sometimes like when i take off my binder to go work out i just get this really angry and pissed off feeling inside me
and its just like i hate it but i know i wont be able to change that for i dont know how long :(
i dont really know what dysphoria means lol yea
and i know u guys that havent had top surgery maybe feel that way too?
lol i hate waiting for anything especially this
on another note i saw this really attractive butch girl at the gym hehe *guffaws*
Heartwood used CURSE!
Hearwood's SPEED fell!
Heartwood's ATTACK rose!
Heartwood's DEFENSE rose!
...Okay, on a serious note, I do know where you are coming from, emo. :(
Quote from: Heartwood on February 24, 2009, 09:57:33 PM
Hearwood's SPEED fell!
Heartwood's SPELL fail!!
emo, i get it too. its like permanent wardrobe malfunction
yea *hugs drainy and heartwood* :-*
Emoboi, I totally understand where your coming from. I think we all can.
*hugs*
Jay
Although hygiene is important to me, as with urinating, I hate doing those both because of the body. Dont get me wrong, I shower on a daily basis of course, but everytime I have to be without a binder, or see myself naked, I hate it too.
HUGS TO ALL ;)
definitely know exactly what you mean.
Yeah, we all feel (or at least have felt) that way. That's what we deal with as gender dysphoric individuals.
Silver
This is the reason that I hate riding my bike to school! Sounds random, but every time I look down, my jacket (zip-up) has folded underneath my boobs and so they are shouting 'See Me!". I get immediately angry, feeling like crying, and nauseous at the same time. Same thing with wind. >:(
I curse that now when my labido is up I can't jack off like a guy can, that I can't pee normally, that my boobs no matter me binding can still be noticed. That when I sit down sometimes by pants ride up and remind me what am missing. I can't have a girlfriend without being looked at for being a lesbian and even if had one how am I going to deal with the physical problems?
and the boobs yeh hate them... big massive things that don;t want to go away or flatten down or even flatten in a way to appear like pecks. wearing a binder that digs into your back makes you sweat, and the challenge of making it less visible under shirt.
I don't really like my female body...but I try to take care of it since it's what I got
Just watched a video of myself performing. I have a huge ass and thighs. It's got smaller since T, but I'm genetically cursed - my dad also had wide hips and big thighs. You'd think knowing that it's from Dad genetically would get me over it, but it doesn't. So yeah. And ain't no surgery to deal with it. I guess I'm just gonna have to wear a jacket when I'm on stage and that is SO friggin hot.
Dennis
uggh forgot about the ass, that too got it genetically from mom's side in my case
I know the feeling.. the lumps and curves *pouts*..
How I hate them.
I too have a chest too prominent to bind properly. I've got a pair of DDs on a rather slim torso, so they stick out like an effing balcony even when I'm wearing the most "flattening" thing I own. And how brilliant, out of all of the biological women in my family, the only one with a broader set of hips is my paternal grandmother (which makes it obvious where I got 'em from) and she literally looks like she's wearing a busk or a coushin under her skirts to make 'em stick out further back and to the sides!
Which is what I'd get if I'd let myself go at all >.<
A couple of times of having a really great "male day" have had a massive downer when I got home and took my binder off. Friggin DD's. Stupid curves. When I bind my chest my ass and thighs look ridiculous and out of proportion. So many girls have told me they'd kill for my figure and it drives me insane >.>
Quote from: Jeatyn on February 27, 2009, 05:58:42 AM
So many girls have told me they'd kill for my figure and it drives me insane >.>
Oh I hear ya...
On the MtF side here, I do find it a little wierd when I notice that I'm completly flat. Some part of me is like "Oi, you need those." I also don't like how scrawny I am and my dick is kinda dysphoria inducing...
Damn heartwood I wish we could just trade parts.
Yeah. I hate it. I also hate going to the bathroom. I don't have an STP packer so I have to take my dick off every time I go to the bathroom. :-\
Quote from: Elwood on February 27, 2009, 12:06:08 PM
Yeah. I hate it. I also hate going to the bathroom. I don't have an STP packer so I have to take my dick off every time I go to the bathroom. :-\
At least you don't have to put it in a drawer and leave it at home when you go to work....
Quote from: Miniar on February 27, 2009, 01:26:15 PM
At least you don't have to put it in a drawer and leave it at home when you go to work....
What! Are you like a porn star or something? ??? Why would they know what's in your pants?
Quote from: Elwood on February 27, 2009, 01:31:24 PM
What! Are you like a porn star or something? ??? Why would they know what's in your pants?
Tight clothes and a job where my boss hasn't yet been informed of my "position". Also, a lot of the customers are "little old ladies". I had to dye my hair to get the job even (no blue hair for me :().
Quote from: Miniar on February 27, 2009, 02:02:33 PM
Tight clothes and a job where my boss hasn't yet been informed of my "position". Also, a lot of the customers are "little old ladies". I had to dye my hair to get the job even (no blue hair for me :().
Tight clothes? I have no idea where you work.. but I would never wear tight clothes..
Quote from: Jay on February 27, 2009, 04:13:26 PM
Tight clothes? I have no idea where you work.. but I would never wear tight clothes..
I'm 6'2. I can't find anything that "sits right" without it being a little clingy at best.
'sides, I hate it when clothes hang loose, it exxagerates the wobbly bits.. >.<
Quote from: Miniar on February 27, 2009, 04:15:38 PM
I'm 6'2. I can't find anything that "sits right" without it being a little clingy at best.
'sides, I hate it when clothes hang loose, it exxagerates the wobbly bits.. >.<
Wow you are tall! Awesome! :)
Ah that explains it all!
Quote from: Jay on February 27, 2009, 04:16:41 PM
Wow you are tall! Awesome! :)
Ah that explains it all!
Hehe, "I'm tall" and "I'm Icelandic" are my excuses for
everything. And it works.
I luckily have no ass so that's not really one of my issues buuut as for curves and tits meh those things i hate with the white hot intensity of a billion white hot burning suns. Packing is great cept its not an stp which makes me sad when I need to piss lol and binding helps but you gotta eventually take it off sooo eh I get numerous times during the day/night/early morning (lol yay insomnia!) to be disgusted with my body. I can't wait to actually start T to get rid of the freaking curves lol which btw my "gf" loves to repeatedly tell me she loves and that she'll get me to wanna keep too bleeeh *insert some projectile vomiting right here* lol
If you're cursing your body, change it. It's not that complicated nowadays.
some things can't be changed like height and hip bone size unfortunately. and even those that can be cost more than many can afford without saving up a few years. so till them things can be changed might as well curse it lol
Quote from: Aiden on February 27, 2009, 06:25:29 PM
some things can't be changed like height and hip bone size unfortunately.
I don't know anything about hip bone size, but adult height CAN in fact be changed. Unfortunately, it can only be changed through a surgery which breaks your leg bones and gradually separates them, causing them to constantly grow towards one another until a certain point where they're finally allowed to unite again, lengthening your leg length. It's called, creatively, leg lengthening surgery - it's incredibly expensive, very painful, lays you up for anywhere from 3 months to a year, leaves you unable to exert yourself (running and playing sports) for another year, and is mainly available for cosmetic purposes only outside the USA. For those who think phalloplasty is the most "extreme" of cosmetic surgical procedures, they should look at some of the diaries (from people who've done leg lenthening) on the Make Me Taller forum.