Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hello everyone! Posted somewhere else in the forums first and then was pointed here. Anyways, I'll try to keep it quick.

I'm a 20 year old University student living in Southern California while working a part time job and living in my parents house. After constantly going back and forth ever since elementary school, I'm finally looking into possibly starting HRT after accepting what I've felt over the years is probably more then just crossdressing.

Growing up I would always sneak into my step-sisters and try stuff on when I was alone in the house. At first I'd mess around for a bit and not have to worry about it for awhile. But with each passing year I found myself more involved in it, wearing her clothes more and more frequently. Even from the start I knew it was not just about wearing her clothes (and later my mothers or my own online bought stash) and instead a desire to have a female body to go along with it. Course I got caught a few times by my parents and went to therapists, but they never really seemed to resolve anything and I'd find myself back in the same spot down the road.

I actually had up until a few weeks ago been looking into ordering some hormones online after researching doses, but then I made the choice that I'd rather do it the safe way and go through a doctor. In addition I wanted to once again lay things out with a therapist (except this time get something accomplished instead of dancing around it the last few times I was sent to one by my parents) before I move forward with something as powerful as HRT.

Luckily I found someone at the University's counseling center who appears to have experience with such issues, and I'll be seeing her for the first time this week. Unfortunately there is a limit on how many free sessions you can get through the counselors but we'll how it turns out. If anything hopefully I can get out of the funk I've fallen into over the last year (harder and harder time dealing with school work; overall depression I guess).

If I can move beyond deciding if I am TS or not and begin HRT (I sooo would love to start seeing/feeling physical changes right now) there are a few things nagging at me. Course glancing around the forums a lot of it's pretty common. The most pressing issue I guess would be if I could even afford it while dealing college and whether my parents would let me stay in the house (I do have a younger brother).

Then of course there are issues of how I will turn out with transition. I know some girls are more concerned about getting SRS, but to me that's something down the road and the bigger issue is how well I could pass. Not sure about such things as my face (which I posted about in one of the other forums), my broad shoulders, large neck, and probably most importantly, my voice (although that's just something I can work on while before and during stealth before I'd go full time).

Anyways, that's that. What happens with the therapist will probably effect how many posts I'll be spreading around here so we'll see.

Hi Alex, welcome to Susans. It sounds like you have your work cut out for you but your not alone... there are alot of other people who been where you are and I am sure can offer advice. I hope things go well for you at the therapist. And just be yourself :-D

~Rachel~

Hello Alex and welcome to Susan's!

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Hey Alex,

Another socal person yay haha.

Hope this site helps you out in your journey.

Take care.