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Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: ErinAscending on October 29, 2018, 05:44:26 PM

Title: I started writing again (Holy carp I am rusty!)
Post by: ErinAscending on October 29, 2018, 05:44:26 PM
My Champion

Once when I was confronted
No comfort could I find
'Cept in dark recess, under plush
Consumed within the mind

Found after when the heart
Stood no longer in the light
A box by my own devise is forged
Hidden in dull sight

My hero did then call to aid
To champion my own protection
Standing steadfast in the line of sight
Of my eyes own pale deception

He stood there to the glares
Declaring himself true
Fielded all the questions
And attention toward him drew

If ever one may have seen,
Past his stoic and resolved stare
Would there suddenly be a shift and slight
More resolved, he would not care

Behind him lay the secret
Excuses designed to deceive
Me behind a door, in a cage
The excuses were for me

My hero stood guard for an age and a half
The stress of such endeavor
Rivaled him at last, and then
Saw his heart fade forever

One last ditch effort, protecting peal
In what confidence he could afford
He destroyed his own identity
Excuses behind board

He knew his life without his heart
Would be no life to live
So free his heart he did for me
Without consent to give

Scared, alone, and vulnerable
Disconnected though I am
He freed his heart, his heart was me
With his gift I now can stand

Title: Re: I started writing again (Holy carp I am rusty!)
Post by: Arianna Valentine on October 29, 2018, 05:45:55 PM
A very beautiful poem, you are truly a wonderful writer

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Title: Re: I started writing again (Holy carp I am rusty!)
Post by: ErinAscending on October 29, 2018, 05:49:27 PM
My wife thinks I killed her husband...  I wrote this to try and explain it was more like "He" sacrificed himself for me.  But his heart IS me.  It's odd that she divides the past like that.  She actually uses my "Old" name in the third person when no one else is around...  Still wont use my new name but.  One step at a time.
Title: Re: I started writing again (Holy carp I am rusty!)
Post by: Arianna Valentine on October 29, 2018, 05:50:48 PM
Quote from: ErinAscending on October 29, 2018, 05:49:27 PM
My wife thinks I killed her husband...  I wrote this to try and explain it was more like "He" sacrificed himself for me.  But his heart IS me.  It's odd that she divides the past like that.  She actually uses my "Old" name in the third person when no one else is around...  Still wont use my new name but.  One step at a time.
Yes it will take time but y'all probably been married for a while and if she truly loves you then she will understand it just takes time like you said

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Title: Re: I started writing again (Holy carp I am rusty!)
Post by: ErinAscending on October 29, 2018, 05:53:47 PM
Quote from: Arianna Valentine on October 29, 2018, 05:45:55 PM
A very beautiful poem, you are truly a wonderful writer

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Oh and...  Thank you!  <3