Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hey there, my name's Rei. I heard about the site from doing a random google search. Hehe, I know it's not nearly as great sounding as, "My friend recommended it!" or something of the like, but hey. I am 21 years old. I am currently married to a wonderful wife who is supportive of my choices. So, I guess a little background couldn't hurt, eh?

Okay, first, despite the aloha, I'm not from Hawaii. I guess I'm just culturally broad. Anywho, I have always had this thing about myself that I never could figure out. I always felt out of place. As far as physical traits go, I am rather male. Definitely too male for me. I've always been the type to just chill inside and not go out and get dirty and such as a child. When I was entering my teenage years, I started to contemplate whether or not I was put together right. I went through numerous problems in life. I was addicted to heroin and other drugs, contemplated suicide, been in trouble with the law a few times. I've been a bit of a hassle to society.

So, recently, I sat down to think about my life, as I do every night before I go to sleep. I recollect everything I can in my life since I can remember and reflect on who I've become. At times this drives me into a bit of an emotional state, but it's better for me in the end. Moving along, while I was doing this "soul searching", as it were, it finally dawned on me. Maybe it wasn't what was inside that was wrong, but what was outside. So, I decided to do some research into gender. I found this website, as well as many informed Wikipedia articles, and discovered that there are a lot more people that I realized that have, or had, this "problem". I wish I could express the relief that I felt. The last thing I wanted was to be considered even more strange than people think of me now.

So, I gave it some more thought. After much thought and consideration, I realized that I was built right inside, but the outside came out all backwards. I have never felt "manly" or any of the like. When I was growing up, I would volunteer to do laundry for my family just to try my sister's clothes on. I thought this to be a normal experimentation at my age, but it just felt right. Looking back, I should have never ignored those feelings. When I recently informed my wife of this, she was amazingly supportive and not surprised at all. She has committed to helping me to transition from a male to a female. Just telling her made me feel happy inside. I've only felt that happy once before, and that was on my wedding day to her. True happiness. Oh my, what a concept. I'm almost in tears just thinking about it now. I'm still trying to find a qualified therapist here in Atlanta, Georgia, though. Some would say to visit the therapist and see if this is something I really want to do. That makes sense, no logic in jumping into a lake of disappointment, right? Well, my logic is thus: I have hated myself for so many years. It has been so hard to find inner peace. Since my discovery, I have finally found my inner peace.

So, that's my story thus far. I am hoping to make some wonderful friends here and learn so much from people who have been there and those who are still going through it. Community is the staple of humanity. My hopes are high that this community will welcome me with open arms. Thank you for your time, dear ones.

                -Rei

Welcome Rei,

It's ok that your not from Hawaii.  There are a lot of wonderful people here and I hope you get to know many of them.  There is also a lot of good information available.  Sit back, get comfortable.


Sarah L.

Hello Rei and welcome to Susan's!

Thank you so much for introducing yourself.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules  (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay :)

tink :icon_chick:

Welcome Rei!

I'm a newbie too, but everyone has been really great! I'm sure you'll like it... well, I hope you do!

Are you Canadian?

Alas, I am not. I live in the state of Georgia in the US.

Quote from: Rei on May 14, 2008, 12:19:07 AM
So, I guess a little background couldn't hurt, eh?

Oh...LoL...My Canadian friends always say "eh?" LoL you tricked me!

Hehe, sorry about that. I just like to keep my speech, and writing in this case, culturally broad. I apologize for any crazy deception.

Oh no, not deceptive at all...very cool actually.  :)

Hi Rei and welcome to Susans.

Gennee

:)

Hi there

Welcome. Are here I got excited picturing palms, golden beaches etc.