First of all i'd like to say that this seems like an excellent board with a lot of info and caring people. I've been lurking and reading a lot of posts. I'm going to open up with a lot of stuff that I normally would not admit to anyone, because I feel that there are friends here that might be able to help me understand what path i'm on.
To summarize, i'm a married mid-40s guy with a family. With that said, i've always known that I was "different". Up until just a few weeks ago I didn't really know what that meant. In fact, the wife and I have had many conversations about it (me initiating) but I still didn't understand.
Frankly, i've never been a "mans" man. Not interested in poker night, hunting, NFL, strip bars, adultery, or any of the other "manly" pursuits. I've often wondered "why?" (looking down at myself. Shouldn't I be like "them"? What is wrong with me?). And it has been painful not to have guy friends and guy activities. I felt excluded. Maybe I am gay?
And I happened across the COGIATI test. And took it.
The test revealed that I had a significant feminine component to my personality. The more I thought about it the more the pieces fell into place. This made sense, and explained *so* many things in my history, life and outlook. A bright light came on.
My wife and I have always been really tight and now I think it has to do with my ability to connect with her because I see things her way. I would not trade that for anything. I am also tightly connected with my daughters, and in fact the thought of having to rear a son for me was quite scary when we were starting our family. I felt that I would not know what to do with him. Daughters seemed to present no issues (and haven't).
Still, there are plenty of other issues going on. I want to feminize to some degree (but not all the way to SRS). Been taking BO and have developed some boobies that I really like. Not for sure why i'm doing this but finding that I really like it. So maybe i'm further into this than i'm willing to admit at this point. The wife doesn't know. And honestly I don't really understand the road that I seem to be on at the moment, and i'm pretty sure i'm lying to myself on a lot of things. This whole deal is quite new at the moment, and I have a lot to think about and think through.
Hopefully this board will be a resource as I work through and understand the new me :)
sounds like the game is afoot.
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Welcome.
My situation is not all that different from yours. I'm 38, been very happily married for the last 19 years, and I have 2 kids. My wife & I have discussed gender identity with our kids, but not mine specifically.
I, too, am starting to "feminize to some degree" and have no desire for SRS.
But, I have to ask. What do you mean by "taking BO?"
After reading the rules here I don't believe that I can answer that question :police:
However, a little internet research should yield the answer.
Quote from: riven_one on March 10, 2008, 03:24:47 PM
After reading the rules here I don't believe that I can answer that question :police:
However, a little internet research should yield the answer.
Understood. I'll start poking around.
Thanks, anyway.
Frankly, i've never been a "mans" man. Not interested in poker night, hunting, NFL, strip bars, adultery, or any of the other "manly" pursuits. I've often wondered "why?" (looking down at myself. Shouldn't I be like "them"? What is wrong with me?). And it has been painful not to have guy friends and guy activities. I felt excluded.
And I happened across the COGIATI test. And took it.
I feel the same way as you do and I've also taken the COGIATI test as well, and my results were more leaning towards being feminine than male as well. :)
I'd love to experience the growth of boobies on my body. I have some development already, but nothing much. I may try something later . . .
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