I'm wondering how many people have stories of feeling really good about being Non binary I realise that some stories of this are likely to get the response of I experienced that & I hated it. because we all experience things differently which is why i dont want to start with my story ;)
I've had some euphoric periods where I'm entirely conscious of who I am and how I feel and it all feels good. They tend to be periods of creativity and even just more regular activity.
I'm waiting for one now. It better not be too long.
Well, for me, I'd describe it this way. I love who I am and if I were binary, I wouldn't be me. I wouldn't trade who I am now for anything. So I would say that yes, I enjoy it. I think it allows for a more open view and a wider experience in life. I think being binary (at least from a nonbinary point of view) would be confining for me, like a straightjacket. Nonbinary is freedom, in a sense.
So I think that overall, it's definitely a positive for me.
My gender euphoria story was from before I had started questioning my gender actively
I was on a weekend camp with mostly people who had some form of disability we were doing some crafty stuff jewelry making (basically beading) while talking to two girls that had minor intellectual problems I don't remember what was said when one of them asked "are you sure you're a guy" without thinking I stood up pretending to be insulted turned away took a few steps away looked down the front of my pants turned back to them and in a depressed voice said "yes I am" both of the girls were laughing and I was on a high someone had seen the real me and hadn't put me down. I was surprised at my reaction I use a lot of humor to cope with strange situations.
i like that story,
there is a pleasure and humour in sitting outside of the gender thing. When someone you know sees it, or even shares it, it can be tremendous fun. I think you can sometimes feel more open to the absurdity in life, and that is always fun.
Well here's my little contribution...
I had never mentioned the word "androgyny" to this one friend of mine (sort of an ex, but we're more like siblings now), but he naturally picked up on it. There was something absolutely heartwarming about being with a group of people and hearing him refer to me as "her" and "him" almost interchangeably. He later said he just slips up a lot, and I told him it was fine. It was a lot more than fine, though, it was extraordinary. I guess he just viewed me and neither male nor female, and his subconscious mind couldn't get things in order.
Quote from: Rebis on August 11, 2008, 03:15:24 PM
I've had some euphoric periods where I'm entirely conscious of who I am and how I feel and it all feels good. They tend to be periods of creativity and even just more regular activity.
I'm waiting for one now. It better not be too long.
That's exactly how I feel when I have one of those periods of extreme self-awareness as well. Usually I can't sleep, I feel almost like it's an out of body experience, and I just want to do everything that makes me happy, all at once.
Yay for Euphoria! I wish I was back there now.
Quote from: Rebis on August 19, 2008, 08:17:48 AM
Yay for Euphoria! I wish I was back there now.
Yes, it's a lovely country. We should all move there. And form a nudist colony, except we'd wear clothes.
...I think I'm in body obliviousness right now. Not dysphoric or euphoric. Just blah.
me too. Blah!
can't wake up anymore.
mm, me also. I have spent this entire day off sleeping.
I spent the whole day yawning...sadly, I can't sleep at work. But the next two weeks are only 4 days long for me! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I worked from home for about a week or so, and when I went back in, I had decided to do my hair differently, more femme-y than just the pulled-back-into-a-ponytail thing I've done for years. I'd started using a little olive green eyeliner (although it doesn't last too long, so not sure if that was even still "in effect" when this happened), and wore a button-down shirt rather than my normal slouchy black t-shirt. I'd been wearing nail polish for a week or two before my week-at-home, but I'd a new fresh coat that matched the shirt I wore (blue). I sported a neat bracelet my girlfriend gave me for my birthday, shiny links mixed with black rubber links (kinda looks like a bike chain) which was new.
Our Japanese business consultant woman came over and was obviously impressed. She complimented me on the look, on my hair, suggested I should just get it layered... But then, she's always been a pretty cool person, very trendy and very liberal.
Our investor came by to give me my paycheck, which was unexpected, and he's a cool guy, but older, too. He said, "Wow, look at you, with the hair, and the polish... You're looking great!" Both in the same day.
It was just what I needed. I could've cried. I'm tearing up now, thinking about it. :) I've never gotten those kinds of compliments from coworkers when I've tried to dress up "manly". So obviously, something about going androgynous works for me...
...Paul
Congrats! That's really awesome!