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Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: TooManyToasters on May 30, 2009, 02:06:31 PM

Title: This is confusing.
Post by: TooManyToasters on May 30, 2009, 02:06:31 PM
I've considered myself male my whole life (which admittedly hasn't been very long), but since a few months ago, I've felt something wasn't quite right. I'd known about transgender issues for a long time, and was always somewhat curious, but I never thought it was an issue with myself until recently.

Not long ago, I took the COGIATI and was classed as Androgyne. I'm aware of the controversy surrounding the COGIATI, though, so I did a bit of research of my own, and decided that it was probably right.

When I really think about it, I don't feel any real connection to being male. Why should I let my genitalia have any real bearing on who I am? People still see me and treat me as a boy, which doesn't always bother me, but being referred to as such is frustrating. I can't really explain why. The thought of actually being male is... frightening, in an odd sort of way. But I'm still hesitant to label myself as transgendered in any way, as unappealing as the alternative is. I'm naturally hesitant and skeptical of practically everything, though I know there's not much chance that this is just a passing phase or something like that. For a little while, I entertained the thought that I might be a transsexual in denial, but I doubt that. There's still the small possibility, though.

Figured I might as well dump this pile of unorganized thoughts while I'm here.
Title: Re: This is confusing.
Post by: Renate on May 30, 2009, 02:19:59 PM
My score on the COGIATI said that I was a cocker spaniel,
but I decided that I was just a woman instead.

YMMV
Title: Re: This is confusing.
Post by: Nero on May 30, 2009, 02:56:03 PM
Lol Renate!

I was classed as androgyne too. But that's most likely because I have common and stereotypical shortcomings of my birth sex, such as no spatial or mathematical ability and in ability to read a map.
Title: Re: This is confusing.
Post by: stephanie_eve on May 30, 2009, 05:45:09 PM
yeah, that test called me an Androgyne, too.. which makes alot of sense to me.

I also understand your turmoil... I've had times when the thought of being a "man" just turns my stomach, times when the thought of being a "woman" felt wrong. I've slowly come to realize that I feel the most comfortable somewhere in between. I don't really label myself as much other than "human". having feelings that aren't cohesive with my birth gender doesn't make me any less human.

all that really matters is what you think of yourself and your own personal happiness.
Title: Re: This is confusing.
Post by: Lori on May 31, 2009, 08:15:41 AM
The
COMBINED GENDER IDENTITY AND TRANSSEXUALITY INVENTORY
(COGIATI)



Your COGIATI result value is: 205 Which means that you fall within the following category:
COGIATI classification FOUR, PROBABLE TRANSSEXUAL

What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially feminine, but with some masculine or androgynous traits. It is very possible that you are a candidate for a diagnosis of transsexualism. You show a strong degree of gender dysphoria. At the very least, further investigation should be undertaken. Your COGIATI score places you among the majority of those diagnosed as transsexuals, the 'late onset' tanssexual.




So, like how good is this test? Or how accurate? How respected?
Title: Re: This is confusing.
Post by: tekla on May 31, 2009, 11:10:00 AM
So, like how good is this test? Or how accurate? How respected?

Not good, not respected by anyone who matters, and its about as respected as Rodney Dangerfield.
Title: Re: This is confusing.
Post by: Jaimey on May 31, 2009, 10:14:31 PM
Test aside, I think it's best to go with your gut, Toasters.  I always identified as male too, but when I think about being a man, that just doesn't seem right.  After a great deal of self exploration, I've decided (again) that I'm androgyne.  I think part of the draw of androgyny is the freedom of it.  :)
Title: Re: This is confusing.
Post by: noeleena on June 01, 2009, 05:50:41 AM
Hi..Nero ... oh you just had the map up side down ....
    i can read the map .. just could not do maths .. speelling or read . dyislica yes . no damm wonder ..
      i.m a mix of both ..  so some times its better .it just takes time to find out who you are .....
...noeleena...