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My name is Melissa. I had my name legally changed 4 years ago. I am transgender...
Part of my story is at 7 years old I was sex trafficked by 2 of my uncles who sold me to their friends. I was gang raped in high school. And in 2017 I was raped because I'm transgender. I was set up by someone whom I thought was a friend.
After being trafficked and raped in the hundreds, my soul was dead. No, murdered. Please don't feel sorry for me and I'll explain why.
I ran away and hid from my past. I was ashamed of it. I knew I was different from my earliest remembrance but never knew how to explain anything.
I got married to a woman that did not run away when I tried to explain what I felt on the inside. I loved her but wasn't in love with her. One thing I did know, I never thought I wanted her, I wanted to be her.
We had 2 children via invirtual fertilization because I could not produce enough sperm. I never felt good enough. Not having enough sperm, I felt like a complete failure. Moving forward 13 years my marriage fell apart and lost my children along with my back failing me and requiring 23 surgeries. Left me depressed and a complete failure in live. So on August 19th, 2011, I attempted suicide. I injected 24mg of Dilaudid. 300 times the amount stop my heart. Yet I survived.
That's when I realized that I was ment to be here. I work hard to get clean from my addiction. I worked ever harder to find a purpose to my life.
I am no longer a victim. I am a survivor and more so I am victorious..! I'm no longer a prisoner to my past and fight for those who have not found their voice or strength yet..!
I have other friends that have been trafficked and we consider ourselves WARRIOR GODDESSES..!
We have discovered through supporting each other our power, our voice, our fight, and our drive...!
I really enjoy this group and its possitivity. Thank you
Melissa, my heart goes out to you for your traumatic upbringing. I'm also angry at the scum who used you, but then I am glad you have survived and found happiness. You are an inspiring lady, and give perspective to those who think they have it tough. Thank you for opening old wounds so we can all benefit. You are a beacon, please keep shining!
Allie
Quote from: Allie Jayne on May 18, 2019, 06:28:16 PM
Melissa, my heart goes out to you for your traumatic upbringing. I'm also angry at the scum who used you, but then I am glad you have survived and found happiness. You are an inspiring lady, and give perspective to those who think they have it tough. Thank you for opening old wounds so we can all benefit. You are a beacon, please keep shining!
Allie
Thank you very much Allie. I always will try to help others.
Wow, you have lived through much pain. It makes my challanges seem inconsequential by comparison. You have great strength. Thank you for sharing.
Best regards,
Brian
Hello Melissa
A very sad list of experiences suffered right up to 2011 but since then a wonderful example of survival and motivation.
I am truly delighted that you turned it round, to say the least.
You are truly inspirational for me and for so many on Susans' and I both feel for you and thank you.
Hugs
Pamela xx