From time to time I have dysphoria overwhelm me and the other day I was under attack. I normally under dress and no one knows the difference and doing that helps the mental side of the issue.
I decided to try something to find some mental peace in my head. I needed to go to a hobby store to find a shadow box and get some gas for my lawnmower. I gathered up courage to wear a favorite skirt that I wear in my house and never out in the open. This time I said to myself I will do this , it is a free world we live in. So off I went in my skirt just above my knees and in male mode otherwise. To my surprise no one paid any notice to me,I was just another shopper in the store. It was the same when I got gas in my 5 gal can and washed my car at the automatic wash bay. I walked past several people and stood in line with others waiting to check out.
When I got home I felt like a million dollars and on top of the world from just being who I really am for about 2 hours. In addition the summer heat was much nicer to suffer in with a skirt, no wonder I see more women in a dress or skirt when it is on a hot summer day. In addition I wonder if I could have went out in a skirt like I did but instead 25 or 30 years ago without drawing attention like I did in todays world?
In the words of my psychologist: "It should never be difficult to just be yourself."
I am so happy that you dared to just go for it, and it had a happy result! Positive reinforcement is a wonderful thing. Over time it will be the most natural thing to do and you won't give it a second thought.
Congrats!
@she she, that's awesome. I'm glad you went for it. I was amazed when I first started exploring my gender expression how much I could push the boundaries, and nobody would notice.
All day today I thought about my adventure by just being "me" When I can I have decided to go out in the same manner several times and hope I feel completely comfortable. When I do get to that point I may branch out just a little bit, I just need to decide what that will be. Any suggestions ??
Chat with someone like that. A neighbor or a stranger at the gas station or grocery store. Doesn't need to be a long conversation, just a little bit more than "hello". Maybe ask someone where something is located. Something along those lines.
You got this. Have fun with it.
Honey, I'm going to give you this (https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,122320.msg956290.html#msg956290) to give you a way to get in touch with your inner self. For times where you feel down, or can't go out as you. It's something you can to do to get in touch with the person inside. To feel... connected to yourself, okay? Use it as many times as you need. :) It can be quite useful when dysphoria strikes. :)
Thank you.