Hi, I was born female. I'm married to a man. I have always felt transgendered, and was very disturbed to learn what was going to happen to me at puberty. Now I'm 31, and I've hated every hormone ruled thing that has happened to my body since.
Since I have an appropriate attraction to the opposite sex, no one ever takes me seriously when I try to get a toe out of the closet. So if I were my correct mental gender I'd be gay.
I read on here about phantom penis, and I too have experienced this phenomenon. Not as an all the time sort of thing, but if I think about it, it is there. Who thinks about their junk 100% of the time anyway... teenagers I guess.
My voice sounds just like Josh in his pre T videos, and I'm always getting remarks about "my accent". I think it is my giveaway, and in recordings it sounds to me like typical male inflections and speech patterns but produced in the wrong register.
Anyway, hi everyone. Hope to get to know some of you folks here.
Hi Presto, :icon_wave:
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Janet
Hello Presto and Welcome to Susans! :D
QuoteWho thinks about their junk 100% of the time anyway... teenagers I guess.
I for one.. and most people on T! ;D
Jay
Welcome, Presto. This place may help you explore your feelings a bit.
Quote from: Presto on April 22, 2009, 11:04:43 PM
Who thinks about their junk 100% of the time anyway... teenagers I guess.
;D
I'm FtM and was talking to a close male friend. He was saying it must be hard to have always been in the wrong body. I tried to explain that, yes it was, but mainly you're busy dealing with life. It isn't like it's something that's going on 24/7. (At least for me.)
I'm just starting to live fulltime as a woman. In my male guise I was always het - attracted to women. It wasn't that I objected to the idea of sex with a man, I just never met one who appealed. Now, even early in my shift to womanhood, men are starting to look better to me. I don't want to be one but it might be nice to have one in my bed. :) So it's beginning to look like I'll be het as a woman, too. So who knows? Don't let who you're attracted to determine who you are.
Good luck on your journey.
- Kate
Yo and Welcome
Welcome. Glad to have you onboard Bro.
Hi Presto and welcome to Susan's.
Paula
So I've been looking around, reading what there is to be read around here. I was
Hi presto! welcome dude!
Quote from: Presto on April 23, 2009, 06:20:08 PM
So I've been looking around, reading what there is to be read around here. I was
you've mastered the art of suspense, you were what? ;)
Oops! Failed phone posting. :laugh:
So I've been looking at how to categorize myself here. I considered Non-op, because I have a terrible fear of medical procedures, but that area of the forum is kind of intimidating. And there is a major poster there who is active in the cult I fled screaming from at age 18.
So I'm considering the Androgynous area of the forum. There seem to be a lot of unicorns there. ??? I think I saw a multicorn too! It was a little scary. >:-)
I am very happily married to a straight male who appreciates my masculine attributes. He does also like the few feminine traits I keep too.
Mostly, I really hate being lumped in with females. I was delighted to find the term Tomboy, growing up, thinking I'd found the right designator. But people always said, "Yes, but... you're also a girl." and "isn't it about time you started behaving like a little girl???"
Is there room here for someone who doesn't quite know where to fit in here yet?
Welcome. You do not have to be in a room you can hang out where ever you want, no reason to try and fit in a box.
Myles
Presto,
I'm pretty much the opposite of you in that I'm male-bodied, and married to a woman who likes my "feminine" side, but also likes that it's in a male package.
Do you want to transition? Do you think your husband would be supportive if that was what you wanted to do? Drop me a line sometime.. I'd love to talk.
Hi, Presto! You sound a bit like me. I'm married to a guy, and I'm sexually attracted to men only. I hear ya on the tomboy thing, too.
You can hang out wherever you want to on this site. You might want to skip around a bit on different days, depending on your frame of mind at the time.
Anyway, welcome to the family.
Heelo Presto
If there is one thing I've learned being here is don't worry about boxes or labels. Just be free to be you. And you've found a place where people understand.
LoL
Cindy James
Quote from: Presto on April 23, 2009, 09:37:25 PM
I am very happily married to a straight male who appreciates my masculine attributes. He does also like the few feminine traits I keep too.
Mostly, I really hate being lumped in with females.
Same for me, but opposite genders. I was happily married to a straight woman who appreciated my feminine attributes. We both appreciated having genitals that fit together, although neither of us really cared who had what.
And yes about being lumped. I've never cared to be lumped with other males and have avoided male-exclusive or male-dominated clubs.
Don't worry about labels. Even if you find one that fits you now, as you grow into who you are you may find that it no longer fits.
Good luck in your explorations.
- Kate
Hi Presto,
I'm rather like you. I'm 31 and female-bodied. I'm no-married but in a 'serious' relationship with a bissexual man. In my teens I considered myself a male and I used to pass pretty well too. Now I'm mostly in a neutral-androgyne mode but don't usually consider myself a 'straight woman', I'm rather a (male) gay. Ok, I have to say that the 'male' word scares me.
My partner know a bit but no the whole thing. This worried me at most.
Seeing "bro" in here in reference to me really tickles me! It sounds so much better than anyone calling me sister would. But it still sounds a little bit weird. 8)
My husband does not really understand why I want to push the issue sometimes. He too doesn't really get the extent of what I feel.
He asked, "You wouldn't do anything drastic, now would you?" I think he means surgically.
No, no I wouldn't. Good thing I can be me where it counts. With him and in my own head.
I do love it when some people pick up on the difference. A small child asking his mother "is that a man or a girl?"
Many people asking me where I'm from because I have an unusual accent/way of speaking.
We are the same age, twospirits. :)
I don't like how people in the media use the "gay man in a women's body" phrase, but don't seem to act the part.
Here's a little about me:
My husband likes long hair, and I have been growing it out for him. Not just for him, but I hadn't had long hair since high school, and it was dyed and dyed and then chopped off for the last 13 years. I was curious what it looked like, it had been a while.
It is definitely one thing that helps me pass as my birth gender. :D I would rather keep a low profile. The less attention the better. If close friends have an idea, that would be fine, but I am very introverted in general.
Anyway, I wish we could post about other forums here, the one I belong to that is focused on hair length and health has only a smattering of non-cisgendered folks. I bet there are plenty on here who would be interested in hair care.
I gave up shampoo, and my curls have never looked better! Oh, and castor oil for thicker eyebrows and lashes, and it is also the best thing for my skin ever! I was able to quit using benzoyl peroxide because of castor oil.
That's about the extent of my girliness. Long hair care and pursuit of better skin.
I have stretched my ear piercings, 10 gauge bottom holes, and on the left ear I also have two 14g and a 16 gauge in the lobe, and a 16g helix.
I stretched the lowest ones to accommodate my own silver craft version of Little7's Goddess Spirals. I saw a bartender wearing them several years ago and complimented her on them. She looked at my ears and responded, "You couldn't wear them." Instead of something like thanks for the compliment.
I was confused???
I never found the same earrings for years, until I stumbled into a thread of people discussing them, and it happened to be on the long hair forum I mentioned above. That's half the reason I stuck around a board that was chock full of women. Normally I would run away from such a congregation of estrogen, but they are a really great group of people. There's a few bad apples in the bushel, but there are everywhere.
I kind of think that this board would be less tolerant of people of vastly different opinions, but I will have to stick around and find out since I'm new here. I know we'll all have our different preferences, just seems like maybe some primary major ideals might be a lot more uniform here. I get so tired of reading people who write inflammatory things about gays, let along ever mentioning gender bending issues. Veiled writing on the subject is allowed in some of my favorite places on the internet, and I don't really want to speak up most of the time.
Too introverted for my own good.
The church I was raised in was instrumental in the Prop8 crap, and I've got relatives on Facebook who are fans of some unspeakable things. Gah!!!
I also have a lot of flair that expresses my opinion on gender, and wrote a note that tiptoes around how I feel about it.
I'm so far back in the closet, the stench of mothballs is cloying. :P
If you can be honest with yourself and with at least a few other people, the mothball smell won't be quite so bad. ;D
Good luck.
- Kate
Quote from: Presto on April 24, 2009, 08:17:41 PM
I don't like how people in the media use the "gay man in a women's body" phrase, but don't seem to act the part.
Does the people use the "gay man in a women's body" phrase in the media? LOL
just seems like maybe some primary major ideals might be a lot more uniform here
You've got to be kidding, we couldn't agree on lunch. Sometimes I type 'The sun is yellow and the sky is blue' and sit back and wonder how many people went racing to their window.
I just checked and the sky here is more blueish whiteish here and the sun is more orange.
Myles
The sky is black and there is no sun, there is a moon ;)
Actually, as Dead fans know from the song Scarlet Begonias,
Wind in the willows playin tea for two;
The sky was yellow and the sun was blue,
But we had some help to get to that place, better living through chemistry and all...