I don't know where to start. I am 65 in October and have always felt that I was born in the wrong body. I am male by birth and grew up playing with dolls and wearing dresses whenever I could. My mother would tell me that I was a boy and not to wear a dress; needless to say, I would get upset.
I have not had a family GP in over 10 years. I did not feel comfortable going down to the ER to discuss how I was feeling. I have a new family doctor and am excited about discussing my feelings and hopefully getting help.
I don't know if HRT would be suitable for me, as I'm a type two diabetic and have read that HRT could raise my blood sugar. I had already started to feminize my body, growing out my fingernails, applying clear polish and putting a nice pink polish on my toes. I have also been wearing a gaff, women's panties and jeans. I have been working on my lower body to developed my butt and make it stand out more.
I would like to be happy in my skin as I enter the later part of my life, however long that might be. I would be interested to hear from any other MTF in Canada and your experience. I live in NL.
Hi, Paula, and welcome to Susan's Place.
You'll definitely find other MTF folks here in Canada. As I expect you've already read here, there are many of us with similar experiences to yours. We're happy to have you join us.
Pema
Welcome, Paula! Like you, I'm a late-blooming MtF with Type II diabetes. I'm on Estradiol but no androgen blocker because of the diabetes. My advice: enjoy the ride.
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@Northern Star Girl [Danielle] Direct Email: alaskandanielle@yahoo.comQuote from: Paula1960 on Yesterday at 12:49:35 PMI don't know where to start. I am 65 in October and have always felt that I was born in the wrong body. I am male by birth and grew up playing with dolls and wearing dresses whenever I could. My mother would tell me that I was a boy and not to wear a dress; needless to say, I would get upset.
I have not had a family GP in over 10 years. I did not feel comfortable going down to the ER to discuss how I was feeling. I have a new family doctor and am excited about discussing my feelings and hopefully getting help.
I don't know if HRT would be suitable for me, as I'm a type two diabetic and have read that HRT could raise my blood sugar. I had already started to feminize my body, growing out my fingernails, applying clear polish and putting a nice pink polish on my toes. I have also been wearing a gaff, women's panties and jeans. I have been working on my lower body to developed my butt and make it stand out more.
I would like to be happy in my skin as I enter the later part of my life, however long that might be. I would be interested to hear from any other MTF in Canada and your experience. I live in NL.
Hey Paula,
Welcome to Susan's Place! 💗
~ Lilis 🫂
Hello Paula,
Welcome to Susan's Place!
You are not alone here. I turn 68 in September and started hormone therapy a little more than five years ago.
Definitely discuss your goals with your doctor. I would guess that they would refer you to an Endocrinologist who can monitor your hormones and diabetes to keep you on track and healthy. Some GPs can do that themselves, so it is important to have an honest discussion with them on what you are trying to achieve. Then they can determine if this is something they can do or if they need you to see a specialist.
I would also recommend seeing a therapist with experience in gender identities, if you are not currently seeing one. Not only can they help you better understand what you are experiencing, but they can also be very helpful throughout your journey when things get tough. It is not an easy road to travel, but in the end, we all agree it is worth it.
"Every journey begins with a single step." Congratulations on taking yours!
Hi PaulaMy name is
Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!
I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.
Thank you for sharing your story. Speaking openly about lifelong feelings is not easy, but it shows strength and self-awareness. You are not alone in feeling that you were born in the wrong body. Many of us have lived with that quiet truth for years before taking steps to change our lives.
You are already moving forward. Growing your fingernails, painting your toes, wearing what affirms you, and working on your body shape are all meaningful actions. These are not small things. They reflect a deep understanding of who you are.
Finding a new family doctor after more than ten years is a major step. That gives you someone to talk to and plan things with. It is natural to feel nervous about discussing your feelings, especially in a medical setting. You are doing the right thing.
You asked about HRT and blood sugar. Some studies suggest that HRT can raise blood sugar levels in certain people. Since you have type two diabetes, you are right to be cautious. As Lori mentioned, the best person to talk to is your doctor or endocrinologist. They can look at your full medical history and help you weigh the risks and benefits. Always consult your doctor before making decisions.
If you decide to explore HRT further, it is also worth speaking with a professional therapist or counsellor. Look for someone who supports the informed consent model. That approach helps you make decisions based on your needs rather than jumping through unnecessary hoops.
Your wish to be happy in your own skin is valid. That desire never goes away. Women come in all shapes and sizes. I never worried about mine. I was too busy just living my life as me. There is no one way to look or feel. What matters is how you see yourself.
Take one step at a time. Be yourself. Read through Susan's Place. Ask questions whenever you need help. The people here come from all walks of life. Our paths are different, but the feelings are often similar. We learn from each other. Most of us wish we had started earlier, but as someone recently wrote in their introduction, "Better Late Than Never." That is exactly right. It is never too late to start being who you are.
Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads. I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.
In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.
Please keep in mind when posting that this is an
ALL AGES PUBLIC Forum and the internet never forgets. Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.
Take care and all the best for the future.
Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!Best Wishes AlwaysSarah BGlobal Moderator@Devlyn @Jessica_Rose @Mariah @Northern Star Girl @Lori Dee @ Paula1960
Welcome from Lancashire. Also got type 2 diabetes and COPD. Been on hrt since early 1990
Hi!
Welcome Paula!
Chrissy
Come back often Paula!
Chrissy
Hi Paula,
It's lovely to meet you. Welcome to Susans place!
Ciara.