Greetings y'all. Kylie here. Was a member a while back but life is a beach and perfect as we all know 🙄 sooo, yeah, without getting into the details...I just wanted to swing by, say hi, (re)introduce myself and at the same time, ask for some advice/help.
Yes, it's the same as most but I had a great childhood, although not perfect, can't complain one bit. Ever since a young age, I went through all phases...from rap, to Marilyn Manson/goth, to working in the professional sports business, more specifically, golf to...now.
I've always loved girl's clothes. Looks, colors (going in to a Lily store is like going to a laser light show back in the day.
Now that I'm at this spot, literally, in life...no relationship, nothing holding me back here really, not happy, what am I doing in life? What makes me happy? I want surgery and everything. There are times, especially after I orgasm without touching myself, I ask, should I just face it, would definitely move to Vegas if the opportunity presented itself and move forward as Kylie or, stay in CIS MALE wondering what if, what if I'd have made a different decision and regret everything, only questioning what if? I need my hrt mtf meds like right now and am just a little cranky lol
In your honest opinion, am I trans? In the past, I rarely, went out in girl mode in the past. When I did, it was just for a walk. In the past few months, I've been out in girl mode, not even looking pretty and walked in a few stores, pumped gas and it felt great. Nervous as hell, even though I could probably pass enough. After orgasm, I'd feel so ashamed and immediately rinsed off the makeup, nail polish, etc, even though my body is completely shaven and smooth. Now, I still prefer to be with a female having sex. It's absolutely mind blowing. But now, I'll think about things and get all worked up, orgasm multiple times and sit for a few moments thinking about something, although tough, would eventually get over it and go back to living full time trans mtf (30's) but would still think about it. I'd love to get breast augmentation, at least a C cup, some face surgery, etc. If asked if I'd do it today, right now, absolutely. This could also be some thing that just was there all of these years and will soon pass like "ha, yeah, I'm not trans. Glad I didn't get breast surgery or anything done like a legal name change, etc...I'd move to Vegas right now no questions asked but, what about jobs? I'd work in the adult business if I can but what about hotel housekeeping or something maybe cheap pay but includes a free room or something, would that be possible being trans mtf there full time in Vegas or no chance? Is this just yet another phase in life that will pass by as I get older? Or, do I really need to seriously consider the fact that I may be, maybe possibly be trans? Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated! Thanks!
Welcome back Kylie!
Chrissy
Hello Kylie,
I'm Lori Dee.
Welcome to Susan's Place!Thank you for that wonderful introduction. In answer to your question, the only person who can tell you if you are trans is YOU. However, there is help available to guide you in figuring out those answers. Your first step is to seek out a therapist or psychologist with experience in gender identities. They can help you figure things out. If they diagnose you with gender dysphoria, then a medical doctor can prescribe the appropriate treatment, i.e. hormones. Transitioning is not a quick and easy process. It is very slow and there will be rough spots. By having a therapist who knows you, they can help you through the rough times. I have been in therapy since 2017, and I am a retired hypnotherapist. Trust me, therapy is the best first step.
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@Kylie725 @Sarah B@Northern Star Girl
Hello KylieMy name is
Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!
I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.
Welcome back to the community! First off, thank you for sharing your story and being so open about where you're at in life. It takes courage to put your thoughts and feelings out there, and this is a safe space for you to explore them without judgement.
Let me start by saying that what you do in private is not wrong, shameful, or something to beat yourself up over. Your feelings, preferences, and experiences are valid. It is completely okay to question who you are and explore your gender identity. It is a deeply personal journey, and there is no right or wrong way to go about it.
From what you have shared, it sounds like you are in a pivotal moment, trying to piece together what makes you truly happy. The best advice I can offer is to connect with a gender 'therapist', psychiatrist, psychologist or counsellor and uses informed consent. They can guide you through your thoughts and help you untangle the "what ifs." They can provide insight into your feelings, help you understand your identity, and figure out what steps, if any, might feel right for you.
Remember, whether this is a phase or something deeper, your happiness and sense of fulfilment matter. It is okay to take your time, gather resources, and explore what feels real to you. There is no rush to make life-altering decisions. This journey is yours, and you deserve to approach it at your own pace.
Lastly, life is full of opportunities, whether in Vegas or somewhere else, and it is never too late to find your path. You are not alone in this, and you have a community here to support you every step of the way.
Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads. I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members
In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.
Take care and all the best for the future.
Once again, Welcome Back to Susan's Place!Best Wishes AlwaysSarah BGlobal Moderator@Devlyn @Jessica_Rose @Mariah @Northern Star Girl @Lori Dee @Kylie725
Quote from: Kylie725 on January 22, 2025, 09:13:55 PMGreetings y'all. Kylie here. Was a member a while back but life is a beach and perfect as we all know 🙄 sooo, yeah, without getting into the details...I just wanted to swing by, say hi, (re)introduce myself and at the same time, ask for some advice/help.
Hi Kylie! Life really is a beach, sometimes with a little too much sand where we'd rather not have it! But hey, it's good to see you back here.
Welcome back to Susan's!
~ Lilis