Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hello everyone,

I am Angela, a 24 year old .... ummm.... lemme see.. have been straight guy, cross-dresser, transgendered, androgyne,... at certain point of time in my life... and though I am sure I am not straight guy anymore  ;), think a lil mix of everything else so I wont go into labels... so for now I am just Angela.

A quick bio of my life:  :)

@1984 - Born into the world
@1990 - First trans gendered thoughts
@1996 - First time cross-dressed
--> Thought of it as a just a kinky hobby at that time... something which I would grow out of esp after a long-winded scolding by mom when I was caught.
@2000 - Access to Internet.. Realized I was not alone..
--> First time thought seriously about what I am and what I want to be... Still pretty much stubborn headed to accept these growing feelings
@2002 - Suppressed feelings and went into denial as headed for college
@2002-2006 - Long phases of denials with short bouts of acceptance
--> It almost seemed to work for the most as for a long phase of time, I did not dress or think about being a girl... But it came back harder each time and brought a lot of guilty feelings along with it
@2006 - 'Angela' was born... Real acceptance for first time
--> Met other trans people for the first time... Opened up to people in some forums and an online support group... It helped me gain acceptance of myself.
@2006-present - Longs phases of acceptance with short bouts of denial
Present day : In the closet... a lil bit happy.. a lil bit scared... a lil bit sad... a lil bit confident... a lil bit optimistic.. and hopelessly confused  :-\

I have often thought about getting professional therapy but somehow don't get the courage and motivation to actually go and get it... Done some stupid things in life.. like take un-supervised estrogens for 3-4 months... was lucky that it didn't lead to any medical complications and also that realized how risky it was in time...

For now, I am at mostly at peace with myself... Although, I would probably love to transition and start living as a woman right now, I have never been desperately unhappy with my current life/body (it helps when you have a naturally rather effeminate build  :D except probably the face  :( )

Well thats been my short semi-eventful life till now... sorry if i bored everyone with a longish intro post  :P

Cheers,
Angela

Hello Angela and welcome to Susan's!

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Hiya, Angela,

Welcome to Susan's and please, make yourself right at home. Sounds like you'll have some experience of pretty much all the various categories here!

I'd say you'll fit just fine.

Nichole

Hi Angela,

Welcome to our little family.  Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers.  Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now.  And it is always nice to have another member.

And don't be afraid of the dark, it wont hurt you.  I don't let it hurt my friends.  It knows it's Mistress.


Mistress Janet

Welcome Angela,

We all have a different story to tell yet in many ways we are all quite alike.  You will love it here. It is easy to make friends.  If you need advice from an older lady just ask.  I guess I am the old lady here. I am quite hot looking though.  lol

Have a great life hon,
Ronda

Thank you for sharing your story, Angela. Welcome.

Gennee

:)