Not long ago I received a message from this woman I used to see regularly when I lived in Petawawa. I met her in 2016 during my lowest of my low in life. I expressed to her all my fears, shames, guilts and scary feelings in regards to transitioning. Never about the actual transition itself but more around the lines of how i felt I must be a fake and could never allow myself to be free. After leaving Petawawa in 2017 we have had some contact here and there.
Recently I recived a random message from her asking me if I would be ok talking to a transgender male. Without specifics he is going through much of what I had. Never ending doubts and criticism caster at him by family as I had, fears of a face plant and such. When asked if I would talk to him I felt humbled. I have learned a lot about myself, specifically in 2019 alone. I've learnt how to manage my own emotions and just love. Infact a side from some very little beard hair left I feel in the morning as I wash face or the penis I feel absolutely no dysphoira, and even the dysphoira I do feel doesn't sting as it has. Infact I can't recall the last time I had a real dysphoira attack that lasted longer than 5 minutes.
I'm not super sure if this will be a small short lived communication or if this could morph into a long lasting friendship of some type but I am excited to meet someone who needs help and how I could give them the tools for him to look into himself to be as strong as possible. He starts T today so congrats to him! I just hope he'll be able not allow the demons to destroy his first as had happened to me years ago.
Ashley, you are the perfect person to help this man! You have indeed come a long way and successfully fought off your own demons, so I am sure you will understand his struggles.
Hello again Ashley
It is wonderful to read that your GD has so much diminished.
I think you a really good candidate to give this person worthwhile advice and I wish you every success in giving it and I wish happiness to him that receives it.
Hugs
Pamela xx