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Hey all, i'm back with another poll. This time its over how crazy your life is. For me, I choose option 1 because no matter what gets settled my life gets more crazy. For example, I had no intention of starting a polygamist relationship, and yet here I am. Not to mention my grades all over the place, crazy people at the local blockbuster, and family that can't decide to accept me or hate me. Crazy, crazy I tell you! :icon_userfriendly:

Whew, i'm ok now. ;D So voters, to your mouses!

Since I have come out I have gotten

QuoteAlot more crazy and not getting better

My GD has come out alot more than before I started hormones... I have become less impatient which I thought was impossible and much more angry in general! :(

Yeah I don't think much has changed - my life has always been a little crazy and full of drama (Most of my friends are Artists....crazy!!!)

Not much has changed.  Just a few more doctor's visits and a huge hole in my bank account, and limited time to travel.  That will change in '09, though.

Somedays I think my life is a tad too dull.


Jay

Quote from: sneakersjay on October 09, 2008, 06:32:49 PM
Not much has changed.  Just a few more doctor's visits and a huge hole in my bank account...

Same here. My life just keeps on rolling by, actually things have gotten increasingly better, although it's not directly due to transitioning. I hear you on having a huge hole in the bank. I have my FFS coming up in Jan. and am trying to cut down on anything and everything just to save for it.

It's all the new Drama and new feeling. Plus the fact being treated differently takes getting use to.

I been out all year so "Crazy" is normal now.

Winter is coming and there is a hole in my bank account too.

Voted: It's getting crazy and not getting better

I'm in a complicated girl situation and I wish I wasn't, My mom wasn't trying at all to understand before (but now she is, TG), my dad's ignoring it....Let's just say family's a little crazy right now and my only relief is that I don't live with them anymore. But on the otherhand I'm thrown into drama here on campus....

Then there are the days I never have a moment to sit and take a break (for longer than 30 mins)


It's just nonstop insanity schoolwise, family wise, friend wise

Oh I'm nuts, perhaps crazy, but my life is never dull.

crazy and not better.  Lot of issues with family, impatience and anger rose.  Distorphia and depression more.  Though think may be getting better least with some family

I have gotten happier and more content this past year which is a HUGE CHANGE FOR ME, and the friends that I have come out to have said that too. But, I'm still very dude look'n and haven't said anything to any family as of yet so my initial poll answer "No real change" could CHANGE REAL QUICK :-\

My trajectory was an "it has to get worse before it can get better" sort of deal. Like when you have to tear up a lot of stuff in order to remodel. It took 2 and 2/3 years after coming out before I was ready to transition. During that time, not only was my dysphoria not yet cured, it was brought out into the open and thus seemed inflamed, aggravated at first. I passed through some traumatic and bitter times on this steep path. I faced periodic depression in which the twin demons of Self-Loathing and Despair slammed me unbearably hard. I had one (1) nervous breakdown at about the midpoint of this nearly 3-year inflammation between coming out and full time. Healed and rebuilt myself up from there, and it's been all looking up since.

Once I finally transitioned, it was the most tremendous relief a poor frazzled soul like me could wish for. Life is good now. Life is beautiful. Now I am soooo frickin' sane, it rocks. :D I am so happy to be me, so peaceful inside. In retrospect the tough journey was very much worth the trouble.

When my life is in upheaval, I like to recall lines by Jalal al-Din Rumi that really help put it in perspective:

Demolish the house, for a hundred thousand homes
may be made from this carnelian.
The treasure lies beneath the house, and there is no other way:
don't be afraid of destroying the house and don't stand still,
for from one treasure in hand it is possible to build
a thousand houses without suffering toil and pain.
In the end this house will fall of itself into ruin,
and the treasure beneath it will certainly be uncovered;
But then the treasure won't be yours,
since your soul receives that divine gift as wages for destroying the house.