For reasons that are WAAAAAAAAY to complicated for reproduction here I was involuntarily placed into a psychiatric facility for DTS- Danger To Self/Suicide Attempt on Dec 2nd until Dec 16th...yes, fun fun fun. ANYWAY... I had made my younger brother my main go to person for the psychiatrist as, well a liaison.
He was involved in my treatment plan and was gonna find out about HRT and my other diagnosis for GID;etc. I had to come out to him while on the unit one day in the visitors area/unit dayroom, and I'm happy to report he has been totally accepting and supportive.
Now I also had two very dear friends that I have known for the past 20+ years that knew of my being "committed" as it were and though I could've put it all off onto something else I just decided that eventually I was going to have to come out to EVERYONE sooner or later, right?
Again very happy to say they too have completely accepted me and both have stated that if this is what will make me happy than they would rather have me as an alive friend than a dead one. Don't get me wrong both of them and my brother have also said "look we don't fully understand why you need to do this, but you being happy is more important".
This whole incident was not what I had in mind in helping me to come out or to help me cope with everything that has happened so far.
I just got fed up one day, and I know a lot if not all of you can relate to that. What has made this entire crappy incident so much more, memorable? surreal? Is the complete love and acceptance from three people I thought for certain would completely push me from their lives look me right in the eye and say "...how could think that I (we) would ever stop loving you or not want you around in my/our lives!?!?!...".
I was completely blown away, and though I'm soooo happy, it also made me feel even worse for what I had intended to do to myself. I'm not out to my parents yet, but this has at the very least given more hope and courage toward that day that will be coming soon as my entire family has already heard of my recent committal @ the padded room hilton here in sunny Phoenix Arizona.
I hurt people, no doubt, suicide is stupid and it's not the way you come out to people either. Be careful you don't misread your family and friends when you think you know exactly how people will react.
Thanx for reading & Good luck
-Heather :-*
Aw sweetie. :( What a roller coaster you must've been on! Hugses.
I'm glad that things worked out with everybody, and I hope they continue to be as supportive once you really get into the thick of transition. And sweetie, don't be so hard on yourself about the suicide thing. Sometimes things really do just get too much for one person to handle. You're not alone in that, and I you are most assuredly not a weak or stupid person because of it.
Mina.
Thank you Mina :-*
oh heather! im so glad you are ok!
im glad things are going well with your friends.
hang in there grl... i love you :-*
Thanx Beth!!! I love you too :-*
So sorry, sweetie, for the problems that landed you in there. But I am so happy for you that it is turning out for good, and that a beautiful flower is going to emerge from this experience. Your story will be an encouragement for many others here. Thanks for sharing this very personal part of your life.
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Yeah, that's called a 51-50 here, 'danger to self or others.' And when things get that bad, other things, seem much less a problem and a lot easier to accept. Too bad it had to go that far. Nice it happened at last, even if that was the path.
Thank u Kristi & Tekla=0*