Hi. My name is Dawn and I'm back. It is nice to still be alive and happy being my true self. It has been the best of times and the worst of times. Let me get into it.
I learned to give up the past as nothing can be done to change it. I learned to love myself so I can love others. I learned Love does not have a gender, an ethnicity. It is the heart that matters. That heart makes every get together special. I have been married for forty years now. I have a son and a daughter who along with their mother have been supportive of me through good times and bad time. I was once an alcoholic and drug addict. They stood by me and actually saved my life. We moved to Seattle in 97 to work for Boeing my wife worked for Alaska Airlines. I worked days, she worked nites. This allowed me to crossdress until 2016 when she was allowed to work from home because she had her leg amputated. So I sought gender therapy and by the third visit I got autorization to begin HRT. I have developed c cup breasts, my waist went from 48" to 34", I have a pretty nice butt. I went from 300 lbs to 190 lbs. I also do not look like my 73 years of age. My best friend whom I have to fix the relationship as I am on the autistic scale and she confuses it with narcissism. I have never loved someone so deeply. Oh, I am also asexual. I had children because I was high and horney, otherwise my first wife and I had unprotected sex for eight years, because my penis could not fit into a condom. I had to consults with Marci Bowers about bottom surgery and she said that could not happen because of my blood. So I got and orchi. My T is now under 10 while my E is in the area of 200. I am as close to being a true woman as I am ever going to be. I have made more friends than ever but I have to work hard not to let the autism get in the way. My friend is a Two Spirit Native American. She is beautiful inside and out. I finally discovered and was able to report to my first wife why she discovered me crossdressing. I had no answers at the time and now I do. In large part that is why my family has finally realized I am not as the ignorant Trump supporters think. My therapist over the years have been asked by me if I have any mental problems. I do have cognitive disorders but they say no. You're just a kind person that wants to help other people. I wish I had better communication skills to go along with my intelligence. Anyway, It's nice to still be here and I will stand up to ignorance and focus on facts and science over faith and beliefs. I have access to thirty years of research on DES and Endocrine Disruptors as well as ->-bleeped-<- in general if anyone is interested in reading the research. I know finally having answers finally eased my mind because I learned that my mom did not want another miscarriage so she took excessive amounts of DES synthetic estrogen as prescribed by her doctor beginning early in the birth process.Thanks Mom.
Welcome back, Dawn!
I have read many of your earlier posts and it is so good to have you back posting again. I think we all have much to learn and your experiences have been inspirational.
I look forward to seeing you around.
Hugs!
Dawn!
Welcome home dear sister! It's good to see you again!
Hugs!
Ashley 💕
Dawn,
It is nice to see you post again. Welcome back!
Chrissy
Welcome back, Dawn!
Quote from: DawnOday on January 23, 2025, 11:49:33 PMMy friend is a Two Spirit Native American. She is beautiful inside and out. I finally discovered and was able to report to my first wife why she discovered me crossdressing. I had no answers at the time and now I do
For a long time, I didn't have the words to explain why I was drawn to crossdressing. I didn't have a wife, but a companion at that time that would question me about it, but I often found myself confused, unsure of why I felt such a deep connection to expressing myself in feminine ways. Now that I've discovered my genderfluidity, I finally have the answers I was searching for.
Much like Two Spirit people, who embrace both masculine and feminine energies in a deeply spiritual and cultural way, I've come to understand that my gender is not fixed. It shifts and evolves, and crossdressing was one of the earliest ways I expressed that fluidity, long before I even realized it.
What once felt like a secret I couldn't explain has now become something I fully embrace as an essential part of who I am.
Welcome back Dawn! 🫶
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Welcome back, Dawn.
Nice to see you back, Dawn. <3
Quote from: Lilis on January 25, 2025, 12:17:52 PMFor a long time, I didn't have the words to explain why I was drawn to crossdressing. I didn't have a wife, but a companion at that time that would question me about it, but I often found myself confused, unsure of why I felt such a deep connection to expressing myself in feminine ways. Now that I've discovered my genderfluidity, I finally have the answers I was searching for.
Much like Two Spirit people, who embrace both masculine and feminine energies in a deeply spiritual and cultural way, I've come to understand that my gender is not fixed. It shifts and evolves, and crossdressing was one of the earliest ways I expressed that fluidity, long before I even realized it.
What once felt like a secret I couldn't explain has now become something I fully embrace as an essential part of who I am.
Welcome back Dawn! 🫶
~ Lilis
Nice to meet you,Dawn!
Lilies, that was expressed beautifully!
Quote from: Camille58S on January 31, 2025, 10:45:40 AMLilies, that was expressed beautifully!
Thank you, Camille! 🤗💗
I have recently returned as well, and I hope that many more will come again especially in this trying time.
As for research I'd absolutely love to read any and all research thrown at me. While I am not in the field it helps me keep an edgewise scientifically.