Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hi everyone. 

I think I joined this site over a year ago, but I barely ever posted (if at all) and I don't remember my password or even the email account I set up to join.  So I've decided to re-join with a new account (apologies if this is against the rules, if it is, please let me know and we'll figure something out).

Ok. :)  So, I'm just recently starting to get things settled in my life.  My life has been a little bit of a roller coaster, and while I'm not soaring at the top at the moment, things are pretty steady, so I'm happy(happier at least)

So, a little bit about me.  I'm 27 years old, born genetically male.  All my life I've known I was different and I've coped with it the only way I knew how.  Ignore it.
Of course, there were times where it was extremely hard to ignore.  Especially when you're on a divergent course, moving away from what you somehow intrinsically know to be your true self.    Throughout my life, I've forcibly acted in ways to 'fit' in with who I was expected to be.  Why did I do this?  Because I thought I had no other option.  Well there was one other option, and I even attempted on more than one occasion.

A few years ago I learned that it was possible to live a life the way I should be.  It is possible to transition. So, about a year ago I internally made the decision to transition.   There are many many obstacles I still have to face.  I am in a long term relationship of more than 6 years. I have confessed (strange, I use words that make me feel guilty) to my girlfriend about how I feel, but not what I want to do.  She says she still loves me, but I'm unsure as to how long this will last.  I have also talked to my doctor, unfortunately she's not that easy to discuss things with, she's very judgemental.  I will look for a different general practitioner soon.  Also I am very poor and I do not know if I can financially support myself while going through a transition.  I am at a blockade.  I will continue but I do not know how.  I have no one to talk to.  No friends I can confide in.  I have always kept myself distant from people.  I have always hid my true feelings about everything, but that was part of the coping mechanism I made for myself.

I am hoping to meet friends here.  I need people to talk to, people who are non-judgmental.  People who can lend a shoulder when I feel crying because I just saw someone my age pushing a baby carriage and I remembered that even in the best of situations, that can never be me.  And I need people who I can share my happiness with when I have a good day at school. 

So I know this sounds pathetic, but please please, be my friend.

-Floating.

Welcome to Susans.

Take your time to look around, there is a lot of good information available here.  I hope you stay around and post more often.

Sarah L.

QuoteSo I know this sounds pathetic

Hi Floating ,

No... not at all.

I've never found a group of people in my life that are so caring, that share similar pasts, dreams and that I
can relate to like the people here at Susan's :)

Welcome :)

Hi floating, 

You've got friends here and you're more than welcome.  Hope to see you round alot.

cheers

buttercup   :)

Hello Floating and welcome to Susan's!

Thank you so much for introducing yourself.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules  (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay :)

tink :icon_chick:

Hello to you Floating  ;D I am new here as well and hope to find some new friends as well  :)
Nice to meet you!

Hello, Floating, and welcome to Susan's.

It sounds to me like having some resources might just help you sort things out.

I don't know where you live but if you do a Google search that looks like this, you might find some help:

transgender resources Washington, DC

(or Detroit, or Dubuque, or Miami, or wherever is closest to where you live).  In those resources I hope that you find someone who is a gender therapist.  I recommend that you start there.  Some gender therapists provide services at a low cost or have a sliding scale of fees based on income.  You might also find groups where you can go for support.  The makeup and purpose of such groups varies widely so all won't fit your needs but maybe one will.

I hope that this helps.

Wing Walker

Thank you all for the warm welcomes! ^_^

Myanne,  let me offer my welcome as well then! 

Wing Walker,
Thank you for the suggestion, I have actually looked extensively, and had my gp doctor and her staff look as well.  Unfortunately there is a lack of those services in my area.  There are a few good ones in the bigger cities about 4 hours away.  However without a car, it's very difficult to get there, and would be expensive too. 
I'm not giving up hope. I know there are a few psychiatrists and psychologists here that have experience with TS clients.  However, none of them are accepting new patients at this time.

However, I am a little confused about one thing.  Is it better to go to a psychiatrist or a psychologist.  I get the feeling that I won't get any actual therapy done at the psychiatrist.  However my dilemma is that my health care doesn't cover psychologists. 

It's a frustrating situation.  So if anybody has suggestions, I'd greatly appreciate it.

Anyway,  thanks again everyone. :D

I can be a friend.

Yay!. 

One!


*lol*

Welcome to the site, Floating. You will find some wonderful people so come here often.

Gennee

:)

welcome,  I'll be your friend
Hugs Kinkly :)

Welcome back Floating!!! love to be you're friend too :)

*lol*  Yay!.  Thank you all so much!

i would love to offer my friendship as well, whatever we can do to help each other is why we are all here. if all people can be as kind and as loving as all of us, this world would be such a better place. i would also like to offer my condolescenses on your therapist issues, as i too have the same dilemma here in ohio. I wish you the best of luck.


Mickie
The New Warrior Princess

Thanks so much!. 

It's nice to even just know that there are people there to help if need be. ^_^

Like yourself, I am new here and also searching for some new friends.  Perhaps we shall both be lucky  :angel:

Hi! I am roni. I am new to sharing my real innerself. I have been a cd since early childhood. I always identified as a kid with the females, but didn't understand why. My mother knew, but never said anything to me. She told my uncle when I was 10 that I wanted to be a girl. It devastated me and I denied what I knew was true. I wore my mother undies ever chance I had. My best friend's older sister would dress us up including makeup. It was heaven! When we would go shopping, I would stay with the women so that I could touch/imagine dressing up. I would dream of being left in Penneys over night and trying on every piece of lingerie. The thought is still exciting. I am 50, but wish that I had admitted to everyone when I was a teen my true feeling. It's too late for me to transition in life...hurt too many people in the family. I'm sitting here in a motel room on a business trip all dressed up (in a new outfit) and loving every moment. I live for these moments and envy other who have had the courage to transition into female. I am by need a man, but in heart always a woman. I encourage you to follow your heart so that later you will feel good about your decision. If I could go back, I would follow my heart and become the woman that's always been inside of me. Your Friend...

roni :angel:

One of the nice things about this site, is if you have a question, or are facing an issue that your not sure of which direction to pursue, you can post it here, and read the responses from people who have both an understanding of what you're dealing with, and have a sincere interest in trying to help. You can air what is on your mind, and not worry about anything non supportive or mean spirited coming back.

Not as good of a friend as I wish I could be (I'm a selfish bastard), but I can at least assure you that we share the same boat over a frozen ocean.

Hi Floating,

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QuoteI am hoping to meet friends here.  I need people to talk to, people who are non-judgmental.  People who can lend a shoulder when I feel crying because I just saw someone my age pushing a baby carriage and I remembered that even in the best of situations, that can never be me.  And I need people who I can share my happiness with when I have a good day at school. 

So I know this sounds pathetic, but please please, be my friend.

-Floating

I believe you will find all of what you seek in this board, there are many wonderful ladies here that will be more then willing to assist you in anyway they possibly can. I see you have met Wing Walker, she is my beloved other half and knows some about about finding things such as therapists etc. I realy don't think there is much difference if it is a therapist, psychiatrist or a psychologist as long as they are qualified to diagnose you as having GID.

Anyway please do visit the board when ever you feel the urge to do so. There is for the most part some activity somewhere on this board in one place or another 24 hrs per day. If you wish to share anything you may drop by and just say, "Hi Cindy!" and I'll get back to you. Working with people is what I have been doing for the last 20 years.

Have yourself a wonderful day.

Cindy