Did not take my hormones last night or this morning. Been days since I been on female hormones. I can't find where I put the bottle.
This morning I'm supposed to work. As a creative/artist kind of work. And I say what's the point. Nothing matters. Everything is futile. And I wish I was never born. I wish I could die but I'm afraid I will reincarnate or go to a bad world or something.
Even reading posts is a struggle. It feels like climing mount everest just to read a few paragraphs. And making online posts. Its like whats the point. Everything is meaningless and futile. And I'm always unhappy and noone loves me and I will always be alone. And I suffer from a kind of nihilistic insanity.
Quote from: Angelic on November 09, 2018, 10:18:37 AM
Did not take my hormones last night or this morning. Been days since I been on female hormones. I can't find where I put the bottle.
This morning I'm supposed to work. As a creative/artist kind of work. And I say what's the point. Nothing matters. Everything is futile. And I wish I was never born. I wish I could die but I'm afraid I will reincarnate or go to a bad world or something.
Even reading posts is a struggle. It feels like climing mount everest just to read a few paragraphs. And making online posts. Its like whats the point. Everything is meaningless and futile. And I'm always unhappy and noone loves me and I will always be alone. And I suffer from a kind of nihilistic insanity.
@Angelic Dear Angelic:Oh my, oh my....... find your hormone pills ASAP ...
... also, quickly, find and eat some chocolate, ice cream, cake, cookies or some other soothing treat that may help.
How often should you be taking your hormones??? Be sure to have a specific place that all of your meds are supposed to be... and always put them back in that spot.
Hugs,
Danielle
I keep my meds in the bathroom or the kitchen counter.
Quote from: Angelic on November 09, 2018, 10:18:37 AM
And I suffer from a kind of nihilistic insanity.
As do I. I am sure that I went insane years ago. I've never called how I feel nihilistic insanity, but "sick serenity".
Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on November 09, 2018, 10:25:33 AM
@Angelic
Dear Angelic:
Oh my, oh my....... find your hormone pills ASAP ...
... also, quickly, find and eat some chocolate, ice cream, cake, cookies or some other soothing treat that may help.
How often should you be taking your hormones??? Be sure to have a specific place that all of your meds are supposed to be... and always put them back in that spot.
Hugs,
Danielle
I looked through my whole place. It's really messy due to my depression. I'm depressed and broke and have a really small place, and I have emotional attachment to stuff so I can't throw it out. Social anxiety afraid to sell it to other people. Depression messes with my memory and I forget where I put things. I tore up the whole place and nothing. It wasn't with my other pills. I think it disappeared due to the curse on me. People won't believe in supernatural even if it is real.
You are right about the chocolate. Only thing that keeps me sane. If you can call this sane.
Quote from: GingerVicki on November 09, 2018, 10:51:38 AM
I keep my meds in the bathroom or the kitchen counter.
As do I. I am sure that I went insane years ago. I've never called how I feel nihilistic insanity, but "sick serenity".
Tell me more about this insanity of yours. You seem like someone I can relate to.
Quote from: Angelic on November 10, 2018, 10:40:35 AM
I looked through my whole place. It's really messy due to my depression. I'm depressed and broke and have a really small place, and I have emotional attachment to stuff so I can't throw it out. Social anxiety afraid to sell it to other people. Depression messes with my memory and I forget where I put things. I tore up the whole place and nothing. It wasn't with my other pills. I think it disappeared due to the curse on me. People won't believe in supernatural even if it is real.
You are right about the chocolate. Only thing that keeps me sane. If you can call this sane.
Tell me more about this insanity of yours. You seem like someone I can relate to.
I'm not sure where to start.