Up until I was diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria last month the VA had been treating me (for the past 12 years) for Severe Depression, PTSD, and Anxiety with suicidal tendencies. I went to weekly appointments and used lots of medications. I was completely withdrawn from society. I found no pleasure in anything. I had lost all hope. They thought the above mentioned conditions were all related to my military service and multiple combat tours. Until last month I had never told ANYONE the real reason for my depression and isolating. Let me bring you up to speed so that maybe you can seriously help me.
I have been married for 30 years. She was my high school sweetheart. Over the years we had three children, All adults and making their own way in life. My daughter has a slight setback currently but this too will pass. Wife has known about my issue with femininity since before we got married. She accepted me for who I was but put limitations on me. (more on that later)
When I was a child age 4 or 5 I was drawn to everything girl. Toys, clothes, friends, everything. I am the oldest of 5 siblings. I went to kindergarten as a girl. I went to school as a girl up until the second grade. I had long curly hair down to my butt. It was a great time in my childhood. My mother encouraged or entertained my behavior until I was about 10 years old. That's when my father was paroled from prison. He had been in prison for a long time. When he returned home we lived in Presidio Texas. He began to beat me every day. Teaching me to "be a man" "act like a boy" ect. I was so brusied and cut up I missed over a month of school and had to repeat the 3rd grade. I was made to stop everything. Stop dressing, stop playing with my female friends, everything. Its like I died inside right then. So in order to keep from being beat to death I put everything away and hid my true identity. This was around 1980 or so and there was no internet, and I had never heard about anyone with my "problem" I was beginning to believe something was wrong with me.
I felt I was a female with the wrong sexual organs. I hated them. I tried to hide my genitals when in locker rooms at school or swimming pool. I hated everything male. My mother threw out all my clothes and shoes. I was heartbroken when I found out. A few years went by and when I was in high school I guess I was about 16 or 17 I couldn't suppress my female identity any longer. The only time I found happiness was when I was in female mode. When I was "Jenny" I felt almost peaceful and even though my outside didn't match my inside I was feeling pretty good. That was until my father found my hiding place with my clothes. I was beat again. Now by this time all my siblings were born and witnessing this. They were young and didn't understand why I was getting beat but knew that they didn't want any part of it. My mother never stood up for me/us, but that's another story. At that point I left home and was pretty much homeless. I still went to school and lived in my car. Then my future wifes dad gave me an after school job working in his upholstery shop. He let me live in the back of the shop. I was a sophomore in high school when I met her. We dated and went to school dances ect. She found me wearing a pair of panties and asked me about them. I told her what I knew and Why I thought I had to wear them. At that time I had no idea there was a condition known as Gender Dysphoria, or Gender Identity Disorder which at that time was considered a "Mental Defect" I had a seriously messed up home life and she had a similar home life. She was being sexually assaulted/molested by her uncle for the past 8 years. Her mother used to drop Her and her sister off at her uncles so he could baby sit them. He mother let it happen. Her older sister told everyone she was making it up, her dad beat her for "lying". She wanted to get away. We both needed to get away from our messed up families and fast or we were going to end up dead. So we got away together. We made a plan and followed through. We graduated high school got married and the next day I entered the US ARMY.
That was in 1988. My first duty assignment was in Germany. The wife and I lived in Germany for 5 years and first son was born. Now you have to understand I was in the Military and could not tell anyone about my "Mental Defect" or I would have been kicked out and then back on the street with no future. We had nothing to fall back on. So my wife and I decide that I could be Jenny at home and at home only. Also on occasions when we would travel to another country or city where no one we would know us, she would help me to dress and be my true female self. It is these times that allowed me to keep my sanity. Then BAM...1990 Gulf War. I deployed to Iraq and fought in the Gulf War. Seen stuff Did stuff but what I remember most was NOT being able to be myself. I had to act macho and be super MALE so as not to attract unwanted attention. I bet you are going to take one look at this email and see how long it is and not read it. LOL
Second son was born in Germany then we transferred to Fort Stewart GA. Wife put more restrictions on me there. Now that the kids were getting bigger she didn't want them seeing me as Jenny so I was limited to the bedroom and that was it. I was in so much pain. I didn't think I could keep up the charade any longer. I attempted suicide As you can see I failed. The Army found me and for some reason wrote it off as a reaction to a medication instead of a suicide. I guess they thought they were helping save my career.
Went to therapist but couldn't be honest with them for fear of being kicked out of the military.
Transferred to Fort Knox KY where our daughter was born in 1993. At this time Jenny hasn't been seen for years. I was isolating myself making myself sick. It was horrible being inside my body as a male. I know it sounds crazy and I can't explain it but its real.
We went to Fort Bragg NC in 1998 and stayed there until I retired in 2014. During that time I had multiple back to back deployments to Iraq, Afghanistan, Pakistan, Yemen, and the Philippines. The only opportunity I had to be myself and let my female show through was in the Philippines. I was the overseer of a safe house. I was alone in the house for 10 months. Basically I was house sitting for a "Special" element of the Army and I had to make sure the house was ready to receive "guest" with 4 hour notice. I was able to spend my days and night as a true female. I was the happiest I had ever been. I made many friends in the Philippines presenting as a female. They accepted me. They didn't think I was strange. It was a nice feeling to be validated. Then after 10 months I was transferred back to Fort Bragg NC.
On my next assignment I was sent on a special assignment to Ft Campbell KY by myself. Wife and everyone remained in Ft Bragg NC. I had to rent an apartment for just me. Oh boy was I excited!!! I had my wife mail me all of my special clothes and was so happy. That only lasted about a month. Then the Army assigned another person to my detail and we had to share the apartment. Fast forward 5 months. I attempted suicide again in Kentucky. You probably remember this time. I took a bottle of Ambien and taped a hefty trash bag on my head and went to sleep. I woke up in a mental hospital in Nashville TN. I spent 2 months in the hospital and still was not honest with them as to the reason for my attempt. I had to figure out what they wanted to hear in order to be released so I played the game. I went back to Fort Bragg NC and the Army decided that 26 years was enough and told me to "Retire" Thank you for your service but See Ya. 2014 moved to Texas with my wife. We came here to be close to Son and Daughter and wifes family. We had our own place and I was able to be my female self at home only. Wife has lots of family and friends in the area and does not want anyone seeing me. She is embarrassed I guess. She tries to understand but ........
I couldn't take it anymore. I was always holding on with the hope at the next place, the next fork in the road I would finally be able to be myself.....Nope. I attempted suicide again. Sleeping pills and Percocet I woke up in the hospital and they told me I had had a stroke or a TIA. A TIA is what they call it if they cant figure out what happened. So no one really knew.
Fast forward to October 2018 and I finally broke down to my therapist and explained why I was so depressed and unhappy. She evaluated me and diagnosed me with Gender Dysphoria. Now I had a name to research. When I looked it up I read all the symptoms and signs......I had every single one of them. I mean 100% I had every symptom. We then began talking about what it would take to make me happy and whole. I thought long and hard and I felt its time for me to be me or I'm going to be dead. The writing is on the wall. I was crashing. So the therapist started me on a plan to transition. I needed a person that I trusted and that I felt confident to support me emotionally. I had to find this person before I could progress with the process. My sister in law was my first and only choice. I had no one else I thought I could trust. I am so very glad that she said yes.
I have hope!!! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Its amazing!! I can't begin to tell you how much this means to me.
The next step is being evaluated for HRT
Hi, Jenny.
Thank you for sharing your story with us. And congratulations on opening up to your therapist. That is a hard step to take, but one that might save your life. I am glad that you are finally getting help.
I hope you are able to work things out with your wife. Our spouses have to transition, too, and it is a journey that they did not expect to ever have to make. I wish you good luck with that.
This is a great place to find support. You will find many members here that share your experiences.
Jenny,
I am very glad you are here, both being alive and being on Susan's. I am so sorry for all you have been through. It is an amazing story. The underlying cause of your pain is very familiar to me and most all of us here. I hope you will continue to share with us, learn with us, vent with us and make friends with us. Oh, my name is Moni, and yes, I did read the whole thing. lol I also lived in Savannah for a while, so I am familiar with where Ft. Stewart is. I hope you will stay and that your healing will happen quickly. Pleasure to meet you Miss Jenny!
Update!! I have an endo doctor appointment on the 28th... next week!!! Starting HRT!! I can't wait.
Yahoo Jenny congratulations....I hope you get a great result.
Take Care
Liz
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Quote from: Jenny1969 on December 17, 2018, 12:43:53 PM
Update!! I have an endo doctor appointment on the 28th... next week!!! Starting HRT!! I can't wait.
@Jenny1969 Dear Jenny:
This is so very exciting news to read....
....seeing a specialist like an Endo and starting HRT is a big major step in your transition journey and is certainly a time and date to make note of in your journal, and to celebrate and remember as you continue on...
I will be eagerly looking for your updates as you get started and get going in your exciting journey.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle
Jenny, you have an inspiring story. I am so glad you got help and can be on here to tell your story. I just read your other thread about the endo, and then found this one.
I can't say my story is as tumultuous as yours, but I am no stranger to suicidal feelings. Coming out to my wife was difficult, but the one thing that helped her understand that this isn't just a whimsical fascination with feminine things was my emphasis that it has driven me to the brink of suicide many times. I've always been too cowardly to make a serious attempt at killing myself, but I have been close many times due to gender dysphoria. When my wife started to understand just how serious gender dysphoria is, she found it easier to take my issues very seriously and want me to get proper medical help.
The next big milestone in our understanding of suffering from gender dysphoria was when I started HRT. The difference was immediate. I of course noticed it nearly instantly. Within the first hour I felt better than I had since maybe childhood. Within the first few days my wife noticed that I was so much calmer, more focused, not as distracted, and much less angry, irritable, and depressed as I usually was. That was her "Oh, my gosh, this is real!" moment. Up until that point, she had subscribed to the idea that gender dysphoria is a purely mental thing, maybe even a mental illness. Seeing my improvement on HRT finally convinced her that there was something real and biological happening in me.
Went to the Endo on Friday 28 December. Easy in and out. Prescribed me estradiol patches. Doesn't want to start me on spironolactone for another 30 days due to my high potassium. I picked up the script at the pharmacy in the hospital and went straight to the bathroom to put it on. Kind of uneventful. :-\ I go back in 30 days for labs and possible adding another med. Its been 3 days and I am pretty sure I am not suppose to be noticing any changes. yet......nope....nothing. LOL I'm just going to use this thread to keep up with updates and progress.
FYI Did you know electrolysis is freaking expensive? WOW. $4500 for whole body and $3200 for just the face. (Ideal Image). I need to check around. hmmmmmm
My wife got me a box from Adore Me for Christmas. That was kind of cool. In case you are not familiar with Adore Me its an on line store that you sign up to receive a box every month with an assortment of bras and panties ect. You keep what you want and send the rest back .....only paying for what you keep obviously
Well that's pretty much it.
Star Date 30 December 2018.
Hi Jenny
I read every single word you have written. I'm not sure what words I would use to describe how I feel about your story, but once started I couldn't stop reading. I'm so glad you're now finally making the change and I will certainly watch for updates.
Jas xxx
Quote from: Jenny1969 on December 30, 2018, 08:56:52 PM
Went to the Endo on Friday 28 December. Easy in and out. Prescribed me estradiol patches. Doesn't want to start me on spironolactone for another 30 days due to my high potassium. I picked up the script at the pharmacy in the hospital and went straight to the bathroom to put it on. Kind of uneventful. :-\ I go back in 30 days for labs and possible adding another med. Its been 3 days and I am pretty sure I am not suppose to be noticing any changes. yet......nope....nothing. LOL I'm just going to use this thread to keep up with updates and progress.
FYI Did you know electrolysis is freaking expensive? WOW. $4500 for whole body and $3200 for just the face. (Ideal Image). I need to check around. hmmmmmm
My wife got me a box from Adore Me for Christmas. That was kind of cool. In case you are not familiar with Adore Me its an on line store that you sign up to receive a box every month with an assortment of bras and panties ect. You keep what you want and send the rest back .....only paying for what you keep obviously
Well that's pretty much it.
Star Date 30 December 2018.
Congratulations on your start!
You might want to check Groupon for discounted laser and electrolysis.
Chrissy
Congratulations on starting HRT!!
Quote from: Jenny1969 on December 30, 2018, 08:56:52 PM
Did you know electrolysis is freaking expensive? WOW. $4500 for whole body and $3200 for just the face. (Ideal Image).
Actually, that is a bargoon! My electrologist charges $85/hr. Because I am a major client of hers, she is giving me a discount at $65/hr. I am somewhere around 100 hours in, with maybe another 20 or 30 hours to go. So my final bill for facial electro only will be over $8000.
If I were you, I'd lock into that deal right away.
UPDATE} Tuesday 8 January 2019
I have been on the Estradiol patch 3 weeks now. Nothing new, but I know its still very early in a very very long process. I know...."YMMV" :) I take that back, there is a change. I no longer get an erection. My wife tried very hard to make it happen and nope, nada. I have been working on my voice by myself while I am waiting for my first appointment with the speech pathologist. I figure it cant hurt to get a head start. Lost another 2 pounds since the new year began.
Support Group on Wednsday. Ok back to house cleaning. I found this shoe on Netflix, Maria Kono......Tiddy Up ......basicly it how to organize you house/life. Going to find the things that "Spark Joy" in my life!!!
{Update} 17 January 2019
Awesome day shopping today. Purchased some awesome heels and a nice red dress. Received a call that my breast prosthesis are in and ready for pickup tomorrow. I'm really excited!! ;D I see a bra fitting in my near future
Quote from: Jenny1969 on January 17, 2019, 05:04:42 PM
{Update} 17 January 2019
Awesome day shopping today. Purchased some awesome heels and a nice red dress. Received a call that my breast prosthesis are in and ready for pickup tomorrow. I'm really excited!! ;D I see a bra fitting in my near future
@Jenny1969 Dear Jenny:I am always happy and excited when I go shopping... so much more enjoyable than the boring clothes selections that you and I had earlier in our life.
When you put on your new red dress and heels, we would all love to see a photo, but post one only if you feel comfortable doing so.
Thank you for your update and sharing your thoughts...
Hugs,
Danielle
Hi Jenny, I also read your whole post.
First off thank you very much for your service. I'm glad that the Dr finally diagnosed you with gender dysphoria and you started HRT. As you know there will still be ups and downs but hopefully more ups. We all want you to be succeed and are pulling for you.
I can't wait to hear about your journey.
Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on January 17, 2019, 06:38:59 PM
@Jenny1969
Dear Jenny:
I am always happy and excited when I go shopping... so much more enjoyable than the boring clothes selections that you and I had earlier in our life.
When you put on your new red dress and heels, we would all love to see a photo, but post one only if you feel comfortable doing so.
Thank you for your update and sharing your thoughts...
Hugs,
Danielle
I would love to post a photo!!! Still trying to figure out how to do that!! I just barley figured out how to upload my profile picture!! I will keep trying.
;)
Quote from: Jenny1969 on January 18, 2019, 09:54:51 AM
I would love to post a photo!!! Still trying to figure out how to do that!! I just barley figured out how to upload my profile picture!! I will keep trying.
;)
@Jenny1969 Dear Jenny:Oh yes indeed... I would love to see any pictures that you would feel comfortable posting.
Please go to the following thread that I had posted and find my very simple instructions.
"Trouble posting pictures??? HERE ARE THE INSTRUCTIONS"
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,239999.0.htmlIf you are still having difficulties please let me know.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle
Trying to upload a pic. hmmm
https://imgur.com/a/beRZPP2
https://imgur.com/a/3Ncdeaw
https://imgur.com/a/ZrbQnm5
https://imgur.com/a/23XzLPX
https://imgur.com/a/obIKOPT
https://imgur.com/a/Ts1mPuu
https://imgur.com/a/lD1nlmx
Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on January 18, 2019, 10:06:19 AM
@Jenny1969
Dear Jenny:
Oh yes indeed... I would love to see any pictures that you would feel comfortable posting.
Please go to the following thread that I had posted and find my very simple instructions.
"Trouble posting pictures??? HERE ARE THE INSTRUCTIONS"
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,239999.0.html
If you are still having difficulties please let me know.
Hugs and well wishes,
Danielle
Danielle Thank you!!! T think I have figured it out!!!!
Much Love
https://imgur.com/a/lD1nlmx
@Jenny1969Dear Jenny: I am glad that you are posting pictures and treating all of us to your lovely photos.
The photos you provided Imgur Links for us to see, look absolutely wonderful...
...I love the look of your painted toes on your last photo.
HOWEVER, if you want the picture itself to show up on your posts you
seem to be missing the last steps of my instructions...
Steps 5 thru 8IMPORTANT: It is best to use a desktop or Laptop computer because phones and pads usually do not have the button functions to do what is needed.
Step 1: Go to Imgur.com (you do not have to sign up as a member there)
Step 2: Click "New Post"
Step 3: Click "Upload Images"
Step 4: Drag picture from your computer to Imgur download box, or copy and paste, or enter URL
Step 5: Put your curser on the upper/right of your downloaded photo on Imgur
Step 6: Go to the "down arrow" and then select "Get Share Links"
Step 7: COPY: "BBCode(forums)
Step 8 PASTE: To the body of your message/posting/replyPlease let me know if I can help your further.
Many Hugs,
Danielle
if you want the pictures to show in the post, simply click COPY next the BBcode link on imgur when viewing your picture and paste it into your post.
Quote from: Faith on January 19, 2019, 10:48:16 AM
if you want the pictures to show in the post, simply click COPY next the BBcode link on imgur when viewing your picture and paste it into your post.
@Jenny1969Dear Jenny: Exactly correct... thank you for confirming the procedure
@Faith .... again
Jenny reference my steps 5-8 and use a desktop or laptop computer...
... and an additional hint, instead of using the BBcode from Imgur, one can also
surround the Imgur LINK with
[img] by clicking on the icon just above the smiley face emoticon that you see when composing a post.
Hugs,
Danielle
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Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on January 19, 2019, 10:30:57 AM
@Jenny1969
Dear Jenny:
I am glad that you are posting pictures and treating all of us to your lovely photos.
The photos you provided Imgur Links for us to see, look absolutely wonderful...
...I love the look of your painted toes on your last photo.
HOWEVER, if you want the picture itself to show up on your posts you
seem to be missing the last steps of my instructions... Steps 5 thru 8
IMPORTANT: It is best to use a desktop or Laptop computer because phones and pads usually do not have the button functions to do what is needed.
Step 1: Go to Imgur.com (you do not have to sign up as a member there)
Step 2: Click "New Post"
Step 3: Click "Upload Images"
Step 4: Drag picture from your computer to Imgur download box, or copy and paste, or enter URL
Step 5: Put your curser on the upper/right of your downloaded photo on Imgur
Step 6: Go to the "down arrow" and then select "Get Share Links"
Step 7: COPY: "BBCode(forums)
Step 8 PASTE: To the body of your message/posting/reply
Please let me know if I can help your further.
Many Hugs,
Danielle
Ok Got it now!!!! This was the red dress that I recently purchased along with the heels posted above.
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Feeling great today
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New dress
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I really like this dress
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Running errands today
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@Jenny1969 Dear Jenny:You go, girl....
I am really enjoying the pictures that you are posting....
...keep on keeping on and refining your wardrobe and your appearance....
I am so glad that you got the details of the picture posting thing going.
I will be always looking for your future posts on your thread as you continue on your transtion journey...
Thank you for sharing and posting,
Hugs and well wishes...
Danielle
Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on January 23, 2019, 01:26:48 PM
@Jenny1969
Dear Jenny:
You go, girl....
I am really enjoying the pictures that you are posting....
...keep on keeping on and refining your wardrobe and your appearance....
I am so glad that you got the details of the picture posting thing going.
I will be always looking for your future posts on your thread as you continue on your transtion journey...
Thank you for sharing and posting,
Hugs and well wishes...
Danielle
Thanks so much Danielle
Can I ask you for some advice? What type of shoes should I wear with the two dresses above? (Stripes and Flowers)
I am going to an LGBT symposium on Tuesday and want to put my best foot ;) forward so to speak. Which outfit would work best for that environment?
Quote from: Jenny1969 on January 23, 2019, 01:33:31 PM
Thanks so much Danielle
Can I ask you for some advice? What type of shoes should I wear with the two dresses above? (Stripes and Flowers)
I am going to an LGBT symposium on Tuesday and want to put my best foot ;) forward so to speak. Which outfit would work best for that environment?
@Jenny1969 Dear Jenny:In my opinion... you can not go wrong with
BLACK ....comfortable lower heels, wedge heels, or flats....
Also depending on the precise color shades of the dresses and any shoes that
you may consider (I don't trust the display on computers) a
TAUPE color might work well also, especially for the Stripes dress.
Wishing you well with your event on Tuesday that you are planning to attend as Jenny.
Hugs,
Danielle
Update for 29 January
I had three appointments today and decided to wear one of my recent purchases. This long sleeve flower dress was super comfy. The shoes I selected were ok but I think I need to get a different pair for the next time I wear this outfit. I recieved some complements today, thats kinda nice. :)
Tomorow (really today as I am writting this at 4am) I am going to a LGBT fourm at the VA Hospital. They are want to hear from "us" as to what they are doing right, what they are doing wrong, and what they could do better. Ill let you all know the end result.
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Looking fabulous Jenny...Love the shoes especially... Hope the forum feedback goes well
Liz
30 Jan 19
Had a super day hanging out with my sister in law. She treated me to a mani pedi. I picked up some new boots too.
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UPDATE: 7 FEB 19
Yesterday I went to my appointment with the Endo. My labs came back and after 30 days on HRT everything was/is moving along slowly. T= 3.47 E= 45 He increased my E patch and added Spiro. The Spiro has not yet came in the mail yet so I have not actually started it. He also put me on Progesterone USP Cream. He said this will help with breast growth. We shall see. Below is what I wore to the appointment and then went shopping after. I need more shoes. ;)
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@jenny Dear Jenny:Looking really good dressed as you were for your Endo appointment. It sounds like your Endo is on top of your HRT regimen and made some adjustments based on your blood test results. HRT is not a race, it takes time for your body to react to the meds... patience is needed, things will happen in their own time.
I love your posted pictures... but WHERE IS YOUR SMILE???
A big beautiful smile can be so disarming and adds immensely to one's feminine appeal and appearance.
The results of your mani-ped in your previous posts were terrific. I know from my personal experience that that simple procedure is so very affirming... I always enjoy being pampered in that way. It was great that your sis-in-law joined you in the fun.
So... please tell us about your shopping trip...
..... shoes? clothes? makeup? accessories? jewelry?
Thank you for sharing your update... I will be eagerly looking for your future posts here on your thread and around the forums.
HUGS and HUGS,
DanielleQuote from: Jenny1969 on February 08, 2019, 12:00:21 PM
UPDATE: 7 FEB 19
Yesterday I went to my appointment with the Endo. My labs came back and after 30 days on HRT everything was/is moving along slowly. T= 3.47 E= 45 He increased my E patch and added Spiro. The Spiro has not yet came in the mail yet so I have not actually started it. He also put me on Progesterone USP Cream. He said this will help with breast growth. We shall see. Below is what I wore to the appointment and then went shopping after. I need more shoes. ;)
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UPDATE: 12 FEB 19
I received the call today. I have a speech pathology appointment next Wednesday
Quote from: Jenny1969 on February 12, 2019, 06:01:46 PM
UPDATE: 12 FEB 19
I received the call today. I have a speech pathology appointment next Wednesday
@Jenny1969 Dear Jenny:...... WONDERFUL NEWS !!!!!!!!!!!Hugs,
Danielle
Went out looking for a black pencil skirt. Haven't found that I like yet.
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Update on the first appointment with the speech pathologist.
She was very nice and welcoming. She said she had been a speech pathologist for over 24 years and has never had a transgender client. She said she was going to have to do some research and educate herself before she is able to schedule any more appointments. She asked me if I knew of any YouTube videos that she could reference.
I dont know how to take this.......In my head I was like......seriously, I could watch youtube videos myself,...why do I need you? The appointment was on Wednesday. She said she would call me back on Friday. Well its now 5:30pm on Friday and I have not received a call back. Hmmmmm
Kinda feeling discouraged.
More discouraged that I have been on HRT for over 2 months and I am not seeing ANY changes. :-\
Update 26 FEB 2019 Today was a great day. Went to two appointments and purchaed a new bag to go with my outfit. Shopping sure lifts a girls spirits!!! :)
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@Jenny1969 Dear Jenny:Another shopping trip!!! Yes indeed, shopping therapy really does lift a girl's spirit.
I guess that you never did find a Pencil Skirt that you liked but I really like your new outfit shown in the photo that you just posted...
... new dress pants and a new dress jacket...
(or is that the outfit you pictured on your February 7th update?) No matter, it does look very nice on you.
and a new manicure
(you have lovely hands) and a new handbag.
Curious question... were you able to find a new and qualified speech therapist that doesn't have to ask you about speech therapy YouTube videos like your previous speech therapist did???
You look absolutely lovely.
Thank you for sharing.
Hugs and well wishes as always.
Danielle
Hi Jenny - it's so nice to see you smile! Very nice outfit and purse. As Danielle said, you have such lovely hands!
Hugs x 2,
Sarah From Chitown
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Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on February 26, 2019, 08:10:52 PM
@Jenny1969
Dear Jenny:
Another shopping trip!!! Yes indeed, shopping therapy really does lift a girl's spirit.
I guess that you never did find a Pencil Skirt that you liked but I really like your new outfit shown in the photo that you just posted...
... new dress pants and a new dress jacket... (or is that the outfit you pictured on your February 7th update?) No matter, it does look very nice on you.
and a new manicure (you have lovely hands) and a new handbag.
Curious question... were you able to find a new and qualified speech therapist that doesn't have to ask you about speech therapy YouTube videos like your previous speech therapist did???
You look absolutely lovely.
Thank you for sharing.
Hugs and well wishes as always.
Danielle
@ Danielle
Thank You. Yes this is the same outfit from February, just added a new handbag. I ended up ordering a skirt for the outfit online......but it hasn't come in yet...(did you see the Amazon plane that crashed in Houston on Saturday? My package was on there.......so they are shipping me another one now)
I was referred to an new speech therapist at Baylor College of Medicine. No appointment yet. But I did call and speak with them and this isn't their first rodeo. ;) So I feel much better about this. Like they say Two steps forward One step back.....
Thank you both for the kind compliments on my hands.
My sister in law bought me two new pairs of shoes......im going to pick them up from her on Thursday so sty tuned for some "sexy heels" as she says,,,,