If you could have anything in the world what would it be?
Lisa
One thing or a matched set of one thing?
The one thing that I want is bear my own child. The matched set would be to fall in love with man of my dreams, to get married, and then build a Family the old fashioned way.
Boobs and a vagina
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Quote from: Arianna Valentine on December 31, 2018, 11:09:01 PM
Boobs and a vagina
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I could settle with that.
Serious answer: Freedom from anxiety and worry.
Frivolous answer: Air fares and tickets to the TWICE concert in Tokyo on March 29, 2019.
~Dee.
Getting back together with my ex!
Frivolous: having somebody come in daily and do all the work in and around the house, to allow me more time to swing wrenches on my vehicles!
Complete mental control over all aspects of the self.
Quote from: Dietlind on December 31, 2018, 11:35:48 PM
Getting back together with my ex!
Frivolous: having somebody come in daily and do all the work in and around the house, to allow me more time to swing wrenches on my vehicles!
Linde,
Do you clearly see the route to make that happen?
What would it take for that to happen?
Are you willing to make that happen? Is she?
If yes, go for it with all your heart and energy.
Hugs,
Chrissy
Neverending macaroni and cheese bowl.
Quote from: Devlyn on January 01, 2019, 09:34:17 AM
Neverending macaroni and cheese bowl.
You run the risk of getting plump if you ate that much though! :)
I do like mac and beef.
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 01, 2019, 09:50:11 AM
You run the risk of getting plump if you ate that much though! :)
I do like mac and beef.
Chrissy
Nah, I have the metabolism of an F-16! ;)
Go big or go home: world peace.
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 01, 2019, 08:47:23 AM
Linde,
Do you clearly see the route to make that happen?
What would it take for that to happen?
Are you willing to make that happen? Is she?
If yes, go for it with all your heart and energy.
Hugs,
Chrissy
Me yes, she just wants to be friends, and not to live with me anymore (we live almost 2000 miles away from each other now). If I could make it happen, I would try to be a cis man again if she would want me to be one!
I know It will never happen, but an old person can still dream!
Good health
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Quote from: Dietlind on January 01, 2019, 10:26:22 AM
Me yes, she just wants to be friends, and not to live with me anymore (we live almost 2000 miles away from each other now). If I could make it happen, I would try to be a cis man again if she would want me to be one!
I know It will never happen, but an old person can still dream!
Linde,
Have you made it absolutely clear to her how you feel and what you are willing to do?
That you want to remarry her? That the problems you gave to her in the past will not reoccur?
If so, then all you can do in this matter is to wait to see if she changes her mind.
Maybe she might want to try living with you beofre remarriage to see how it goes?
Have you invited her to stay for vacation at your house? That might be a good step.
Wishing you the best,
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 01, 2019, 10:34:07 AM
Linde,
Have you made it absolutely clear to her how you feel and what you are willing to do?
That you want to remarry her? That the problems you gave to her in the past will not reoccur?
If so, then all you can do in this matter is to wait to see if she changes her mind.
Maybe she might want to try living with you beofre remarriage to see how it goes?
Have you invited her to stay for vacation at your house? That might be a good step.
Wishing you the best,
Chrissy
Yes, I did make it clear, but she just does not want it anymore. She is supportive of my transition but nothing else.
She is now living with another man, and seems to be OK with him.
I will continue to be very nice to her, and continue to tell her that I still love her! But I am afraid that I blew it for good, when I acted like a mad man several years ago. She stayed with me for a few years during my rage, but she finally gave up and left.
At the time I had no idea what was going on with me, I was looking for reasons to explode and make everybody miserable who came close to me.
I am happy that I was able to win the love of my son back, and got her to talk with me. The rest is out of my hands and in the hands of the Lord, I pray daily for the reunion of the two of us.
Thank you for your wishes and your understanding!
Real big bear hugs
Linde
Quote from: Devlyn on January 01, 2019, 09:34:17 AM
Neverending macaroni and cheese bowl.
Omg yes!!!!!
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I wonder what the death of all stupid people be too much of a reach oh and the death of all homophobes transforms I don't know if there's a lesbian phobic but them to
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Quote from: Kylo on January 01, 2019, 08:31:57 AM
Complete mental control over all aspects of the self.
I can dig this! I would like this, I would like to be able to self actualise much more.
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Quote from: Devlyn on January 01, 2019, 09:34:17 AM
Neverending macaroni and cheese bowl.
Quote from: Arianna Valentine on January 01, 2019, 10:53:17 AM
Omg yes!!!!!
Yeah, knocks the crap out of that world peace thing, doesn't it? :laugh:
Quote from: Devlyn on January 01, 2019, 10:55:55 AM
Yeah, knocks the crap out of that world peace thing, doesn't it? [emoji23]
Yes at least I know a never-ending macaroni and cheese bowl is possible so it Beats everything
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Quote from: Arianna Valentine on January 01, 2019, 10:57:32 AM
Yes at least I know a never-ending macaroni and cheese bowl is possible so it Beats everything
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I would have 2 never ending bowls.
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Quote from: Kirsteneklund7 on January 01, 2019, 11:00:28 AM
I would have 2 never ending bowls.
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So is that one for you and one to share with a loved one?
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BNR34 GTR Vspec2 NÜR
Be irresistible to men, have 10 billion dollars, and perfect pain free health my whole long life. I guess I'm just altruistic like that.
To he bold and fearless
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I would go back to being 12 yes. old so i could transition then instead of in my 50's.
Quote from: Arianna Valentine on January 01, 2019, 11:12:15 AM
So is that one for you and one to share with a loved one?
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Just kidding - the never ending bowl could supply the other bowls.
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Quote from: Kirsteneklund7 on January 01, 2019, 02:53:46 PM
Just kidding - the never ending bowl could supply the other bowls.
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OMG yes feed the world and endless supply of macaroni and cheese I am in love I love macaroni and cheese it is like my favorite
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Two boobs and a vagina.
An hour glass figure.
To bare my own children the natural way.
Ok, Four things I want. ;D
Lisa
Quote from: Lisa89125 on January 01, 2019, 03:22:13 PM
Two boobs and a vagina.
An hour glass figure.
To bare my own children the natural way.
Ok, Four things I want. ;D
Lisa
Omg yes having my own children sounds wonderful my bf wants children but we've settled on a husky puppy when he moves in with me lol
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OMG Yes, I want a daughter. I so wish I could have children of my own. Actually this is the one thing that bothers me more than anything else about being transgender. Not being able to bare children makes me feel like less of a woman.
Lisa
Quote from: Kylo on January 01, 2019, 08:31:57 AM
Complete mental control over all aspects of the self.
Kylo, now that would be something. I believe that that is the biggest battle for us. And if we could fully control our minds all else would fall away in comparison.
So that gets my vote as well.
Quote from: BritneyX on December 31, 2018, 11:06:35 PM
One thing or a matched set of one thing?
The one thing that I want is bear my own child. The matched set would be to fall in love with man of my dreams, to get married, and then build a Family the old fashioned way.
This, this, a zillion times this. (Although to be honest I'm not so big on the "man" part.) But yeah, "a completely female body and bearing children" would be at the top of the list.
Quote from: Lisa89125 on January 01, 2019, 03:50:44 PM
OMG Yes, I want a daughter. I so wish I could have children of my own. Actually this is the one thing that bothers me more than anything else about being transgender. Not being able to bare children makes me feel like less of a woman.
Lisa
I do understand this feeling and I can say apparently according to everybody else I do know what it's like to actually give birth however my actually giving birth is 5 times and while it was the pain of giving birth it was not actually giving birth it was kidney stones which from what I've read and felt is comparable to giving birth and some even say worse
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Quote from: Rachel_Christina on January 01, 2019, 11:15:41 AM
BNR34 GTR Vspec2 NÜR
I had to Google that Rachel to see what it was...... :-)
And sorry, but I can't stand macaroni cheese
So for me has to be going back in time and being born as cisgirl or at least going back to have an important conversation with my teenage self.
Quote from: IzzyM on January 02, 2019, 02:56:34 AM
So for me has to be going back in time and being born as cisgirl or at least going back to have an important conversation with my teenage self.
We need to form a three wishes club that we all agree that whomever is blessed with three wishes, that one will be to grant that wish for all of us. Sort of like when people group together to purchase lottery tickets. At the least, I think we all needed a stern talk to from our future selves when we were young. ;)
Quote from: Arianna Valentine on January 01, 2019, 03:31:06 PMOmg yes having my own children sounds wonderful . . .
lol "Having kids" is the easy part, if young and single state of Georgia even picks up all the "9 month" expenses, but it's "the parenting" for the next 20 that's the real challenge, not all are cut out for it! I 'ave two kids, three grands . . .
and a female Husky named "Oreo"!
Is yours a handsome male? We have one around the corner but, alas, no pups yet!
To be a "normal". If it could be as a guy that'd be best for the people in my life. If it was to be a girl, that would be great for me and still be easier on the people I love.
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Quote from: IzzyM on January 02, 2019, 02:56:34 AM
And sorry, but I can't stand macaroni cheese
So for me has to be going back in time and being born as cisgirl or at least going back to have an important conversation with my teenage self.
I am with you about the macaroni stuff.
If I could be born again, I would want to be cis, I don't care is girl or boy, just not this stupid intersex, and not knowing what I am. I don't know if I would be trans if I would not be intersex.
Quote from: IzzyM on January 02, 2019, 02:56:34 AM
I had to Google that Rachel to see what it was...... :-)
And sorry, but I can't stand macaroni cheese
So for me has to be going back in time and being born as cisgirl or at least going back to have an important conversation with my teenage self.
:o NEMACBFTW! :laugh:
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on January 01, 2019, 11:15:41 AM
BNR34 GTR Vspec2 NÜR
Nissan girl? I'd love a 71 2000GT-R Hako, but mom life limits me to my Nismo Juke lol
What would I want? It's a toss up. Universal acceptance for everyone sounds pretty ideal to me but I think I would settle for my family getting over their homophobia and transphobia
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Quote from: Sky1090 on January 04, 2019, 02:09:37 PM
Nissan girl? I'd love a 71 2000GT-R Hako, but mom life limits me to my Nismo Juke lol
What would I want? It's a toss up. Universal acceptance for everyone sounds pretty ideal to me but I think I would settle for my family getting over their homophobia and transphobia
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Not a Nissan gIrl no. Would love an R34 though.
I have 99 TT6 Supra.
She is my choice :)
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on January 04, 2019, 02:32:31 PM
Not a Nissan gIrl no. Would love an R34 though.
I have 99 TT6 Supra.
She is my choice :)
Totally fair trade off. I wish I knew more about actually working on the cars I have. They wouldn't cost me as much lol. The hardest thing I've ever done was install coils on my Miata and that took me a day and a half lol.
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Quote from: Sky1090 on January 04, 2019, 02:37:30 PM
Totally fair trade off. I wish I knew more about actually working on the cars I have. They wouldn't cost me as much lol. The hardest thing I've ever done was install coils on my Miata and that took me a day and a half lol.
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You see you have to learn, garage guys just keep ripping people off.
I'm so glad I learned how to do it myself and have my lift in now and everything!
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on January 04, 2019, 02:43:06 PM
You see you have to learn, garage guys just keep ripping people off.
I'm so glad I learned how to do it myself and have my lift in now and everything!
I'm trying to get better. Luckily my best friend is a master tech and doesn't charge a lot to fix my mistakes lol. I'm good when it comes to body work and detailing but I usually get lost with mechanical things. The problem usually intensifies after I touch it.
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Quote from: Sky1090 on January 04, 2019, 03:07:09 PM
I'm trying to get better. Luckily my best friend is a master tech and doesn't charge a lot to fix my mistakes lol. I'm good when it comes to body work and detailing but I usually get lost with mechanical things. The problem usually intensifies after I touch it.
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As in welding and panel beating? Something I need to get into with all my classics
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on January 04, 2019, 04:01:53 PM
As in welding and panel beating? Something I need to get into with all my classics
I mean I can fumble my way through that. I'm more the paint and finishing work type of person. The most I've welded was a wagon I built for my son
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Besides all the correct girl parts.
I think I'd like a 15 inch gauge miniature steam train. I could quickly forget all my problems as I get lost in working on a steam engine. The British Romney, Hythe & Dymchurch Railway 15 inch gauge is my favorite. I love English locomotives and would love to have one. There's some nice videos on youtube of the RHDR if anyone would like to see what a 15 inch gauge steam engine looks like.
Lisa
Quote from: Sky1090 on January 04, 2019, 04:06:57 PM
I mean I can fumble my way through that. I'm more the paint and finishing work type of person. The most I've welded was a wagon I built for my son
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Hey, that looks slick! Great job. Did you lengthen the box, as well?
Quote from: Lisa89125 on January 04, 2019, 04:23:33 PM
Besides all the correct girl parts.
I think I'd like a 15 inch gauge miniature steam train. I could quickly forget all my problems as I get lost in working on a steam engine. The British Romney, Hythe & Dymchurch Railway 15 inch gauge is my favorite. I love English locomotives and would love to have one. There's some nice videos on youtube of the RHDR if anyone would like to see what a 15 inch gauge steam engine looks like.
Lisa
I could go for that.
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on January 04, 2019, 02:32:31 PM
Not a Nissan gIrl no. Would love an R34 though.
I have 99 TT6 Supra.
She is my choice :)
Mine is a 2005 Scion tC that I have a fully built race motor spec'd to 900~1000WHP, depending on the turbo and fuel. I was building toward a road/track car, more curves than straight line. That all had the skids put on when I got injured in the Navy. Once my HRT gets started and balanced, I am hoping that it will free up the old brain bucket to go find a job without sacrificing my mentally capacity to keep my agonizing nerve pain pushed to the back of my mind (meds don't help). My other issue is that I have not garage to work from or out of, so the job will hopefully provide the much needed fundage for this girl to get her garage.
I would like to see cancer, dementia, and Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS) go away forever.
Chrissy
Quote from: Sky1090 on January 04, 2019, 02:37:30 PM
Totally fair trade off. I wish I knew more about actually working on the cars I have. They wouldn't cost me as much lol. The hardest thing I've ever done was install coils on my Miata and that took me a day and a half lol.
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See, that is the reason why I raised my son to be a master mechanic, and run a shop!
Quote from: BritneyX on January 04, 2019, 06:26:02 PM
Ho find a job without sacrificing my mentally capacity to keep my agonizing nerve pain pushed to the back of my mind (meds don't help).
Have you ever tried to take large dosses of Gabapentin? Or elektrostimulation (TENS) might help with the pains!
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 04, 2019, 06:35:11 PM
I would like to see cancer, dementia, and Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS) go away forever.
Chrissy
Labis are working hard on these, and one of these days they may make a break through! As long as there is enough funding available, it will work!
Quote from: Dietlind on January 04, 2019, 08:37:15 PM
See, that is the reason why I raised my son to be a master mechanic, and run a shop!
My dad wasn't much of a mechanic lol. I learned basic maintenance and can do brakes and things like that but keep me away from the engine. I did build a stroker 302 94 f150 lightning clone once with a lot of help from a friend. It ran for a month. Then I got stupid, raced my friends STI and I blew it up. I win the race if that counts lol. My downfall was the pushrods. I used the wrong length. They looked like pretzels when my friend took it all apart.
I don't get it. Me and car engines don't get along. I can do motorcycles all day though.
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I could tear any engine down and rebuild it providing I have the right tools to do the job. I'm partial to the older big and small block V8 American muscle. The GM Quad 4 was not a bad engine either.
Lisa
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 04, 2019, 06:35:11 PM
I would like to see cancer, dementia, and Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS) go away forever.
Chrissy
I'll drink to that! 8)
Lisa
Quote from: Sky1090 on January 04, 2019, 04:06:57 PM
I mean I can fumble my way through that. I'm more the paint and finishing work type of person. The most I've welded was a wagon I built for my son
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Ah that we machine is badass, I can't weld atall. Hopefully in the new year I will start to learn and buy myself a MIG welder.
It's a skill I need with my older cars who need some welding done.
Quote from: BritneyX on January 04, 2019, 06:26:02 PM
I could go for that. Mine is a 2005 Scion tC that I have a fully built race motor spec'd to 900~1000WHP, depending on the turbo and fuel. I was building toward a road/track car, more curves than straight line. That all had the skids put on when I got injured in the Navy. Once my HRT gets started and balanced, I am hoping that it will free up the old brain bucket to go find a job without sacrificing my mentally capacity to keep my agonizing nerve pain pushed to the back of my mind (meds don't help). My other issue is that I have not garage to work from or out of, so the job will hopefully provide the much needed fundage for this girl to get her garage.
Ah so did you build the motor yourself?. Seems a strange platform to build on but I suppose the sleeper style is also a good one to go for. Catches the unsuspecting noobs out lol.
My Supra is only BPU so sitting around 400bhp, she is very responsive and a very point and shoot kind of car now. Full decat really helps her breath, KW coilovers keep me solid and TRD strut brace really stiffened up my steering when it comes to switching directions quickly. Next up for me as regards ride would be upgrading my ARBs.
I would consider a rear strut brace but it would cause me to scarifice the stock look.
My car was too perfect so I was forced to avoid doing crazy mods like big single turbo and all that.
I love her though, you can check her out on my Instagram : Rachel_Christina_2JZ
Quote from: Dietlind on January 04, 2019, 08:41:28 PM
Have you ever tried to take large dosses of Gabapentin? Or elektrostimulation (TENS) might help with the pains!
I have a TENS but it is hard to apply the pads to my lower cervix spine where all my issues derive from. I can consistently point to where it hurts but the Docs all scratch their heads. They simply refuse to take any course of action to figure out what the problem actually is. My new VA Primary Doctor is also my Transgender Care Doctor. She is, herself, a Trans, so I am hoping that she will be loads more compassionate and actually want to have what the damage actual is. It has gotten worse and spread throughout my body over the years. Who knows, I could be paralyzed in a few more years.
As for the Gabapentin, it and all the rest of the meds that they put me on (nerve pain, heavy painkillers, psychotherapy) hardly made a dent in the pain threshold. What they did do is make my quality of living a living hell. It damaged my short term memory, making it hard to remember new or little used information. It is like that handheld communicator to Ziggy (AI) in
Quantum Leap that Den Stockwell's character has to keep smacking to get it to work. I complained about this to a new Doc over at the VA and he put me on some new whizbang new drug just coming out of trials. I asked him about my current drug schedule and he said to keep it up till the new drug has time to take effect. I asked him about compatibility/drug interaction, and he said that they "should" be fine. 6 days later in the VA Lobby, I dropped like a sack of potatoes waiting for the elevator. My breathing and heart stopped and had to be revived twice. So in essence, the VA killed off my former self.
Quote from: Lisa89125 on January 04, 2019, 10:00:00 PM
I could tear any engine down and rebuild it providing I have the right tools to do the job. I'm partial to the older big and small block V8 American muscle. The GM Quad 4 was not a bad engine either.
Lisa
I budget built my first motor, Ford 302, in my living room floor with a bunch of old tools not correct for the job. It ran like a bat out hell on one pass, then like crap on the next. I didn't use a piston ring spreader and fractured the iron compression rings on several cylinders. When the gaps lined up with the one in the oil ring, I lost compression. I finally over torqued the oil pump shaft that is spun by the OEM phenolic resin cam sprocket. It seized up in my driveway. Was going to build a stroked Boss motor out of it, but never had the money and it all went to the junk yard.
If I could have anything it would be my first wife. I would have been honest from the start. I would still be transgender, and she probably would still have objected but I would not have spent 40 years not knowing why.
Quote from: Lisa89125 on January 04, 2019, 10:00:00 PM
I could tear any engine down and rebuild it providing I have the right tools to do the job. I'm partial to the older big and small block V8 American muscle. The GM Quad 4 was not a bad engine either.
Lisa
The first engine I tinkered with was the B6ZE(RS) on my Miata. It was my high school dream car. We (mainly my best friend) built the block with forged rods from Eagle and pistons from Wiseco and ran a small turbo on it. I was able manage building the top end and helped getting it back together. We put it on coilovers, widened the body, big brakes and it became my track toy. Still wish I never sold that little car. But mommy life beckoned for four doors and a back seat for a car seat.
Quote from: Rachel_Christina on January 05, 2019, 03:04:54 AM
Ah that we machine is badass, I can't weld atall. Hopefully in the new year I will start to learn and buy myself a MIG welder.
It's a skill I need with my older cars who need some welding done.
I love her though, you can check her out on my Instagram : Rachel_Christina_2JZ
Thanks Rachel! There really wasn't a lot of welding involved. Just had to build the frame to make sure it rode super low and was able to support my sons weight. It's all built out of 1/8 inch steel. It probably weighs in at 50-60lbs so it's definitely a sturdy ride for him lol. Had to follow you on IG. Your Supra is beautiful!
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My life as my authentic self from childhood to now. I wish I could have lived as me starting a long time ago. So happy I can be me now.
Quote from: Beverly Anne on January 05, 2019, 10:14:03 PM
My life as my authentic self from childhood to now. I wish I could have lived as me starting a long time ago. So happy I can be me now.
You know I think that the waiting so long makes us appreciate it so much more
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Quote from: Arianna Valentine on January 05, 2019, 10:24:05 PM
You know I think that the waiting so long makes us appreciate it so much more
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EXACTLY !!
Quote from: BritneyX on January 05, 2019, 02:02:46 PM
I have a TENS but it is hard to apply the pads to my lower cervix spine where all my issues derive from. I can consistently point to where it hurts but the Docs all scratch their heads.
You mean your pain stems from the L1, L2 vertebra area? If yes, welcome to the club, because the lowest 5 vertebra had me so incapacitated that I was sitting in a wheelchair for some time! I went to the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota, and they turned me inside out and upside down to finally find that my spine was growing shut to the inside. They did a rather new surgery on me, had to fuse L3 and L4 while removing the backs of the other vertebra to open the spinal canal more. The entire surgery took 10 hours, but now, abut 6 years later, I can walk 5 or more miles a day without any pain, and can do almost any activity, as long as I do not overload my spine. I have to take Gabapentin daily, because I have quite a bit of nerve damage and chronic nerve inflammation. I have absolutely no feeling in the front section of my left leg. Those nerves received permanent damage. But I am mostly pain free, and can live an active life!
I hope they find what is wrong with you, you might have to bite the bullet and leave the VA and go to the Mayo, or a similar capable medical institution!
Healthy cigarettes and healthy chocolate. Then I would be very satisfied.
Quote from: Swedishgirl96 on January 06, 2019, 02:58:10 PM
Healthy cigarettes and healthy chocolate. Then I would be very satisfied.
Now you started another dilemma, because we have to define what is healthy?
Quote from: Dietlind on January 06, 2019, 03:12:56 PM
Now you started another dilemma, because we have to define what is healthy?
I'm thinking of healthy as something that is not damaging the body rather something that helps and improve the body.
I tend to prioritize mental health more than physical health actually but I'm still in a very good physical shape. But then I'm still young.
Quote from: Swedishgirl96 on January 06, 2019, 03:20:35 PM
I'm thinking of healthy as something that is not damaging the body rather something that helps and improve the body.
I tend to prioritize mental health more than physical health actually but I'm still in a very good physical shape. But then I'm still young.
I think both have to go hand in hand! The physical health is important if you want to get old. and life in later years can be a lot of fun, too!
Quote from: Dietlind on January 06, 2019, 03:25:35 PM
I think both have to go hand in hand! The physical health is important if you want to get old. and life in later years can be a lot of fun, too!
It can? I used to think life stopped after 20, now I believe it stops after 30.
Really. Like life would be so boring and stiff after that.
Quote from: Swedishgirl96 on January 06, 2019, 03:27:52 PM
It can? I used to think life stopped after 20, now I believe it stops after 30.
Really. Like life would be so boring and stiff after that.
With a little luck you will find out pretty soon that 50 is the new 30! I am getting used to be eyeing 150!
Quote from: Dietlind on January 06, 2019, 04:21:05 PM
With a little luck you will find out pretty soon that 50 is the new 30! I am getting used to be eyeing 150!
I am being a bit more realistic now with my disability. I have scaled back the 500 years to about 250-300 years. :)
Quote from: Dietlind on January 06, 2019, 02:51:17 PM
You mean your pain stems from the L1, L2 vertebra area? If yes, welcome to the club, because the lowest 5 vertebra had me so incapacitated that I was sitting in a wheelchair for some time! I went to the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota, and they turned me inside out and upside down to finally find that my spine was growing shut to the inside. They did a rather new surgery on me, had to fuse L3 and L4 while removing the backs of the other vertebra to open the spinal canal more. The entire surgery took 10 hours, but now, abut 6 years later, I can walk 5 or more miles a day without any pain, and can do almost any activity, as long as I do not overload my spine. I have to take Gabapentin daily, because I have quite a bit of nerve damage and chronic nerve inflammation. I have absolutely no feeling in the front section of my left leg. Those nerves received permanent damage. But I am mostly pain free, and can live an active life!
I hope they find what is wrong with you, you might have to bite the bullet and leave the VA and go to the Mayo, or a similar capable medical institution!
Yes, the VA is scared stiff of that sort of care like the Mayo. I am trying to be seen by a sports medicines groups that has all the required medial acumen all under one roof. I was just had my first procedure when the Navy pulled chocks (yank the Tricare consulate) cause, then President Obama, was cutting funding all over the place. So I got the lovely joy of having the only group that could help, pulled away right before my eyes. The VA has refused to allow this sort of outside care. However, President Trump singed an EO that Vets can get outside care when the VA is unable or unwilling to provide it. That didn't work out so well with MH. They were backed up for over 3 months so they sent me to a person on the outside. She turned out to be a dang ambulance ->-bleeped-<-, asking me if I was looking for Disability and how much! That was actually a God Send as I rolled up my sleeves and looked into the VA Transgender Care MH group. Instead of hinting that I am a Transgender, I just gave them a heartfelt verbatim that I am.
As for where my booboo is, I took a nasty flight off a lateral press weight machine, when on my 2nd rep with max weight, the cable snapped. That sent me flying, as I later discovered, flying back about 6 feet, crashing hard into the terracotta tile floor with my head, neck and right shoulder. It happened so quickly that all I remember was pulling against the weight and the brief feeling of being punched in the face (that was the T-bar (handle) hitting me in the face). I don't know how long I was blacked out, as no one was in the room. The Navy actually thought I made it up, hence, the psychotherapy drugs that ruined my short term memory. The area of impact on my neck if the C5 thru C7 on the c-spine. This is where the huge bulge was a few days after the accident for several years. It has since dissipated. The fuzzy MRI corroborates this. Also, the nerve conduction test clearly connects the original extended pain in the left hand/certain fingers to the C5 thru C7 nerve root bundles. From how I feel, the extent of, from what is known about by injury and what I have learned, it is my non-expert medical opinion that I have a bone spur on the transverse process of one of all 3 of the vertebrae in question. This, in turn, is pressing upon the brachial plexus. It is possible that I stretched the nerves, as mention in the following article and the impact ares was between the neck, head and shoulder. http://www.assh.org/handcare/hand-arm-injuries/Brachial-Plexus-Injury
The nerve conduction test showed that my motor nerves where not severed or damaged too severely. Mine is mostly sensory nerves with sporadic motor nerve problems based on the amount of swelling. The only thing that is for certain is I am fully mobile and fully in pain.
Should I have just started off with C5 thru C7? :o
Have you tried and see what expansion therapy will do to you? (when they try to pull your head of your shoulders)? If this does anything for you, the could prescribe a home unit for you (works with air bellows), and you can apply this several times per day. It might keep you pretty pain free, and without pumping any chemicals into your body. I know that Medicare pays for those devices, the VA ,may also pay for them.
Quote from: Dietlind on January 06, 2019, 09:56:44 PM
Have you tried and see what expansion therapy will do to you? (when they try to pull your head of your shoulders)? If this does anything for you, the could prescribe a home unit for you (works with air bellows), and you can apply this several times per day. It might keep you pretty pain free, and without pumping any chemicals into your body. I know that Medicare pays for those devices, the VA ,may also pay for them.
I did think about getting Dr. Ho's decompression back belt and just use it around my neck. :o
I had neck traction in one of my physical therapy sessions. They really didn't want to do it, but I insisted. While it did feel good, they were too gingerly about it and would never increase the amount of pull or tension on the machine. You should see them when I keep telling them to crank up their hospital grade TENS unit. They start to freak out, but you have to crank it up real high just to get it to work on me. I have an extremely high galvanic skin response. I can grab a hold of 220VAC like it was nothing. Like with most everything else, it felt good cause it was a new sensation. Acupuncture felt good for the first 3-4 sessions and quickly stopped being useful. If could get my new Doc to write a script for neck traction, but the stiff necks at the VA Physical Therapy unit has to actually approve and write Orders. I will try again.
Quote from: BritneyX on January 06, 2019, 10:43:47 PM
I did think about getting Dr. Ho's decompression back belt and just use it around my neck. :o
I had neck traction in one of my physical therapy sessions. They really didn't want to do it, but I insisted. While it did feel good, they were too gingerly about it and would never increase the amount of pull or tension on the machine. You should see them when I keep telling them to crank up their hospital grade TENS unit. They start to freak out, but you have to crank it up real high just to get it to work on me. I have an extremely high galvanic skin response. I can grab a hold of 220VAC like it was nothing. Like with most everything else, it felt good cause it was a new sensation. Acupuncture felt good for the first 3-4 sessions and quickly stopped being useful. If could get my new Doc to write a script for neck traction, but the stiff necks at the VA Physical Therapy unit has to actually approve and write Orders. I will try again.
The unit I have is called Hometrac Saunders, and the price in 2016 was $700. The insurance was almost excited to pay for this, instead of having me run to phys therapy twice a week for an unknown time duration!
Quote from: Dietlind on January 06, 2019, 11:14:16 PM
The unit I have is called Hometrac Saunders, and the price in 2016 was $700. The insurance was almost excited to pay for this, instead of having me run to phys therapy twice a week for an unknown time duration!
That looks like it will do the trick. I will have them check it out. Many thanks.
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