Thought I would start a thread of the changes and timing for my diary and also others who may wonder how others have done on it. Look forward to the peace and calm others speak of, I feel better already knowing I am moving towards discovering my true self. Took my first meds this morning, I am looking forward to the journey.
Congratulations!! Don't be disappointed if nothing seems to happen for a while. It will, and you will probably be giddy as heck when it does. In my case the changes were as much emotional as physical in the beginning and probably more placebo than actual. For the first time in my life I knew I was going to be okay. No matter what happened or how if all fell into place I would become, a little at a time, whole.
That was eight years ago, and so it has come to pass.
Peace,
Julie
Welcome aboard the E-train
Quote from: Jennifer300 on February 12, 2019, 12:12:30 PM
Thought I would start a thread of the changes and timing for my diary and also others who may wonder how others have done on it. Look forward to the peace and calm others speak of, I feel better already knowing I am moving towards discovering my true self. Took my first meds this morning, I am looking forward to the journey.
@Jennifer300 Dear Jennifer:I am so very happy that you decided to start your own personal transition thread.
Your own thread is indeed important for you and important for your followers.
It allows you to chart your progress all in one spot and is a great place to post your successes that your followers can read and be joyful with you.
Also it is a place to vent your frustrations so that your followers can lend an ear to listen and a shoulder to lean on.
All in all, this is very good personal therapy, please continue to take advantage of that.
You must know that all of us that follow your thread are your biggest fans and we are always rooting for your success and happiness.
I will be eagerly looking for your new updates on your thread and other posts around the forums.
Hugs and well wishes as always,
Danielle
Congratulations Jennifer on starting HRT yesterday. You'll remember taking the first tablet and/or applying the first patch forever! Enjoy the rollercoaster ride.
I wish you every happiness and success on your journey.
Hugs
Pamela
Congratulations on making this huge step! Good luck and try not to be overly critical of your body.
The first few months ramp up slowly. I reckon at 5- 6 months the emotional side comes right on! You will love it!
Kirsten[emoji1652]
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Quote from: AnamethatstartswithE on February 12, 2019, 01:31:19 PM
Welcome aboard the E-train
I about peed my pants when I read this.... This was, my dear, the most awesome thing I've read all day! Laughing tears right now!!!!
Sophia
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 13, 2019, 03:49:58 PM
I about peed my pants when I read this.... This was, my dear, the most awesome thing I've read all day! Laughing tears right now!!!!
Sophia
I'm Glad you liked it.
Congratulations and buckle up: it is the most Exhilarating, Exciting, (sometimes) scary, exhausting, empowering, emotional, and beautiful ride of your life if you let it.
Ricki
I start HRT this Thursday the 21st. I'm excited also. Am I supposed to be this nervous? I get my hair done, step in to a cute dress, wear my heels and it all feels like "AAAAWWWW...... comfort".... but HRT makes me nervous/excited/wondering all at once. I'm probably psyching myself out more than anything.....being a girl!
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Sophia
[Posted my pic to practice posting pics]
I know it takes a while to see changes. I finally got my blood results from initial baseline tests. I am not sure how to read them, or if they are all important. Either way, I am taking my meds daily, so I expect the TB will cause the T to drop, and the E will cause the E to rise. I don't know how common it is to post blood stats, but here are mine. Perhaps someone familiar would know what they mean and which ones I should be monitoring.
As to changes, Libido down, which is a good thing, now I can focus on life a little better. Feel a bit more relaxed, but that could be a mental thing knowing that I am working on solutions and until I recognize any changes and if they are positive, there is nothing more to "do" other than wait. I long it takes to start feeling the breast pains, but knowing they are coming I am content to wait and enjoy the moments they don't cause any pain. When the pains come, I will just try to stay positive and consider them a reminder that mother nature is still working on me. My skin is definitely feeling less oily which is a welcome change, it was very oily in my T zone.
Taken 12 Feb 2019
Testosterone, Bioavailable 142.8
Testosterone, Free 68 pg/ml
ALBUMIN 4.6 g/dL
SEX HORMONE BINDING GLOBULIN 30 nmol/L
TESTOSTERONE, TOTAL (Males), IA 473 ng/dL
ESTRADIOL 22 pg/ml
Hello again Jennifer
I am glad you are feeling the first relaxing signs of HRT doing its work and as you say, it takes time and we all have to have patience as I see you appreciate that.
It also takes time for Blood Test Results to "settle down" and your doctor/endo may adjust your medication after 3 or 6 or 9 or 12 months. Quite a few of us do indeed show their E&T BT readings (and other BT readings aswell if they wish) on their HRT thread. I note your baseline readings. Thank you.
Also I maintain a "Comparison HRT BT Results" thread here on HRT Board attached below which accounts for Members' E&T results after 3/4 and 6/7 and 9/10 and 12/13 months and in May you may wish to post your 3 months result there if you wish.
Thank you for the update and wishing you future happiness.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,244695.0.html
Hugs
Pamela
I will be sure to participate in your data table. I think some of my more at peace feeling comes from actually making the big decision. You consider the repercussions, yet you can't deny the truth from yourself. It is when I finally gave in to myself in complete exhaustion of denial that I felt at peace that I am making the right choice. I guess time will tell on HRT, but I have no doubts about the decision to finally try HRT to see if the psychological effects give me the peace I have longed for my entire life. When I start to reflect on the events of my life that point to my transgender brain, I have few doubts. The real question will be, if the HRT does relieve my Gender Dysphoria, how far do I go. I have no definite limits. I am just going to consider each decision as I evolve. Odds are, the woman I am becoming will decide differently than the person I am today anyway, so why worry about it. I have found lots of insight reading all the posts here and will continue to do so. Those who share the deep intimate feelings help others understand themselves better. I remember when I started basic training in the Air Force decades ago. The boys were individuals and wanted to do things themselves. The girls were more about bonding and helping each other. Just one more black and white example of the differences in the gender of the brain.
@Jennifer300 Dear Jennifer:I was very excited for you when you started your own personal transition thread about 2 weeks ago. I have been following your posts and the reply comments that you have been receiving here on your thread.
I think it is about time that I share with you my personal experiences of HRT and some of the timelines you "might" expect for yourself as you continue on in your journey.
As has been stated over and over here on the Forums in many of my past comments on various posts, HRT will work uniquely in your own unique body.
What you read about other transitioning members experiences with HRT most likely will not be identical to your own experiences.
Some will experience more significant changes more quickly and then some will experience less significant changes more slowly.... it is all up to your genes and how your body reacts to the HRT. Your doctor will undoubtedly be continuing to look at your frequent blood test results during your journey to determine if any alterations in the medically prescribed HRT regimen are needed.
The adage that you have probably already heard regarding HRT and how it may work for various individuals
is
"YMMV" meaning that
Your
Mileage
May
Vary.
PATIENCE is definitely required.... usually not much happens very quickly with HRT... but changes will happen. Here on the Forums you might want to do some reading of other transitioners posts and look at many of the posted HRT timelines and the before and after pictures. .... they can give you a
rough idea of what you
MIGHT expect as time goes on.
Many times the very first noticeable changes can be felt and seen within the first 3 weeks to a couple months... nipple and breast tenderness, erect nipples a lot of the time, breast bud lumps forming under the nipples and some pain when bumping your nipples. Also as time goes breast growth may continue and there may be changes in body hair growth, also your own body and urine smell, changes in erections becoming less intense, less libido, etc.
Without a doubt this can be very "EXCITING and SCARY all at the same time." One needs to hang on for an amazing ride. Some of my best and most appreciated and dramatic body changes happened at about the 4 to 6 month point through the
start of year #2 of my HRT journey. Regarding your body measurements, it would be a good idea if you established a reference point allowing you to judge your body changes as HRT does it's magic.
For me, I did not gain a whole lot in my hips but my breast growth was very good and after 2 years of HRT my breasts were a C-cup.
Many will achieve an A or a B cup and some transitioners may possibly achieve a C-cup or even a D-cup.
Even though I was able to very successfully pass before I went full-time... when I did go full-time at the 1 1/2 year mark I have been passing 100% of the time. Of course that is
just my unique experience, I suppose I can thank my body makeup and my genes for all that.
We are here to rejoice with you in the good times and to support you in the not so good times.
One more time....
PATIENCE is required. The attitude of many people today is "I want it all and I want it now" ... that will not apply to HRT. You might want to re-read what I just wrote so you can get a good grasp of the details that I mentioned.
Regarding your own future progress... things will happen with HRT, but in their own time and in their own ways in your unique body.
I will be looking forward to your continued updates as you feel free to post them. Please hang in there!
Hugs and well wishesDanielle
Quote from: Jennifer300 on February 20, 2019, 02:23:19 PM
I will be sure to participate in your data table. I think some of my more at peace feeling comes from actually making the big decision. You consider the repercussions, yet you can't deny the truth from yourself. It is when I finally gave in to myself in complete exhaustion of denial that I felt at peace that I am making the right choice. I guess time will tell on HRT, but I have no doubts about the decision to finally try HRT to see if the psychological effects give me the peace I have longed for my entire life. When I start to reflect on the events of my life that point to my transgender brain, I have few doubts. The real question will be, if the HRT does relieve my Gender Dysphoria, how far do I go. I have no definite limits. I am just going to consider each decision as I evolve. Odds are, the woman I am becoming will decide differently than the person I am today anyway, so why worry about it.
Hi Jennifer,
I just started HRT as well a week and a half ago. The first few days I felt the relief you describe at having made the decision. The last few days I've been somewhat fatigued, but feeling so much more peaceful than I have in a long time. I'm sort of in the same mind frame as you, wondering if it is just having let go of denial, or if already I am feeling changes from the diminished testosterone. It will be interesting to see my blood test next week! If all looks good I will be moved up to a higher dose.
Best of luck to you!
Love, Jael
I literally JUST walked in from the Pharmacy with my initial HRT meds, I got pills, usual cocktail: Estrogen and Spiro. She gave me pills twice daily and Spiro once a day each am. I'll have the 1st pill in my mouth tomorrow morning! Can't tell you how excited I am. Thank you Jennifer for starting this thread. The E train is about to leave the station...all aboard!
Sophia
Congratulations!! I'm so happy for you. HRT is a great ride.
Julie
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 21, 2019, 07:51:20 PM
I literally JUST walked in from the Pharmacy with my initial HRT meds, I got pills, usual cocktail: Estrogen and Spiro. She gave me pills twice daily and Spiro once a day each am. I'll have the 1st pill in my mouth tomorrow morning! Can't tell you how excited I am. Thank you Jennifer for starting this thread. The E train is about to leave the station...all aboard!
Sophia
Hello Sophia
So today is the day Feb 22nd and congratulations as you will be starting HRT. You'll remember taking the first tablets forever!
I wish you also every happiness and success. Enjoy the rollercoaster ride!
Hugs
Pamela
I held the first one in my hand just looking at it for what seemed like forever. When I put it under my tongue I swear I could feel the first layer of chains falling off of me.
Congratulations!!! Actual change takes time. I hope the physical act of being on HRT gives you hope and comfort while it happens.
Ricki
I hope you all feel more of the stuff than I do. The most effect E had on me was that my feet were swelling. But now even that has stopped, and I take E just for the nice and sweet taste! >:-)
Spiro was a different chapter, I hated that stuff. After about two weeks into it, it started to mess around with my head.
I am happy that I will never ever have to take spiro again! Taking my balls out was less traumatic than having to live with spiro!
I wish you all good luck and some nice results from E!
Hugs
Linde
Thanks Ricki...I did the same thing... took pictures of the pills in my hands and everything. Definitely an uplifting experience to say the least sister!
Hugs...
Sophia
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 26, 2019, 12:18:52 PM
Thanks Ricki...I did the same thing... took pictures of the pills in my hands and everything. Definitely an uplifting experience to say the least sister!
Hugs...
Sophia
You girls are so sentimental and romantic!
I took a picture of the skin blistering my first E patch left on my belly! Not really the same, I guess! ???
Quote from: Dietlind on February 26, 2019, 03:50:25 PM
I took a picture of the skin blistering my first E patch left on my belly! Not really the same, I guess! ???
Sorry you had to have patches hun. My Endo steered me away from patches and said I should give pills a try and switch to injections if mood swings become an issue. I'm closing in on my 1st week and I feel great. I have E twice a day sub lingual. I get a small natural high when it's dissolving under my tongue! Hopefully the euphoric feeling lasts.
Sophia
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 26, 2019, 08:03:46 PM
Sorry you had to have patches hun. My Endo steered me away from patches and said I should give pills a try and switch to injections if mood swings become an issue. I'm closing in on my 1st week and I feel great. I have E twice a day sub lingual. I get a small natural high when it's dissolving under my tongue! Hopefully the euphoric feeling lasts.
Sophia
You are lucky, I am still waiting for that feeling! Here I sit, can't even call balls my own anymore, and still don't have a trace of that feeling!
My Doctor entered a few conditions to my medical records. I am guessing this was a legal diagnosis that allowed him to put me on HRT. I have always been so afraid to talk to anyone about my Gender Dysphoria, once I told my doctor, I don't really think I care who knows. I guess having a legal diagnosis somehow gives me the validation that I didn't chose this, I did nothing to cause this, it is simply a condition I was born with through no fault of my own so I should not have to be ashamed of it. I am glad it is on my official records now, and I am glad I am finally moving towards resolving the conflict that has been within me for over 40 years. 2 Weeks on HRT, no noticeable physical changes, but I do feel calmer which helps me with being patient while the medication slowly brings my brain and body into a state of harmony.
My new conditions listed are:
Gender dysphoria in adult
Endocrine disorder in male-to-female transgender person
Quote from: Jennifer300 on February 26, 2019, 08:41:52 PM
My Doctor entered a few conditions to my medical records. I am guessing this was a legal diagnosis that allowed him to put me on HRT. I have always been so afraid to talk to anyone about my Gender Dysphoria, once I told my doctor, I don't really think I care who knows. I guess having a legal diagnosis somehow gives me the validation that I didn't chose this, I did nothing to cause this, it is simply a condition I was born with through no fault of my own so I should not have to be ashamed of it. I am glad it is on my official records now, and I am glad I am finally moving towards resolving the conflict that has been within me for over 40 years. 2 Weeks on HRT, no noticeable physical changes, but I do feel calmer which helps me with being patient while the medication slowly brings my brain and body into a state of harmony.
My new conditions listed are:
Gender dysphoria in adult
Endocrine disorder in male-to-female transgender person
Congratulation! And NO it is NOT your fault! You are a wonderful person and have the right to live a happy life, and not a life full of guild feelings!
QuoteMy Doctor entered a few conditions to my medical records. I am guessing this was a legal diagnosis that allowed him to put me on HRT.
I'm surprised that's still happening. I didn't think it was necessary with the new WPATH protocol. It certainly isn't for me. I just told my doctor I wanted hormones and was referred to an endocrinologist, no questions asked.
Quote from: AnneK on February 26, 2019, 09:31:02 PM
I'm surprised that's still happening. I didn't think it was necessary with the new WPATH protocol. It certainly isn't for me. I just told my doctor I wanted hormones and was referred to an endocrinologist, no questions asked.
It is an unfortunate reality that not everyone follows WPATH. I was lucky enough to be in an "informed consent" area, so I didn't even require the letter from a therapist that I already had. I also have a family doctor who was not only supportive, but genuinely happy for me. To be honest, I think she was almost as excited for me as I was. It was pleasant and affirming and accepting and I am eternally grateful to her for it.
The change I did not notice until about a month later, is she started treating and interacting with me as female to female vs Female to Male. Women, much like men, do act differently when there is nobody of the opposite sex around. Never having witnessed it before, it caught me by total surprise.
Ricki
Quote from: Jennifer300 on February 26, 2019, 08:41:52 PM
My new conditions listed are:
Gender dysphoria in adult
Endocrine disorder in male-to-female transgender person
Good Morning Everyone
Irrespective of WPATH, I would assume all our medical files (usually electronic) are marked accordingly in order that when BT results are taken primarily for E&T but also for other readings, that our transgender status is taken into account by the laboratory.
I started with therapy myself but went privately here in UK for HRT by Informed Consent.
Hugs
Pamela
Hello girls, quick question: am I in a false sense of security because I've only had one "bad" reaction with my HRT meds that only lasted like an hour? Am I going to wake up one day and puke my guts out?
I do feel different, in a really good way, I only wonder if I might be a lucky girl and glide effortlessly to being beautiful woman! Might be wishful thinking but I'm looking forward to the ride just the same.
Sophia
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 27, 2019, 06:19:20 PM
Hello girls, quick question: am I in a false sense of security because I've only had one "bad" reaction with my HRT meds that only lasted like an hour? Am I going to wake up one day and puke my guts out?
I do feel different, in a really good way, I only wonder if I might be a lucky girl and glide effortlessly to being beautiful woman! Might be wishful thinking but I'm looking forward to the ride just the same.
Sophia
On HRT you will have bad hair days, fat days, you will become addicted to soap operas. The ability to reverse parallel park will totally disappear!
If someone suggests women take things too personally you will reply WELL I MOST CERTAINLY DONT!
Kirsten xx.
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Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 27, 2019, 06:19:20 PM
Hello girls, quick question: am I in a false sense of security because I've only had one "bad" reaction with my HRT meds that only lasted like an hour? Am I going to wake up one day and puke my guts out?
I do feel different, in a really good way, I only wonder if I might be a lucky girl and glide effortlessly to being beautiful woman! Might be wishful thinking but I'm looking forward to the ride just the same.
Sophia
You mean you feel bad because you had the pregnancy feeling only for an hour? Feel lucky, I had it for almost 2 weeks!
But it very well can be that one morning you wake up looking like snow white, and the prince is standing with golden slippers by your bed!
Quote from: Dietlind on February 27, 2019, 07:18:06 PM
one morning you wake up looking like snow white, and the prince is standing with golden slippers by your bed!
OK, seriously, where does a girl sign up for THAT kind of HRT!...(DANG BECKY)....
Sophia
Quoteyou will become addicted to soap operas
ARRGGGHHH NOOOOOO!!!! A fate worse than death!!!! ;)
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 27, 2019, 06:19:20 PM
Hello girls, quick question: am I in a false sense of security because I've only had one "bad" reaction with my HRT meds that only lasted like an hour? Am I going to wake up one day and puke my guts out?
I do feel different, in a really good way, I only wonder if I might be a lucky girl and glide effortlessly to being beautiful woman! Might be wishful thinking but I'm looking forward to the ride just the same.
Sophia
My experience with HRT has been nothing but positive. I really haven't have any side effects besides I feel very happy most of the time which didn't happen before.
Kirsten, I love you comments. :)
Julie
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 27, 2019, 07:35:10 PM
OK, seriously, where does a girl sign up for THAT kind of HRT!...(DANG BECKY)....
Sophia
It happened to me (in my dream), just go and try to find decent docs that take your health insurance! The rest is a dream!
And at some time you will yell out:
I can't stand it anymore, I have the feeling I will loose my balls"
And all of a sudden, you will wake up and have no balls no more!
Quote from: Dietlind on February 27, 2019, 09:24:43 PM
And all of a sudden, you will wake up and have no balls no more!
I discussed orchi with my Endo Dr, she said there was no particular advantage to orchi earlier than later aside from not having to take spiro any longer. So I'm looking at getting an orchi done here in the US as one of my 1st surgeries, a step toward womanhood. For now everyone here has become my daily vitamin of sorts. I appreciate the support ladies.
Sophia
Quote from: Sophiaprincess2019 on February 27, 2019, 09:37:06 PM
I discussed orchi with my Endo Dr, she said there was no particular advantage to orchi earlier than later aside from not having to take spiro any longer. So I'm looking at getting an orchi done here in the US as one of my 1st surgeries, a step toward womanhood. For now everyone here has become my daily vitamin of sorts. I appreciate the support ladies.
Sophia
I was so looking forward to the orchi, because I so much hated spiro!
I have less discomfort from the orchi than I had from spiro!
My next step is the unbelievable amount of paperwork for name and gender change for all the US stuff, and than he whole schmier over again for the German stuff!
Good luck with your vitamins here from the site, who knows, one or the other pill may do the snow white magic!
Nothing erotic, just odd. I haven't dreamed for a long time, now it seems every time I fall asleep I have a dream. My brain does feel more at ease since I started HRT. Who knows, maybe the HRT has taken the stress away and now the happy thoughts can happen while I sleep. :)
Quote from: Jennifer300 on February 28, 2019, 05:49:58 PM
Nothing erotic, just odd. I haven't dreamed for a long time, now it seems every time I fall asleep I have a dream. My brain does feel more at ease since I started HRT. Who knows, maybe the HRT has taken the stress away and now the happy thoughts can happen while I sleep. :)
That's really interesting! I used to have many more bad dreams before coming out. I was always getting chased or hunted with adrenaline rushing. Still happens once in a while if I am angry at someone and holding it in, but a fraction of what it was.
I am sleeping more easily since starting HRT, but I think it is a combo of the Spiro making me fatigued and a calmer nervous system. I need about two hours more sleep a night, or a power nap, otherwise I getreally sleepy when driving by the afternoon.
1 Month today on HRT. I felt relieved since day I decided to go on HRT. I believe it is mostly psychological. I do feel lower stress levels, but some stress in my life ended so that may be it too. I do seem to be more driven to get things done rather than put them off. I am sleeping much better and actually feel more rested during the days.
Physical changes are slight. Libido was down the first week which was good. It lets me concentrate on things I need to focus on. I believe my body hair is growing slower. My nipples were sticking out off and on, but now they are there most of the time. Nipples also feel bruised if I touch them every time now. It is hard to tell if any growth, I had large pectoral muscles for years, and when they softened before HRT they would fill out a swim suite bikini top. I tried a sports bra before HRT and they actually looked like breasts, so it is hard to tell how much muscle is going away and how much breast is taking it's place. I had a 43 in under bust and a 46 in over the nipple area. From what I read the breast buds come first so any growth in the outer areas are likely my imagination. I am still patient, and I am still really wanting to evaluate if I will transition or not. My main goal for HRT at the moment is to see if the brain being exposed to the hormones will make me feel more normal and at peace with myself. For me it really isn't as much about the physical changes at the moment, and I have read the mental changes happen before permanent physical changes so I am kind of on a trial run. I am just trying to get to know my inner person over a 3 month HRT trial run. It is hard to be honest with myself when I know much bigger issues will happen if I decided to actually transition. I suppose I must be considering it if I have already researched how to do legal name changes in my state on all my documents. My insurance covers any surgeries so I am lucky there if I decide to have any surgeries done. I think I have found a therapist I want to try. My luck, the one I would have loved to use is moving out of state and not taking patients.
I guess that is it for my 1 month update. I am optimistic more changes will come. Either way I have no expectations, I am just trying to take an honest look at my inner self without judging myself and worrying about the consequences if I decide to be who I find I am in the end. If I decide it is not the right direction for me, at least I gave it an honest try. If I decide I am going to transition, well, I guess I will have 3 months under my belt, and I suppose under my bra too. :D
Jennifer, great post, this is why SP exists, to explore yourself and see if this is right for you! Bravo on your introspection, shows you are taking responsibility for your self and pointing your life in the right direction. I recently started HRT and have similar feelings too. I agree the mental considerations have deeper meaning for us. Congratulations on one month, I'm right behind you.
Sophia
I guess it is time to go shirt shopping, for some reason my old ones don't fit anymore. Spring has sprung, and so have my breasts. I always try to get a base tan before summer arrives to avoid getting too much sun in one day and getting a burn. I had a nice sunny day here, and decided to go in the back yard and try to get a little tan. I removed my shirt and realized I have breasts now, and it is going to be harder to hide them. If I put my arms over my head and stretch them they are barely noticeable, but if I don't they are definitely there. I use to wear thin T shirts in the summer for comfort and convenience, but they are definitely showing some breasts that are not only sticking out, but rounding on the sides. My goal was really about the mental effects of HRT but much like girls find out when growing up, we have to deal with what mother nature gives us. I was kind of hoping I might get little growth and be able to enjoy the mental benefits and maybe not have to come out at all. Welcome to Womanhood. I guess I will go shirt shopping now to try to hide them a bit longer. I am really not ready to come out yet, but I guess the girls are. I suppose sports bra shopping will be sooner than later too. ;D I have been on HRT 1 month and 20 days today, I plan on going the full 90 days to evaluate how HRT can improve my life and if I wan to continue with it. With the speed the girls are growing, they seem to like the E and will likely be staying even if I decide do discontinue at the end of the 90 days.
Jennifer,
Evaluate where you are before going off. When I first started HRT I thought how am I going to hide them. But being on HRT for a little over 2 years my girls are not very big. Yes there is growth and I did go up a size in my male shirts. I do have to watch the t-shirts they really show off the girls. I still think I'm AA or A in size. I'm hoping for continue growth but...
I'm glad it helped the mental state. That was nice to not have the cloud in my brain after HRT. There are other benefits that I have also discovered.
Take Care,
Julie
I recall growing up with little money starting out in an older car. I never noticed it rattled and didn't block out road noise, etc. until I was doing better financially and purchased a newer car. The newer car seemed like it was a little nicer, until I went back and drove an older car. Then I noticed every single negative fault of the old car and how much nicer it was to drive the newer one. I guess I am trying to say it may be easier to recognize how much HRT is really doing for me by getting off it for a while than I did going onto it. I am going to stay on it the full 90 days to evaluate it, and maybe longer. Before I noticed I had no refills on my HRT meds, but now I have a few refills showing on my account. I guess the doctor decided to go ahead and approve refills on it before seeing me again. I imagine he will want to blood test me to check T and E levels at some point around 90 days. I have noticed some other positive changes as well. It is hard to explain, but my way of thinking has gotten a bit better than it was. I have also started noticing small changes to my face in a feminine way. My overall goal is mental health improvement, but if I look better too I will take it. If my breasts remain pretty small it may be a small price to pay to gain better mental health. I have always had large pectoral muscles, so large that after I no longer worked out as a younger person, they looked like breasts anyway. Many around me may not notice them as long as they don't completely round out or get too large. Mother nature is in control so I am just trying to get a better understanding of who I really am in case I find the need to transition and own it all.
No one here warned me about refrigerator doors, I was only watching out for the entry doors. I guess I can say my breasts are definitely growing, and a little painful when bumped. I feel like a have half a golf ball under my nipple areola area, so I guess the HRT does a bit more than mental changes. Still enjoying the more restful nights, urinating is easier, the calmer less stressed feeling in general.
I guess I'll also have to watch out for refrigerator doors. What about other doors? ;)