First of all, thanks for this website/community. I found it a few days ago and have been reading so much.
My name is Delilah and I am transgender and recently out to my wife. I don't know what possessed me, she was being very vulnerable with me and all of the sudden I couldn't help myself. We are both 34 years old and have been married 9 1/2 years and I guess the timing was right. We've probably never been closer. I don't know a lot about how to be a woman, this site has helped a lot, my wife wants to help a lot and has been. She has suggested to me that if I want to transition I should. And I absolutely do. If I hadn't of met her, I was basically planning on disappearing after college and transitioning. I don't know if I will even pass but maybe I will. I'm 6 feet tall and currently 230lbs, I played baseball in college and worked out a lot at the time, and I definitely have dad bod going right now. My wife went all out and bought me a bunch of stuff to crossdress, it went way better than I expected. The facial hair is rough, but that is one of the easier things to eventually deal with. My gut is too big but that is something that I can fix with diet usually, I've been lucky that when I want improve my diet to make it go away it does in a couple months. I know that can and probably will change with HRT.
I do not plan on coming out any time soon to anyone other than my wife. So I want to do HRT while still presenting as male and wow there are so many other people doing that on this site that it makes me feel a lot better. The timelines and testimonials and suggestions on how to hide are so helpful and encouraging that I can do this. I am very interested in the conferences that I have seen for transgender and so is my wife. I'm amazed at how all in she is about this. I know what her worries are, and I'm still scared to death, but we are so good right now.
This is pretty amazing to me because after doing some crazy things when I was in 5th grade like nightly tying a shoestring around my genitals to cut off circulation and kill them, (luckily I never went to far because that would have killed me most likely) I stopped trying to change myself and just stuck to online forums and caps. I devoted my self to physical things because it took my mind of away from who I really was. Actually I still wouldn't be that girly of a girl because I love sports and my dreams usually take me to playing softball instead of baseball. I am attracted to women and that is probably a reason I fit in well with the lesbian women on the softball team in college.
Basically I had devoted myself to being a man, I even went as far as punishing myself with over the counter testosterone when I felt I drifting too far to letting my secret out. So when my wife told me her secret that she watches lesbian porn and that this porn attress's legs and butt with her narrow hips looked a lot like mine, well I couldn't hold back. I actually have a meeting tomorrow with a therapist tomorrow about starting my transition. I know I plan on hiding for probably a long long time, but I'm ready to start.
@Delilah.Rhyan Dear Delilah: I am so very happy to see that you have joined Susan's Place and that you have submitted your first several postings here on various threads around the Forums.
As you post here on the forums you will be able to exchange thoughts and comments with others that are experiencing many of the same things that you are.
This is the right place for you to be to find out what others may have to say that may have been in your circumstances and with your questions and concerns.
There are a lot of members here that will be able to identify with your situation as you continue to feel free to share it.
I also want to warmly
WELCOME you to Susan's Place.
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.
As you are certainly aware you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other like-minded members. When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others
and offer support to others. ....
***There is a very good chance that you might find that you will
make some new like-minded friends here.
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Thank you Alaskan Danielle. I will go through those links. I have so many questions so I will start there because I need time to sort my questions as well.
Hi Delilah :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's Place :) Glad to have you here, join on in the fun
Hugs
V M
Delilah,
Welcome! :)
Chrissy
Hi @Delilah.Rhyan, welcome to Susan's Place. I have read your story many times, written by other members of the community and know you are not alone. It's great your wife is supportive. Both of you are on an amazing journey. Keep us updated.
Zoey
Quoteand recently out to my wife. I don't know what possessed me, she was being very vulnerable with me and all of the sudden I couldn't help myself. We are both 34 years old and have been married 9 1/2 years and I guess the timing was right. We've probably never been closer.
Hi Delilah, a pleasure to meet you. Love your name, btw. If I wasn't Susan I think I'd have your name. Congratulations on telling your wife. What a huge deal! It took me 3 months to build up the courage to come out to mine and a lot of tears during those nights. It's one of the most important steps in a married TG person's life. I found myself trying to hide things and becoming sneaky and this isn't who I am. Now you can share this part of yourself with her openly and work through your journey together. That's a wonderful thing.🙂
QuoteSo when my wife told me her secret that she watches lesbian porn and that this porn acttress's legs and butt with her narrow hips looked a lot like mine, well I couldn't hold back.
I can relate. My wife has since coming out preferred the attention of me crossdressed more than my male persona. She wants me to be full time while at home now. I never dreamed this would be the case. I am glad your wife is just as supportive. Enjoy it because it's rare.
Thank you for sharing your story,
Susan R🌷