Hello *waves*
I thought I posted an intro to this messageboard awhile ago but it's disappeared. Well, I guess it was a hint when I had to re-register. Anyway, hi, I'm Allison. I'm working on getting that legally changed. I still haven't decided on a last name yet, just Allison Michelle. I am a pre-op M2F TS living in balmy FL. As I write this I am 29, almost 30. I live full-time and have been for at least 7 months now officially (unofficially 9 months I think). It's funny because I was full-time before I realized I was full-time. A few months into it I decided to ask my therapist (whom I see off and on) what are the qualifications to living full-time and she replied "Allie, you are full-time". I never burned my male clothes or tossed everything male out with the trash, all I did was slowly incorporate living as a female into my regular at-the-time-male life until eventually there wasn't anywhere I went or did as a male any more. It was a slow gradual process so adjusting was easy.
Um, I have been on HRT for well over a year with pleasant developments. Not quite what I was hoping for, but I'm still giving it time before I consider any changes (*cough*breastimplants*cough*). My family does -not- approve of this and I'm basically moving on without them. I can't stop and wait for them to accept me, I'm on this road, I'm far into the journey, I can't stop now. It's too late. I'm not your typical TS, I guess you could say. I am a mix of goth/metal/punk/girlie all into one. I'm also 6'6" and though I stand out as a result, I really don't care. I've grown a thick skin as a result of living part-time. Basically it takes a lot to offend me. Plus at my height, you really have to have courage to try and start something with me since I'm taller than most. When I have my boots on (combat boots) it's all the more intimidating. Some times I use that to my advantage. I have a tough-girlie image basically. I have 9 piercings, no tattoos. I wear black a lot. I don't really wear makeup often. I have hair that makes a lot of women jealous (read: curly). I'm a major flirt, but I only flirt with people who know I am TS. I can't be deceitful and risk becoming a statistic. I'm out to everyone important to me, out at work, etc.. work made a unisex bathroom just for me since I can't use the women's bathroom until after SRS (ugh..). I haven't had any laser yet..I'm trying to save up for it. Same thing with the name change. I don't have a wonderful well-paying job, so it's been a slow gradual transition for me. I don't mind. I'm not frantic about how I -need- SRS soon. I've come to terms with my body and my plans. I have this thing between my legs. I don't like it, I don't like using it, I do plan on having SRS but I know with my financial situation it's going to be awhile so I might as well be comfy in my body now since it's going to be a long journey. I equate my transition to the story of the tortoise and the hare....I'm the tortoise. slow and steady. I may not get there as quickly as other TS girls. I'm okay with that. I feel taking it slow gives me time and a chance to learn, know, and find out all the minor smaller details about living as a woman. I know the major stuff, but the little details are equally important and can sometimes get a person read when they don't realize it. I want to be well-prepared for when I have SRS. By the time I do have the surgery, I will be.
and yeah...I've gone on waaaaay too long about me.
so now I'll hush this intro up.
and my deeper connection to the TS community. I'm also a rape survivor, which happened when I first started out waaaay back in college. I created a website primarily for survivors and TS survivors since there isn't a site on the net. That URL, should you want to see it, is available by PM request.
Hello and Hi again Allison (=
ReWelcome to Susan's most wonderful Place (=
Please feel free to join in on the conversations, of course! (=
Hello AllisonY2K,
Welcome to Susans. Reading your bio I think that you're going to enjoy it here. Stay and chat a while. You seem to be a very confident woman who is very comfortable with who she is. Have fun and enjoy.
Chat later.
Steph
hello Allison,
You have shown lots of courage in your life already so it's easy to see you will do well. i am so sorry to hear about your family but i'm sure with time they will come around. i love your outlook on life and i think lots of us could well use that as an example. a low life hacked into the forum a while back and we lost data so everyone had to re-register. welcome and thanks for coming back, stay and chat with us as much as you can. :)
beth
Hi, Allison! Welcome, welcome,welcome!
Wow 6'6", and I thought I was tall for a woman. I'm 6' and with 3" heels(my favorite shoe)
I tend to stand out a little more than most. I too am a rape survivor. It happened many years ago when I was very young. I don't talk about it much, like I said it was a long time ago
and I've long since moved on.
I think it's great your doing a web site. I worked as a rape crisis counselor in college. I know a lot of women will appreciate what your doing. It's also a good way to retake control of your life after such a violent event. Keep up the good work.
Cassie
Hi Allison,
Nice how going full time came so natural and easy. Wow, 9 piercings! I just got my first 2 this last weekend for ears. I am interested in hearing your rape experience if you ever tell it, or I see it on another posting.
Hi Allison and welcome to susans.
So happy to hear that you are doing well and that you will be happy when you finish your transition.
Take it one step at a time, and we all wish you the best. I just wish that I was in a position to be able to come our and live full time but that will come in due course
Denise
I don't know if it will ever be a subject here. If the topic ever comes up (in general) I'll openly talk about it.
For now if you're curious you can check out the website http://tdtid.tssupport.org/. That has my story on it.
..and if you're really bored you can check out my personal site: http://alisony2k.tripod.com/index4.htm
...and look who's back!
my goodness, where to start? well, I took a month off and went up to NYC. then life went to hell and I spent my last week in NYC in the Mount Sinai Psych Ward after I tried to kill myself. then in order to get back home to FL, the hospital wouldn't release me unless I had a place to live so guess where I'm at now?
yeah, with my parents! (the ones I haven't seen in like 3 years)
so things have been interesting to say the least. mom and I have been spending more time together and bonding more. Dad's a little hesitant about me being TS still. I just started working again and saving up for my name change, laser, SRS, etc. oh and I haven't been on HRT in 2 months either thanks to no job and no healthcare so I am trying to get back on that too...just paying full price for lab work and prescriptions really really really-really sucks!!!
so yeah...hi again!
*TIGHT HUG*
I am very pleased you have decided to stop in Allison... I have been wondering what you have been up to!
Keep safe and sane... we are here if needed or wanted, even both! (=
Hello Allison,
It's good to see you back here. I hope that your troubles are now behind you and that the issues you face now will be resolved soon. As Kimberly said, we're here it you need us.
Steph
Hi Allison,
Good to see you back. I hope life goes much smoother for you. Well as smoothly as life can go for us TS folk. Keep your spirits up and no more of that suicide c@#p.
Big Hug,
Cassie
As they say in "Welcome Back Cotter" Welcome Back! Welcome Back! Welcome Back!
Sara.