So I wrote a huge post the other nite that was awesome, only I hit a weird button and deleted it. >:( :'(
Lately I have been having alot more confidence in myself. I don't even know what or how it happened to change from having low self esteem to confidence and speaking my mind. I think my esteem was low because I was tired of people being rude and disrespectful. Lately though I've been calling out people and their BS when I see it.
A few examples:
A) A housekeeper at work was yelling at me for no reason and in front of all our residents. I think that was the turning point. I thought in my head "who is she to criticize me" especially in front of people. So basically I just ignored her and was over it.
B) That was a positive change considering my step sisters wedding was coming up. When I went to it I had alot of fun at the reception. I was able to relax and just have a good time. Without any meds!! I talked to all my extended family and basically learned that because some of them don't like me doesn't mean i have to take it to heart. "because a man (or woman) gives you a gift doesn't mean you have to accept it"
C) A drunk guy tonite at dennys. He wouldn't leave a friend of mine and I alone when we where eating and was being annoying, so I literally said, "that is your cue to go". After that he got the not so subtle hint and left.
D) My step mom has a loathing and disgust for me. She fakes nice, but still can't hide her body language, which screams "You sicken me". Funny part is I realized that I don't care about her opinion. Im happy and thats all I need. I had to stop internalizing her hatred and just let it go. It doesn't make one iota of difference to me how she feels. Selfish no....Self preservation YES.
E) At work our supervisor got all huffy, claiming "night shift doesn't work together". I straight up told her that shes not around enough to see that we have awesome teamwork. Whenever any problem at work is brought up she immediately skirts the issue and goes back to that same tired statement. "night shift doesn't work together". Next time the issue comes up ( lol probably by the end of the week) I am going to tell her exactly why our shift can't work in the same fashion as "her day girls". She might not like to hear it but it needs to be said. People are considering quitting over her BS.
So that is basically my attitude lately. Don't mistake it for a bad one. Im not mad at the world or anything like that. I am realizing that I don't have to be peoples doormat and to stand up and speak my mind. I think that people respect that.
Audrey
There wasn't a single thing bad about it dear, congratulations! I am honestly proud of you (=
What a great confidence you've developed, Audrey. That is just soo awesome. And Kimberly's right, at least imo, you sounded not a single wicked note. :)
Nichole
I love the name of this thread... we should make it a regular topic :D
Great to hear that, Audrey. I guess once one accomplishes something as monumental as transitioning, then people's petty idiocies don't intidimidate us anymore. We've seen enough fear and doubt to last two lives.
Way to go, girl!
Great going, Audrey! That is awesome! You didn't fall into their trap and act in kind. Think what a world this would be if everyone just ignored idiotic people and did what they needed to do. Great exam0ple, thanks for sharing.
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i'm very happy for you, this is the same thing i've been trying to tell people here. i'm tired of your crap and i'm not going to take it anymore. we need to show the world what confidence we do have and not back down one movement period. maybe then they'll see that we're real people too. you rock lady.
Warrior Princess Mickie
Good for you, Audrey.
Calling people on their BS is a great confidence booster.
I agree with soldierjane, that it would make a great regular topic. The more we stand up the more they back down. IMHO.
You are a great example of a strong woman. Go, Girl.
Janet