think my situation is unique. At the current time I'm 20 going on 21... I'm transferring from a community college to a four year university in an engineering major... And I'm not allowed to transition AT ALL while in college if I wish to keep my parents funding college. I'm not allowed to self vocal train, grow hair beyond male norm, go by anything other than my legal birth name, start hormones, nothing. IT SUCKS. BUT they're paying for everything so the least I can do is fight through everything and get a degree first. I am allowed to get therapy (but I'm paying for it so that theres no control issues possible). My parents are traditional, so not as bad as orthodox religious, I still havent gotten kicked out. But still not as accepting and encouraging as some Youtube responses I've seen. They support me their child, but don't support transitioning. Which I guess is okay? Not optimal but okay.
I move out there next week (apartments through student housing), and I already have an appointment with the counselor from the LGBTQIA+ center to find therapists and am already in touch with the private support group's facilitator.
This is my first quarter ever, Im used to a semester system, and I aim to not only kill myself attending therapy and the support group, and taking a ton on units (16 units to be precise, engineering schedules and intensity SUCK) but to also work remotely part time (love my boss, she's amazing and accepting and caring and yay) so that I can build up funds and move out immediately after I graduate so that I can start hormones. I'm planning out my transition, as it helps ease dysphoria, and pretty much research everything through Here, ->-bleeped-<-, and making Google my slave.
Now you know a little bit about me? Idk
Thanks for reading!
@BriBriMWDear BriBriMW:Thank you for following my comment on the other thread that I Welcomed you on as a new member and following my suggestion and Link to come here to the Introductions Forum to tell more members about yourself and your arrival here on the Forums.
Your most interesting and informative Introductions posting will give many other members here a chance to get to know you and there will be those that can identify with much of what you stated. Therefore you should be able to start the sharing process and experience more give and take with other like minded members... and there is no doubt that you can make some new friends here in the process.
Enjoy your time here on the Forums, I trust that you will find this an enjoyable and informative experience.
Best wishes to you.... and again, Welcome to Susan's Place
Danielle
Somewhat advertising/somewhat trying to help others, I created this website for originally personal reasons, but added and tailored the blog for others... I notice that most posts and youtubers aim to detail what happens at big moments. I'm trying to cover more nuanced things I couldn't find answers to. I think for a bit I'll aim it towards those questioning and handling. Please feel free to view/direct others to see it:
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BriBri. Welcome to Susan's. I am the links administrator and would like to post your blog on our links reference. Please let me know if you agree. Thank You.
Hey Brianna!
Glad to meet you here :) Seems you've already found some friends and joined to few conversations, it's cool you're so active :) It also awesome you have such blog :)
Welcome here, hope you'll like this place :)
Welcome to the site. If your parents are against HRT would they be agreeable to at least allowing you to take t-blockers so that the effects of T are at least kept at bay? It would at least allow you to be able to perhaps stop some of the changes that are going to continue to occur which cost a lot of money to correct later in life.
Hi Brianna :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Quote from: DawnOday on September 17, 2018, 02:58:18 PM
BriBri. Welcome to Susan's. I am the links administrator and would like to post your blog on our links reference. Please let me know if you agree. Thank You.
I am totally okay with that!
Quote from: I Am Jess on September 17, 2018, 04:19:35 PM
Welcome to the site. If your parents are against HRT would they be agreeable to at least allowing you to take t-blockers so that the effects of T are at least kept at bay? It would at least allow you to be able to perhaps stop some of the changes that are going to continue to occur which cost a lot of money to correct later in life.
Nope! Anything at all besides therapy (I'm going to try to sneak in electrolysis while I'm away at university) will result in complete loss of college funding, car usage, all insurance coverages, and housing (both personal and academic). And they also are all of nothing on independence so can't take it one step at a time...
It's okay as stated I have a plan :)
Insert Harry Potter Quote:
"When have any of our plans ever actually worked? We plan, we get there, all hell breaks loose."I think most of the changes are done actually... I mean puberty is almost over (ends at 25 right?) so if school takes 2 more years then I have 2years HRT and I'm at the end of puberty. I plan on getting FFS and VFS but I don't think too many changes will occur in the next 2 years prior to HRT?
Quote from: Alice V on September 17, 2018, 04:10:31 PM
Hey Brianna!
Glad to meet you here :) Seems you've already found some friends and joined to few conversations, it's cool you're so active :) It also awesome you have such blog :)
Welcome here, hope you'll like this place :)
Thank you! I'm only active for now. Once I start school in a week... (see introduction post for schedule) I'm going to be so dead (x.x)
Oh don't worry :) Sure you'll be busy, I just hope you'll find some time to come here time to time and share your thoughts, concerns, progress, anything you like to share :)