Hey all! Just curious on how to calm or ease genital dysphoira. I hate having a penis, and can hardly wait for gcs. That being said it is a long stretch away. I have a strong dislike for the junk. I hate grabbing old panties( and towels) and such when I do a wash beciase I am reminded of it and what has touched it. It causes me a lot of upset. That said when I get surgery I know with the exception of the testicals that will be removed, nearly everything else from my understanding will be intact just being turned properly . That being nerve endings and much of the same skin and such. I know much will be used for a vaginia but i hate having a penis so much and it is just a reminder of being born male that doesn't leave my mind quickly some days that stings. Any mental gymnastics you can teach me to ease the pain?
Quote from: SailorMars1994 on September 17, 2018, 02:43:33 PM
Hey all! Just curious on how to calm or ease genital dysphoira. I hate having a penis, and can hardly wait for gcs. That being said it is a long stretch away. I have a strong dislike for the junk. I hate grabbing old panties( and towels) and such when I do a wash beciase I am reminded of it and what has touched it. It causes me a lot of upset. That said when I get surgery I know with the exception of the testicals that will be removed, nearly everything else from my understanding will be intact just being turned properly . That being nerve endings and much of the same skin and such. I know much will be used for a vaginia but i hate having a penis so much and it is just a reminder of being born male that doesn't leave my mind quickly some days that stings. Any mental gymnastics you can teach me to ease the pain?
When children develop in the womb they initially have the same physiology. A vagina is pretty much an inside out penis attached to the womb etc. Perhaps keeping that in mind would help?
Sailor...I don't know if this is advice but this is how I look at it. We have no control over how we were born. We do have control of how we live after leaving home. I have never been a fan of my deformities but I did try to live as everyone else thought I should. I tried to be male but always knew that was not the real me. I look at it this way. If I could do it over again I would have fought for my identity. Living a depressed, negative, unhappy life is not how one wants to live. It took a mental break to decide I could no longer live the lie. I put the love of my family on the line knowing I could be rejected and forced to move out. Thankfully things have worked out. I do not regret using my penis to make two babies as they are what gave my life purpose. I would have much prefered if I was the one giving birth as ultimately I believe that's where the miracle happens. But that is all past and I have a future. One that a few years ago, I did not think possible. If I had one piece of advice it would be to be accepting of your past with and eye on the future and fulfilling all the dreams you have been dreaming. Personally I have never been more satisfied.
The one thing I can offer is the Arrow of Time... that time marches inexorably towards your GCS. One day, it will be different, and your pain now will fade rapidly as all memories do.
Thank you for all the advice ladies. Each day I'm close to getting my gcs but I guess I need to change how I see this. It's an inside out vagina and not a male product (in mine and our cases anyway). Going to take a while for my mind to latch onto that idea but thanks!