Hi,
I'm happy to have found this site. There's been so much activity in my consciousness - continuous lightning flashes if you will - with no where to release the energy. This journey of self-realization has taken ten years and my only regret is that I did not recognize the meaning of all the sign posts thirty or thirty-five years ago. At this stage, I'm feeling there is little I can do but finally let go of the tension of wondering for so long about an "itch" that would never quite wane completely. With two daughters from a marriage ended long ago, being good looking (I'm told) but too masculine to pass, and a world with too much happily in place, it seems to much to put at risk.
Nonetheless, from the aunt who continually chased me to put bows in my hair, to my lithe frame that feels like it's missing the right parts, to always volunteering to play the damsel in distress when playing cowboys and indians, I now understand what I feel. Somewhat ironically, I was "supposed" to be a girl, even to the point that my given name is the male version of the girl's name my parents had chosen before my birth, having wanted a girl.
Certainly, with all this (and much more), I have long pondered "the chicken or the egg" and it is only certain recent events that have made me realize it doesn't matter. Very deeply, I feel what I feel. [I think, therefore I am.] Fortunately, in all other aspects of "self", I am very happy . . . . . if only this unsettling feeling of being in the wrong wrapper would cease.
And with that, I join your company to learn and explore!
Jaclyn
welcome jaclyn you found a gold mine
Jaclyn,
Welcome to Susans and thank you for sharing with us. You have come to the right place for support information and advice. We are a pretty friendly bunch here and you will make lots of new friends.Be sure to check out the WIKI there is lots more information as well.
Good Journey,
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Michelle
Hello Jaclyn.
Welcome to Susan's. I think that you will find this site to be quite a friendly place, a safe haven to discuss issues of interest, and to ask questions and seek advice. Please participate where you can as that's what makes Susan's a great place - it's members. There is also a Chat area where you can talk to other members and of course the Wiki our great repository of knowledge :)
So relax you're among friends, and I'm sure we will chat later.
Steph
Welcome, Jaclyn,
Lots of people who can answer lots of questions.
It's quite a journey,
Welcome, Jaclyn. None of us are too old to be ourselves.
I can't add much to what the others have already written except my Welcome! - I'm glad you found us, stick around! take your shoes off! set a spell!
helen